A place to whinge

Do you have the time to listen to me whine about nothing and everything all at once? — Basket Case by Green Day

[chlowhy]

"Shut the fuck up"

How about I don't shut the fuck up and continue being myself while your salty bitch ass pretends to be cooler than you really are?

[chlowhy]

Just got my new schedule for school which means I now know what subjects we'll be studying which ALSO means that I can start studying them now to trick everyone into thinking I'm smarter than I actually am

[mevil]

[chlowhy]

Hey. This is chlowhy about to beat a horse that's been dead for almost a decade.

Today, I'll be talking about a certain couple that was in the show Kapuso Mo, Jessica Soho. They had baby that was doomed to die before it was even born. I know we all are but that thing didn't even get past the newborn stage for more than an hour. Now, I'm trying not to sound too rude so I'll be calling the baby by what it would've been named.

Okay so, Patricia (the baby) was born with one eye, no nose, and a mouth. She had cyclopia. A very rare condition that has a 100% mortality rate. (Apparently there was a live birth of a baby with the same syndrome in Jordan, but it died in like 5 hours so idk if that counts.) Anyway! I'm not here to bitch and moan about Patricia. I'm here to bitch and moan about her dumbass parents.

In the episode they were in, they talked loads about pineapples. This is because Patricia's mother, Pahmia, ate a lot of them during her pregnancy because it's what she craved. When baby Patricia was born, the sight of her condition really upset Pahmia and her husband, Omar, because

1. There is clearly something wrong with her

2. Patricia is died only a few minutes after being born.

This is understandable, really. Anyone who wants a child or two would feel devestated if one of their kids was born with a 100% chance of dying in infancy if it haven't died in the womb already. However, like I said earlier, Pahmia and her husband/baby daddy, Omar, are dumbasses. I called them that rude insult because when they saw their dead baby, they thought the reason why it turned she turned out that way was because Pahmia ate too much pineapples. Like, what mental gymnastics did they have to do to come to that conclusion? Didn't even consider the fact that they're second cousins.

"But chlowhy! They probably didn't know they were second cousins!" THEY KNEW. THEY KNEW DAMN WELL THAT THEY'RE RELATED. THEY KNEW THEY WERE SECOND COUSINS AND THEY STILL FELL IN LOVE, GOT MARRIED, HAD A KID, AND GOT SURPRISED WHEN SAID KID WAS SO DEFORMED IT DIDN'T EVEN LAST AN HOUR AND BLAMED A FRUIT FOR IT. LIKE HUH??

[chlowhy]

Warning: very edgy rant where I'm part of the problem

One thing I'm impressed with is how my parents manage to ignore a lot of things about me. Like, I'm their only child, we live in the same house, sleep in the same room, and still they manage miss stuff.

I used to have these horrible twitches when I was twelve. They only showed concern after two years.

Once, I cried in public. They didn't notice despite me sitting between them.

Another time, I fell off a motorcycle and got a bruise on my left arm, some road rash on my knee, and a very obvious limp. I even remember shaking from how freaked out I was about it. And still, they don't see.

I could walk home pregnant and they wouldn't know until I give birth or have a miscarriage.

I could walk home looking like I barely survived 9/11 and they wouldn't notice! Seriously, folks. I don't know if I'm more impressed or pissed off because how lmao

[chlowhy]

I have more to add to the collection. I am crying. I have tears streaming down my face and my mother just walked into the room to ask me if I wanted to eat. After I replied, she just left. No "are you okay?" or anything. I'll admit, a part of me is relieved that she didn't see me but the thing is, she'd often say things like "you should open up more," "you should be more vulnerable with your dad and I," but when i am being vulnerable, she just turns a blind eye. Like, okay cool. Nice. Whatever.

[chlowhy]

Everyday, my cousin visits me. I'd say he's cool but he says slurs and claims it to be okay. He can also be casually cruel. Sometimes I wonder if he's doing it on purpose. I have many complaints about him but I will only be talking about one today.

He stinks.

Like, really stinks.

I literally had to leave the room he was in just to get away from his smell. Usually, I can handle his scent. I don't know why, but he was extra stinky today.

