Lost In Thoughts

Kalin. 28. Feminist. Equine enthusiast (Simon <3). Animal lover. Hockey fan (Chicago Blackhawks & Vancouver Canucks). Aggie at heart (degree in Ag Business). Lover of rustic things, cabins, mountains and nature. Former fat kid still loves food, coffee and whiskey.

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This blog will no longer be updated!  

If you'd still like to follow me, please head over to @im-your-huckleberry.  Thanks!

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The second time you fall in love with someone, you’re going to feel so relieved. When you get your heart broken for the first time, you can’t imagine loving someone else again or having someone else love you. You worry about your ex finding love before you do, you worry about being damaged goods. And then it happens. Someone else loves you and you can sleep well at night. The second time you fall in love with someone, it’s going to feel different. The first time felt like a dream almost. You were untouched, untainted by anyone. You accepted love with wide open arms and desperation. “Love me, love me, love me!” So you did. And then it fell apart and left you shocked to the core. You realized that people could be cruel and break your heart. You realized that people could stop meaning the sweet things they said to you just yesterday. So when you go into it again, you’re going to keep in mind everything that you’ve learned. You’re going to say, “Love me, love me, love me…until you don’t. In which case, I would like some advance warning. Thanks!” The second time you fall in love with someone, you’re going to compare it to your first love. That’s okay. That’s natural. You’re going to be studying the new love with judgement and wariness. “My ex never liked broccoli. Why the hell does this one eat so much broccoli?!” Discovering that you have the ability to love multiple people who are different and feel different is initially very jarring. Loving an unfamiliar body will leave you disoriented and in dire need of a map. That’s okay too. That’s to be expected. Just ask the new love for directions. The second time you fall in love with someone, you’re going to suffer from a bout of amnesia. You’re going to poke and prod at your lover’s body and be like, “Wait, how do I do this again? How do I love you? I think it starts with us having a moment together in some coffee shop, right?” It’s going to feel scary at first. Falling in love is sort of like riding a bike though. You never really forget. The second time you fall in love with someone, you’ll be a more sane person. Your first love is when you get all of your insanity out. You behave like an insane monster because your mind is freaking out about all these new powerful feelings. By the second time, however, you have an idea of what works and what doesn’t. It’s by no means perfect. The insanity will make a cameo at some point. “Peek a boo. I’m here! Hope you didn’t forget about me!” But you can usually shoo it away after awhile. The second time you fall in love with someone, you will hopefully have better sex. Do not quote me on this. The second time you fall in love with someone will still be exciting and you might even talk about moving in together or marriage. It will feel more “adult.” You have no idea what adult love actually is but you think it involves making coffee for each other in the morning and maybe even getting a dog. “This is my dog, Xan. I got him with the second person I fell in love with because that’s what you do! The first person I was in love with would’ve killed a dog.” The second time will not be the first time. The first time is an insane magical life gift that you can never reclaim. But that’s okay. The second time is more real anyway. The second time can involve some amazing love.

Ryan O’Connell (via ding-ang-bato)

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I told her to go find a toy and she brought me a leaf. 

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I used to do a little graphic design for money

and I make the ugliest effing graphics?!

Like I just made something beige.  Da fuq.

[chilly-mac]

I really wanna complain about this but I feel so dumb complaining about this.

My stupid iPhone battery was at 42% by 11AM.  

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[john-sans-clothes-deactivated20]

I’m beautiful so fuck off

[chilly-mac]

THE HAWKS SIGNED MICHAEL LEIGHTON!!!

Leighton used to be a huge hockey crush of mine a few years ago when he was with the Flyers.  Glad to see him with the Hawks!

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INFJ

I've been reading up a lot on my Meyers-Briggs type, INFJ, and I have to say, it's so soothing to read some of this stuff. I don't want to define myself by the letters or marry myself to them, but it's so cool to read about traits with which I so strongly identify, such as -- why I get along with everyone but connect with so few. -- why I will be totally set up to do something and still waffle on it, putting it off and refusing to pull the trigger even though I know I need to. -- why it's been SO TOUGH for me to recover from my break-up. Why I cannot. Stop. Analyzing. And. Dwelling. -- how I'm obsessive with planning and structure but also get suffocated by it. -- how I can feel so secure in myself and also believe that no one else will ever love me for me or realize my value. Seriously, there were times when I thought I may be a sociopath or something because of the way my brain works.

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I love when people try to complain about morons but they type "maroons" instead. Yeah now we know who the REAL maroon is.

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I'm so blessed to be such a good father.

Seen on FB.

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If there’s a group of like 26,000 vagina owners agreeing that the shit they do to vaginas in pornography doesn’t feel good and your first thought is “look at these stupid girls who think porn isn’t a valuable teaching tool” you’re like the biggest dumbest idiot on the internet today