THE IRON QUEEN.

sweet persephone, the youthful goddess of spring, you speak with words that drip honey, but your intentions are cold as winter. INDIE GREEK MYTHOS PERSEPHONE classical text based || est. may 2017 SELECTIVE | LITERATE | NSFW penned by kat

[oberynmartell]

[chthoniia-blog]

OK bf is camping and i’m off work and i am here. @___@ gonna do shit.

[chthoniia-blog]

@___@ pls tell life to be less busy

[andhungry]

natasha, pierre, & the great comet of 1812 lyrics sentence starters.

act 1  //  act 2.

❝  dear old friend, how goes the war?  ❞

❝  i wish i were there, with death at my heels.  ❞

❝  it should have been me.  ❞

❝  how i envy you and your happiness.  ❞

❝  i will kill him one day.  ❞

❝  he is not a great man, none of us are great men. we are just caught in the wave of history.  ❞

❝  what am i to do if i love him and the other one too?  ❞

❝  i see nothing but the candle in the mirror. no visions of the future, so lost and alone.  ❞

❝  i am in deep despair at the misunderstanding there is between us.  ❞

❝  i beg you to believe that i cannot help loving you.  ❞

❝  i shall never be happy again!  ❞

❝  i must love you or die.  ❞

❝  how was it i noticed nothing? how could it go so far?  ❞

❝  i’m glad, i can’t hide it any longer!  ❞

❝  oh, you don’t understand anything! don’t talk nonsense, just listen!  ❞

❝  it seems to me i’ve loved him a hundred years. it seems to me that i’ve never loved anyone before.  ❞

❝  if you tell, you are my enemy!  ❞

❝  i won’t succumb to your tender tone.  ❞

❝  i’m afraid for you! afraid you are going to your ruin!  ❞

❝  leave me alone, yes, leave me alone! i hate you, i hate you, you’re my enemy forever!  ❞

❝  forget everything and forgive me.  ❞

❝  i know you are capable of anything. i know you so well, my friend.  ❞

❝  i will stand in the dark for you.  ❞

❝  tonight i go away on an adventure. you’ll not be seeing me for some time.  ❞

❝  now wait! you’d better just give it up now, why don’t you? while there’s still time!  ❞

❝  this is no time for your stupid jokes!  ❞

❝  and my handsome lips mutter something tender to myself.  ❞

❝  well, comrades, we’ve had our fun. lived, laughed, and loved.  ❞

❝  kiss me one last time.  ❞

❝  you will not enter my house, scoundrel!  ❞

❝  don’t touch me, let me be! what is it to me? i shall die!  ❞

❝  why did you interfere? who are you to tell me anything?  ❞

❝  go away, go away! you all hate and despise me!  ❞

❝  there’s ruin at the door!  ❞

❝  nonsense, nonsense, nothing has happened! everything is fine!  ❞

❝  at this moment, you are more repulsive to me than ever.  ❞

❝  i don’t know what deprives me of the pleasure of smashing your head in with this!  ❞

❝  i shan’t be violent, don’t be afraid.  ❞

❝  after all you must understand that besides your pleasure, there is such a thing as other people, and their happiness and peace. and that you are ruining a whole life for the sake of amusing yourself!  ❞

❝  well i don’t know about that, eh? i don’t know that! and i don’t want to!  ❞

❝  is it satisfaction you want?  ❞

❝  well, how are you? still getting stouter?  ❞

❝  there’s a new wrinkle on your forehead, old friend.  ❞

❝  there’s a war going on.  ❞

❝  you told me once a fallen woman should be forgiven.  ❞

❝  but i didn’t say that i could forgive — i can’t.  ❞

❝  that would be very noble — but i can’t be that man.  ❞

❝  if you wish to be my friend, never speak of that again.  ❞

❝  tell him to — tell him to forgive me.  ❞

❝  but still i’m tormented by the wrongs i’ve done him.  ❞

❝  did you love that bad man?  ❞

❝  consider me your friend. and if you ever need help, or simply to open your heart to someone, not now but when your mind is clear, think of me.  ❞

❝  don’t speak to me like that, i am not worth it!  ❞

❝  if i were not myself, but the brightest, handsomest, best man on earth, i would get down on my knees this minute and ask you for your hand. and for your love.  ❞

❝  mankind seems so pitiful, so poor, compared to that softened, grateful last glance she gave me through her tears.  ❞

❝  the comet is said to portent untold horrors and the end of the world.  ❞

❝  my softened and uplifted soul and my newly melted heart, now blossoming into a new life.  ❞

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[chthoniia-blog]

hi my name is kat and i suck at consistent activity

[spctlessminds]

based on this suggestions blog.  warning:  these are pretty dark/angry  &  could be triggering to some people.  please be cautious before proceeding!!