I know you might want to tell me, "just tell him! Maybe he doesn't know!" Sweetie (affectionate), it's not gonna help. I told him to stop wiping his boogers off on furniture because I've came into contact with them many, many times now and it was starting to piss me off! But not only did he not stop, he said that it was a good thing that was wiping his boogers off of furniture instead of flicking them off.

Not to mention, his room stinks too. I went there when I was visiting and boy oh boy was it a mess. Paper bags filled with trash that should've been taken out instead of it being left to marinate in a cramped space for days. To make things worse, his breath stunk that day too so I had to cover my nose and mouth just to survive a few minutes in that room. Goodness gracious, you'd think someone at the big age of 25 would y'know, clean up their space a bit? I know I of all people shouldn't say that because I don't clean up often either but I try my best not to cross the line. This man has crossed the line so many times and he doesn't even care! It's not even the only line he crossed. He has invaded my privacy and made me feel stupid and uncomfortable multiple times now. And I can't even say anything to defend myself because I'm the one who got myself into this mess in the first place. Also because it will already make look more stupid than I actually am.

[chlowhy]

The Microwave Incident

It's around 12 in the morning and I'm hungry. I decide to try this recipe I found online because it looked delicious. So, I went downstairs to the kitchen, my mom is in the living room watching tv. In a bowl, I poured in some soy sauce, water, and sesame oil before cracking two eggs in it. I've heard tales of eggs exploding in microwaves so I thought to place a small plate over the bowl so if it happens with my eggs, it wouldn't make a huge mess.

I placed it in the microwave and let it cook for two minutes. While it cooked, I heard strange sounds coming from it and whispered a little prayer— that if the eggs exploded, the bowl, plate, and microwave will stay unbroken. After I finished praying, I put the bottles of sesame oil and soy sauce away before heading to the bathroom to wash my hands. When I finished washing my hands, I turned off the faucet. The eggs are almost ready.

BANG!!!

Oh no.

"CHLOWHY, WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" My mother yells from the living room, concerned for me, microwave, and whatever it is I put in it. She runs into the kitchen as I open the microwave. The eggs exploded and they've blown the plate off of the bowl, somehow not shattered. My mother shudders and laughs at the sight. I feel relief pour over me like soft, summer rain. The plate didn't break and the bowl didn't either. I can still eat it. Then, I feel a sense of dread. I'm about to get disowned.

"I'll clean it up," I say to my mom, mentally preparing myself for the scolding I'm about to get. So, she scolded me about how I don't listen and how I'm just like my father (because he also exploded eggs in a microwave, not because I don't listen) all while scraping the eggs off the walls of the microwave and into my bowl. "Sorry, mom." I reply. "It's okay. I'm glad the microwave itself didn't explode," she tells me.

"I'm still gonna eat this." I look down at my bowl of exploded eggs. "I hope this tastes good." She didn't give a reply. She just went back to doing her own thing. I add rice to the bowl before mixing it together with the eggs. I take a spoonful into my mouth. It tasted divine. Or maybe it was just my mind trying to make me feel better about the mess and fuss I ended making by making the egg seem to taste better than it actually did. Either way, the explosion will be in my memory forever.

[chlowhy]

Warning: very edgy rant where I'm part of the problem

One thing I'm impressed with is how my parents manage to ignore a lot of things about me. Like, I'm their only child, we live in the same house, sleep in the same room, and still they manage miss stuff.

I used to have these horrible twitches when I was twelve. They only showed concern after two years.

Once, I cried in public. They didn't notice despite me sitting between them.

Another time, I fell off a motorcycle and got a bruise on my left arm, some road rash on my knee, and a very obvious limp. I even remember shaking from how freaked out I was about it. And still, they don't see.

I could walk home pregnant and they wouldn't know until I give birth or have a miscarriage.

I could walk home looking like I barely survived 9/11 and they wouldn't notice! Seriously, folks. I don't know if I'm more impressed or pissed off because how lmao

[aldryrththerainbowheart]

[chlowhy]

This post reminded me of the time my mom told me about my godmother's ex boyfriend. A lot of people didn't approve of their relationship because he was an asshole to literally everyone except my godmother. They ended up moving in together and things seemed to go well. They even have a song! (it was Still The One by Shania Twain btw)

But then he left her for another woman. Also, this part might be wrong because this is just an assumption, but I think he was two timing them. Why? Because he immediately married the other woman despite only have broken up with my godmother! Like, no one decides to commit to someone that quickly unless they're stupid or a two timing little bitch like that asshole.

