~Another Chiw~

A feline trapped inside a woman's body.

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To have someone who cherishes your existence is bliss.

I love you.

[catasters]

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Turns out, life isn’t a puzzle that can just be solved one time and it’s done.

You wake up everyday and you solve it again. ~ Chidi Anagonye

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Mastering new skills

If any, my new skills would be making peace with sadness, being more careful, and taking care of myself first as the most priority thing.

Yes it’s killing, yes it’s uncomfortable to make peace with sadness. Admitting “i am sad” is not something that can easily done by someone like me.

You’re lucky if you got shoulder(s) to share your weights. But sometimes you just need to continue walking all alone like a champion. Looking all strong eventhough all the strength inside was actually gone.

Dont worry. You’ll be allright with yourself eventually.

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Writing challenge #6: Single & happy

What is it with this title? Hahaha 

I dont think a relationship status and happiness are mutually related, but okaylah ya. Let’s follow the rule. 

Am I happy? Yes, I am. These past couple years were hard, but they taught me many things, including to be at peace with everything beyond my control. 

Am I happy because I am single? Definitely not. My happiness has nothing to do with I’m being single or taken. 

I learned to be happy over simple things. Morning breeze when I open the window in the morning, my daughter’s face when she’s asleep, listening to my father’s voice on the phone, monthly paycheck (yayyyy) or just freshly steamed pumpkin in the afternoon. I am so grateful of them. 

Of course, there still  times when I cursed over many things, I’m a human afterall. But to summarize, I am happy. I really am. And no, I am not single, I just open to any opportunity hahahaha 

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Writing challenge #5: My parents

Simple minded people just like those who are living in rural areas. Easily pleased, with not many things to worry about except their kid’s wellbeing.

Talking about parents means talking about my whole life. And thanks to them, we never went hungry. We weren’t rich, but we got our educations in any way that possible, even if it means struggle ourselves to get it. 

There were many times I got angry over them for various reasons, which is now only got me tears whenever I remember all those things I did. Yes, I was an awful daughter. But one thing for sure: I love them to my bone. 

And till now, I still weep in my midnight prayers, hoping Mom back to live so she can see how her daughter doing now, and bragging myself that I am a great mother just like her to me. 

Thank you, Bapak & Ibuk. For a pleasant childhood, full of learning adolescence, that shaped me who I am today.  I don’t know what good things I did in the past life to deserve both of you as my parents, but I can’t be more grateful of that.

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Writing challenge #4: Places I want to visit

So many plans were cancelled due to this damn pandemic. Our plans to go to the beach, or even J plans to spend her holiday at her Granpa’s. 

I don’t know if I ever still want to go anywhere. But, this afternoon, someone makes me wanna go somewhere really bad. 

To that camping place I used to go. Shall we? 

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Writing challenge #3: A memory

Talking about memory always aches my heart. 

The first thing comes up in my mind now is My Mom’s proud face every time she picked up my student semester’s report. She’ll proudly tell everyone at our neighbourhood that her smart daughter scored the best in her class, or winning this and that. 

Mom, please smile wherever you are now.I also got my good grades, too. You’ll be proud, very proud. :((( 

I miss you. 

Damn. Why so hurt writing this challenge i hate it.

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Writing challenge #2: Things that makes me happy

Whoa, I’m cheap. So many simple things such as freshly steamed pumpkin can make me happy all day long. 

I don’t know. The older I got, the easier to make myself happy. I think it’s a good thing and I’m grateful to feel this way. 

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Writing challenge #1: Describing my personality

Okay, so I joined this to test myself, whether I’m too old for this things or not. And since I’m not really into any kind of challenges, this would be hard. 

Here we go. 

Why did the first day’s challenge could be this hard? I never really knew how my personality is although I took many quizes or those assessments things I found online. But then, i think this one described me best (well, at least it was confirmed by my closest circle).

And since I’m a lazy ass, I’d just put the screenshoots I grabbed from the site. How do you think? Does it look like me? or even better: could you help me describe my personality?

Okay, then.  Let’s continue to things I can brag about and be embarassed (but some of them really suit me) go read it at >> https://www.16personalities.com/intj-personality 

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Mencari dan menemukan

Kalau mereka pasangan, pastilah dua makhluk ini soulmate sepanjang zaman.

Mencari adalah kata kerja, menunjukkan semua usahamu di masa kini, dan masa-masa sebelum kini, tentunya.

Sementara menemukan, adalah kata reward (iya, gausah protes dah! Ga pernah denger kata reward yaaa?) yang kadang kau dapat, kadang terlewat.

Ada kalanya mereka bertemu, dan menjadi penenteram hati dengan tanda titik yang berkumpul menjadi satu. Kadang bahkan disertai tanda seru.

Yang tak begitu beruntung, adalah yang menemukan bonus berupa rentetan kata dan tanda tanya. Lalu apa? Kok bisa? Harus gimana? Tega-teganya? Dan tanya tanya yang lainnya. Gausah tanya ke aku, ya, contoh-contohnya?

Yang paling malang dari semua, adalah yang mempertemukan mereka berdua, lalu terjebak dalam kontemplasi panjang tanpa tahu harus melakukan apa.

Terlalu takut untuk gembira, terlalu lelah untuk bertanya, terlalu letih jika harus kembali mencari, dan akhirnya keluarlah ajimat bertuah berjudul “ya sudahlah”.

Ada kalanya, dua kata ajaib yang mengesankan pasrah ini bisa menjadi penengah, meski diam-diam kau tetap memaki dalam hati sambil pura-pura tak mau mengakui kalau itu membuatmu gundah.

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Proud Marketing & Strategy Team on @homecreditid gala dinner #lifein360 #lifein360pics #homecreditid (at The Westin Jakarta)

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Hasil oplas di Korea Selatan cabang Oleos. Hasilnya sungguh mencengangkan, bahkan Adinda sampai tak mengenali wajahnya sendiri #snowcamera #fotonirfaedah #yaudah #gapapaKok #akusihudahbiasasiginiin

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Happy?

Happy birthday, me

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The almighty Tahu Bambang

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Where's your tail, Mr Don Kimbul Palabaco? #cats

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Hasil 'panen' dari halaman rumah. Katanya sih ini namanya "Mangga Apel". Sungguh identitas yang gak jelas. Jadinya mangga atau apel nihh? Kalo mangga ya mangga aja, apel ya apel aja. *krik* Tekstur dagingnya kasar dan seratnya nyontrot.hadeh. nyontrot apaan sih? Baru enak kalo dimakan bareng garam & gula pasir, atau dirujak sekalian. Sebijinya nyaris sekilo, sepertinya. Daku mah masih prefer Mangga Arumanis kemana-mana dah.