‘  all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly  &  me to not flinch away without meaning to.  when will this stop affecting me?  ’ ‘  all i want is to be soft  &  gentle,  but i’m made out of steel  &  anger.  maybe in another life,  i guess.  ’ ‘  beauty is in the eye of the beholder,  so choose to see beauty in everything.  ’ ‘  burning it all to the ground  &  force them to start again.  they made you lose everything.  now return the favor.  ’ ‘  do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own?  ’ ‘  do you trust me enough?  do you trust me at all?  ’ ‘  don’t you dare abandon me.  ’ ‘  even after all you have done,  i will always want you fighting on my side.  ’ ‘  every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again.  ’ ‘  everyone i have ever loved is long gone.  i sing to the sky alone.  ’ ‘  everyone i touch gets hurt,  but i can’t stop.  i touch  &  i touch  &  i touch  &  people get hurt.  why can’t i ever stop?  ’ ‘  everyone says i used to be a hero,  but i can still taste the blood in my mouth  &  still feel bruises blooming because of my fists  &  my eyes are still stretched wide  &  terrified.  ’ ‘  everything i love has been taken from me.  what do i have left to fight for?  ’ ‘  fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong.  ’ ‘  friends are more important than any material object will ever be.  ’ ‘  i am aching to hold you  &  keep you safe,  to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you.  ’ ‘  i am divine  &  you will bow before me.  ’ ‘  i am fucking divine.  ’ ‘  i am in control  &  i listen to no one.  ’ ‘  i am not a good person.  don’t pretend i am.  ’ ‘  i am not accustomed to love.  this is a learning experience.  ’ ‘  i am not worth saving  &  i am not worth redemption.  let me stay in the dark.  ’ ‘  i am so tired all the time,  all i want to do is rest.  ’ ‘  i am too tired to deal with any of this.  ’ ‘  i bow to no man.  ’ ‘  i broke into sharp pieces when i broke  &  i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together.  i’m sorry.  ’ ‘  i can give you your wings back  &  i can show you to fly once more,  if you only believe in me.  ’ ‘  i cannot be saved.  ’ ‘  i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people.  i can bear this weight on my own.  i have to.  ’ ‘  i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you,  but i loved you too much to notice.  ’ ‘  i crave affection in the simplest way.  ’ ‘  i deserve to hurt.  i deserve to bleed.  ’ ‘  i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me.  ’ ‘  i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer,  as long as it leaves your lips.  ’ ‘  i don’t fight for you anymore.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to let go of you.  not now,  not ever.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to talk about it.  i don’t want to remember.  i don’t want to heal.  all i want is for it to go away.  ’ ‘  i don’t want you to touch me.  please don’t touch me,  just go away.  ’ ‘  i feel anger deeper than my bones.  i feel anger in my very soul.  ’ ‘  i feel nothing at all,  except for when i feel everything all at once.  ’ ‘  i have fallen  &  though i may miss the sky,  i belong here now.  ’ ‘  i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine.  ’ ‘  i have no home anymore.  ’ ‘  i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand  &  then i remember nothing.  ’ ‘  i see beauty in everything,  but especially in you.  ’ ‘  i should never have fallen in love with you.  ’ ‘  i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me.  now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away.  ’ ‘  i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe.  ’ ‘  i will never amount to anything.  i am a failure in the worst type of way.  ’ ‘  i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me  &  maybe someday it will be true.  ’ ‘  if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore.  ’ ‘  if you ask me to,  i will set the whole world on fire,  my dear.  it’s all for you.  ’ ‘  is it my fault?  it’s my fault.  it’s always my fault.  ’ ‘  it’s not murder if they deserved it,  right?  ’ ‘  i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me,  choking on anger  &  suffocating on sadness.  ’ ‘  i’m in love with everything that hurts me.  ’ ‘  i’m okay.  i’m alright.  this is all in my mind.  ’ ‘  i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me.  ’ ‘  i’m so cold  &  i can’t stop shaking.  i am not who you think i am.  ’ ‘  i’m so tired all the time  &  i just want to be awake again.