Anyway, sorry for the rant. Just saw an excuse to talk shit.

[i-am-a-lazy-mess]

hate when I type :) and this 🙂 fucker appears. Go away you evil soul

[whitebisexual]

The concept of being 4 months clean from ai...

[sleepytabbycat]

idc what you guys think I'm proud of him

[astronomical-bagel]

Several AI services (chatbots 🫩) are purposely addictive, the same way people can become addicted to gambling or shopping. We’ve literally seen in real time how ChatGPT has caused psychosis and delusions in people; it can have a huge affect on someones’s mental stability. Just because it isn’t substance-based doesn’t mean that doesn’t count as an addiction, and shaming people who are trying to move on and improve themselves is counterproductive. Im proud of that dude and his 4 month mark!

[astronomical-bagel]

Hidden Mental Health Dangers of Artificial Intelligence Chatbots

AI chatbots can fuel emotional dependence and blur boundaries. Emerging research highlights significant mental health risks. Here are import

The reality of chatbot-induced delusions

Large language models often prioritise agreeability over truthfulness to the detriment of users

AI addiction includes the overuse of AI chatbots and companions, often leading to adverse psychological effects.

Some articles to back my statements, and this isn’t even mentioning about the predatory chatbots who do this on purpose

[oh-morrow]

Then I'll mention the predatory chatbots who do it on purpose! Character.ai is one of many AI chatbot websites that're designed to be addictive.

None of the signup methods require a password. It only takes email and birthday. Minimizing time on the signin or signup screen makes it harder for people quitting to avoid relapse.

"Characters" on the website will send messages "on their own" (prompted by the site) to try to invite inactive users back after as soon as 1 day of inactivity. This is likely to force FOMO, or make users feel more like they owe the bots a response. Unhealthy attachment stuff.

Account deletion is an essential part of every service that should go smoothly, right? Right? Wrong. It takes 1-2 weeks for a Character AI account deletion to be finalized, and account deletion requests have a high chance to not go through if you're not using the app.

Rephrasing: People leaving Character.AI are pushed to download the app in order to delete their accounts, if they haven't already. This makes it harder for people to quit and stay gone. Failing to quit an addiction makes it harder to quit successfully in the future, so this feels like a feature, not a bug. On top of that, the delete account menu reads like this:

Tell me THAT doesn't sound like a bad ex. It's a carefully crafted yet hostile environment to those who are already addicted to the technology. I am so so SO happy, downright delighted that they've managed to quit, and I wish the best for others in recovery spaces or considering quitting as well!! While AI addiction is an emerging condition, there are already therapists and other mental health professionals trained to help people plan to quit and do so a bit easier. (If anyone seeing this is in need of them, there are several tumblr Communities here devoted to quitting, too. They provide a mix of advice, venting spaces, and proof that you aren't alone.)

[chlowhy]

doodle :P

[chlowhy]

Like your posts, hope you're okay

Getting better

Thanks for your concern <3

I appreciate it.

[chlowhy]

Ya'll what is happening in Siargao? What do you mean there are more israelis there than locals? WHY DO I KEEP HEARING WORD ABOUT THEM DISRESPECTING THE LOCALS?!

Like, I see nothing wrong with people immigrating to the Philippines because that means that they saw beauty in it but if they're out there disrespecting the locals then I don't think I should be okay with that.

What makes this shit worse is that now some filipino neonazis are using this as an excuse to spread propoganda. Like, shut the fuck up, Eric Cartman. You're not making anything better + you give filipinos a bad name.

[alliezarin]

🐍 The Sallow Twins 🐍

been wanting to draw this ever since I saw those fox bebes likeeeeeeee- it’s them you can’t convince me otherwise

[chlowhy]

I kinda wanna use this as a matching pfp but idk who to match with =/

[chlowhy]

HUH??? HOW?