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we are one and the same / you take all of the pain away
They made alluka the most op sibling in the zoldyck family oh thats feminism
They made alluka the most op sibling in the zoldyck family oh thats feminism
well what happened while we were apart?
shoutout to the people whose brother is also practically their father
idk if this is clear but i’m getting at how silva is a deadbeat so illumi is kind of killua’s dad, and the zoldycks are also misogynistic to kikyo so illumi is kind of his mom too.
shoutout to the people whose brother is also practically their father
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something something hunter x hunter is incredibly concerned with what it means to assume a child’s fate is genetically predetermined and plays with the dialectical relationship between material conditions influencing your behavior but also the fact that circumstances are neither eternal nor guaranteed by bloodline despite the fact that all of the parents in the series want their children to believe otherwise.
I think a lot of hunterxhunter fans, when it comes to Illumi and Killua’s relationship, often misread it due to their own misconceptions around Love.
I do think Killua loves Illumi, even though others believe he hates him (I think Killua does love all of his family members). Canonically, Killua is afraid of Illumi, but fear isn’t necessarily the opposite of love, especially when it comes to things as complex as family. I also think a lot of people believing Killua hates his family is due to a lot of people having a strict view of those who have been abused, and think all victims must hate their abusers, which is not true— especially when it comes to family, where everyone is conditioned to be loyal to them and love them from birth.
With Illumi too, I often see people downplaying his behaviour by saying “he loves Killua, this is just his messed up way of showing it”, and whilst I have no doubt that is true, it doesn’t take away the harm from it. He is still harming Killua. When mothers and fathers scream at their children, oftentimes they still feel love in their hearts when doing so. Additionally, a husband can harm his wife, yet still love her deeply. How many friends have people had that have said or done cruel things to you, yet you know they still love you? It is the same case with the Zoldycks, especially with Illumi and Killua.
Love does not mean the absence of hurt and pain. Love is not an inherently good or pure feeling. I think many people misunderstand this. Love is neutral.
sketch requests yay!! maybe mito?
love your art!!
there she is
and thank you so much!
(i redrew it cuz i didn’t like how the first one turned out. if you saw it no you didn't ;;)
ahh perhaps a bisky or knuckle doodle?? love your art!
why not both?
and thank you :) 🖤!
Heya!! Here are my works for @hxhbigbang24 event! I made two illustration based on the first part of On x a x Dime by @agreyshirt / @gonisgreatokay! I absolutely love the idea 🥺
Also, some extras below!
Kind of an old piece but yea
Something something self image pt2
Redraw of this one vvv
One of the foundational things that frustrates me about fandom narrative surrounding hxh is the idea that Leorio and Kurapika are Killua and Gon’s parents. While I understand that they are older have generally protective, positive feelings towards the boys, I think it misunderstands and downplays one of the best themes of the series:
No one is these kids parents.
Not even their parents.
Killua and Gon spend the series hopping from frying pan to fire and back again without supervision or much outside assistance much of the time. The core question of the series is “is being a hero actually good for kids?”
Over and over throughout ther series youre forced to watch as childlike innoncence constantly worsens the torture of conflict. The fact gon expects better of the world and the people in it leads to constant heartbreak.
The first time they meet and Gon establishes his non-existant self worth by jumping off the side of the boat, (presuming that two strangers would catch him and if he died then Eh) Kurapika and Leorio react in horror, they view his actions as totally suicidal and berate him for his foolishness. He quickly establishes that his idealism and lack of self-worth are entangled; his life isnt worth much because all people are good.
It wasnt a risk at all because leorio and kurapika are good people and would certainly catch him, and it wasnt much of a risk because even if Gon does accept hes good (something he never expresses), good men are plentiful and he can be replaced.
Later, Kurapika and Leorio watch as Hanzo beats the shit out of a child. The conflict is severely worsened by Gon’s idealism, his belief in fairness and his desire to prove his worth through contribution, both good desires, push a small concession into a broken arm and a severe concussion.