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten.  i just want someone to remember me.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting everything in my life.  just make it stop.  ’ ‘  i’m too tired to care.  blow up,  get angry at me.  i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it.  ’ ‘  jealousy burns within me.  ’ ‘  just let me go in peace for once in my damn life.  ’ ‘  loneliness is a disease  &  it leaves me empty  &  hollow,  like sound goes through my body  &  bounces back.  ’ ‘  made of starlight  &  sunshine,  i shine brighter than they all know.  ’ ‘  my anger is righteous  &  my actions are pure.  ’ ‘  my chest aches  &  my lungs burn.  this sickness comes from the inside.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  all i need is some comfort  &  understanding.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  i ache to go back to the sky.  ’ ‘  my shoulders are aching where wings used to be  &  all i want is for them to stop hurting.  ’ ‘  pull me apart  &  piece me together in your own way.  make me perfect.  ’ ‘  righteous fury throws through my veins  &  if you touch the people i love i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  rise up.  you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more.  ’ ‘  say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue.  ’ ‘  so much blood has been spilled in my name.  time to make you believe it was in yours.  ’ ‘  so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent,  but not when i scream  &  plead for help?  fuck off.  ’ ‘  sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want.  ’ ‘  stay away from my fucking friends.  stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  stop treating me like i’m an idiot.  you aren’t better than me in any way  &  you better remember that.  ’ ‘  the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue.  ’ ‘  the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it.  ’ ‘  to love them is my divine right.  ’ ‘  voices whisper from the shadows  &  they fill my mind with thoughts of you.  ’ ‘  what did i to wrong to be so unloved?  ’ ‘  what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it?  ’ ‘  who the fuck do you think you are?  ’ ‘  why can’t i ever fucking stop crying?  ’ ‘  with a new year comes new tests  &  triumphs.  let’s try to make the most out of it.  ’ ‘  would it really kill you to be honest for once?  ’ ‘  yes,  i remember my wings breaking  &  being destroyed.  i was powerless to stop it.  ’ ‘  you are not required to love your parents,  or to even like them.  ’ ‘  you can’t hate me more than i hate myself,  but you are more than welcome to try.  ’ ‘  you may say you love me,  but you love only a part of me.  i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being.  ’ ‘  you never fucking cared about me.  don’t fucking lie about it.  not to me.  ’ ‘  you remind me of mint.  fresh,  sharp,  kind of cold,  but in a nice way.  i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite.  ’ ‘  you shine light in even the darkest parts of me.  you are my sun.  ’ ‘  you should fear me,  but you don’t.  i will be eternally puzzled,  yet grateful.  ’ ‘  you touch me  &  my skin burns  &  it burns for you,  always you.  ’

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[chthoniia-blog]

mythaelogy:

I have always understood why vultures mate for life. You can’t live among a sickness without starting to become it. There is a quiet kind of dying in always waiting                                         for death.

— Yves Olade, “antinous among the reeds” 

[chthoniia-blog]

work for a little bit this morning, and then i’ll be doing replies. i’m so sorry for not getting to things sooner-- things have been a bit hectic. <3

[volrachnun]

Sarah J. Maas, A Court of Mist and Fury.

[adoringaliciavikander]

[chthoniia-blog]

So sorry that I’ve been AWOL, babes. We had a bunch of people get fired so I had to pick up a bunch of shifts. I’ll be around for a little! <3

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[chthoniia-blog]

kingofashcs

                      ❛   well said love ,         it’s indeed also your home so you can do whit it what   YOU PLEASE ,         i just cannot promise it will last long .        don’t forget you have a three headed pet walking around.   ❜

          “ i would not want to impose myself on your decor, though. i’d rather collaborate and create an environment you can endure, as well. -- speaking of which, have you seen cerberus? i have a treat for the darling. “

[chalamaet]

[timotaychalamet]