When I was 13 I got sick and threw up stomach acid
Gross, I know
But for six months after that I only wanted to eat blueberry muffins and French toast
I got scared
What if I got sick again
The only way to prevent that from happening, said my very twisted, probably too OCD early teen girl brain
Was to limit what felt safe
Sometimes food don’t feel safe
Not just for me
Sometimes food don’t feel safe for anyone
And I don’t wanna go out
I don’t wanna watch you eat
I don’t want to be around it
Because what if, this time, it isn’t just stomach acid
It’s just easier
Better
Safer
To stay away
And hey, if I lose weight I’m the process...