Later, when Canary is again beating a child to a pulp, Kurapika and Leorio seem to have learned their lesson now. Gon can rely on them to not react at all as he gets beaten into a bloody heap.
They leave him in the next arc.
There can be no argument that Gon and Killua have any lasting positive relationship with any adults. Even the adults responsible for their raising, Mito and Zoldycks, have highly strained relationships with their children. The Boys have no close relationships outside of each other, at least not by the animated series ending. Kurapika and leorio are family, but not family you see often.
To claim Killua and Gon have parents at all is to ankle shank one of the strongest emotional throughlines of the series; where are the fucking adults? The real adults, the adultier adults. The adults who treat Killua and Gon like children. (Knov & Morel basically patronize peers rather than genuinely treat them like kids)
They are nowhere. The boys do not have parents. They spend the entire series outgrowing their circumstances, changing themselves and others around them. They’re growing up.
But I dont think you could call it a childhood.
op this is excellently expressed, thank you!! i’m tired of people labelling kurapika and leorio as gon and killua’s parents, not just because they themselves are no where near mature enough for that position, but because they don’t act like parents. they are extremely irresponsible too. kurapika, though of course he does have his reasons, is impossible to contact and did not see gon when he was on the brink of death. leorio is also not responsible, as seen throughout the hunter exam (the whole trick tower incident is mainly what i am thinking of) AND in yorknew city when gon and killua get captured by the phantom troupe (he literally offers them both alcohol, and in the manga killua does has some). of course, there are reasons for these behaviours, and this is not me depicting leorio or kurapika in a bad light, but the point is they ARE irresponsible. every character in hxh older than killua and gon is. none of them actually do anything to protect them from pain. as op phrased it, there are no ‘adultier adults in hxh’ (that we have seen so far).
i also appreciate op delving into gon’s thought process and how that ties into his self-image, i don’t think i’ve ever seen someone talk about it before!!! thank you.
stands up eyes wide open shaking and shivering THE REASON ALL OF THE MEMORIES OF TOUYA AS A CHILD ARE BAD IS BECAUSE THEY'RE THE ONES DABI NEEDS TO CLING TO TO JUSTIFY HIMSELF AND HE'S ACTIVELY DISSOCIATING HIMSELF FROM THE GOOD ONES. if she only remembers natsuo being disinterested and exhausted of her venting then he can tell himself he doesn't care about having hurt him because natsuo is someone else who rejected her and not her best friend in the world. if rei and fuyumi could never understand her then he doesn't have to think about them at all, and she can ignore all the times they did understand and try to understand. are you listening. if he never had a community at all outside his father then she has nothing to go back to no reason to reconsider anything no reason to stay alive do you understand. all the love that existed and every happy moment are buried with touya in sekoto peak dabi cannot carry any of them. tears in my eyes can anyone hear me
this made me sad. op did you have to write this?
in all seriousness though, this is why i do think Dabi is, unintentionally, a very good representation of PTSD and dissociative disorders. Dabi and Touya are no where near the same person, yet at the same time they are identical. Dabi holds ‘no love’ (i say this in quotes) for his family and he HATES them, but at the same time he loves them (thinking of certain clips and panels of dabi specifically, e.g. “mom, no!” “Natsu, let’s play!” [regards to these they are also age-regressive ways of speaking, but i say it shows care for them because of the childhood nickname for Natsuo AND him being concerned for his mother to an extent. you can argue i’m reaching though and that’s fair] and i’m pretty sure he apologies to Shoto at the very end? i have not read that panel myself so i could be wrong there, but i know there is at least some fondness)— just like Touya. Touya and Dabi are different, yes, but they’re also both, in a way, that young boy who went through so much, and was never able to grow up. It makes his ending so much more tragic :(
i definitely don’t think how well some things could be interpreted about Dabi’s/Touya’s character is intentional (I do think the author wanted him to be someone we did not like much), but it’s still heartbreaking nonetheless.
Nanika… 🎭💗