No kind of home

Just a 20 year old girl battling heart break and day to day life.

[heliosv-deactivated20180626]

[chinupbae-blog]

- I got dumped.  - I lost over 15kg even though I didn’t have 15kg to lose.  - I’m seeing someone about depression and anxiety because I can’t get up in the morning. - I’m not sleeping. - My dreams are always nightmares.   - I’m hardly eating.  And that has been my 2016. 

[reality-escape-artist]

I care. It fucking terrifies me how much I care.

(via bl-ossomed)

[chinupbae-blog]

My boyfriend can’t even look at me. I hate myself. I don’t understand. I don’t get mad at him when he upsets me yet he can’t even stand to talk to me. I don’t know what to do. 

[bitterfaces]

[weflxwless]

[chinupbae-blog]

My boyfriend hates me. Watch me fuck this up in exactly the same way I fuck the others up.

[timur-simakov]

[roguetraders]

Rose McGowan photographed by Ron Galella at “Jawbreaker” premier after party, 1999

[darshanasuresh]

one of my favourite things in the entire world is when there’s a huge thunderstorm outside and it’s raining heavily and you’re in bed swathed in blankets and you have just never felt warmer and safer than you do in that moment

[chinupbae-blog]

I've put on weight. I just want to lose it all I can't deal with this right now.

[chinupbae-blog]

Which guy had the best dick/did you have the best sex with?

None of your business.

[chinupbae-blog]

I want to cry. There is not enough time in the day to do what I need to do. 

[iflewbikes-deactivated20181005]

When men talk of women and girls in terms of legal/not legal, what they’re really saying is “I already sexually objectify this child and would attempt to fuck her if there were no laws in the way.”

You can’t deny that is fucking scary.

[darkmarxsoul]

Sometimes there are things that just sort of vaguely seem wrong, but you can’t put your finger on why…until it’s worded like this, and suddenly everything slides into place and you feel like someone punched you in the gut.

[chinupbae-blog]

I look different to every single other person, to quote "I look too normal". Not "normal" enough to fit in with people outside the scene, too "normal" for anyone in the scene to give me a second look. I'm surrounded by so many people yet really how many care? I'm sick of people talking over me like I don't exist, or just assume things based on how I dress and present myself. I just want to move and start fresh.

[lochnessmorgan]

[chinupbae-blog]

I think it is kind of bullshit that everyone else can come to me and talk about literally anything they want and I will listen but the moment I bring up my dad and my childhood and growing up around drugs everyone just seems to forget how to reply. I don't really give a fuck if the topic makes you uncomfortable, I feel uncomfortable when you talk about how perfect your relationship is with your dad, or when you shit talk your dads for doing something thoughtful. I don't open up to many people just those who claim to be my best friends, who say they are there for me whenever, but like that is so hard to believe when they all run away at the slight mention of jail and drugs. I shouldn't have to pretend my childhood didn't happen just so you can continue to talk to me. Like seriously fuck off cunt.