What happen today was devastating. I wanted to see you to tell you in depth what my principal told me. I was trying my best to be in your radar through out my crazy day. You were the one who set a time (sun goes down ) to see me, so I tried my best to respect that. I did many things to kill time including taking a nap. I didnt know that going to DD to pass time would turn out the way it did. My intentions were not to hurt you. I feel disappointed with myself for pushing you away went I was really trying to see you, my reason to run out of work today. But it didnt happen that way. I was trying so hard to be a "great girlfriend" but I fail miserably. I invest so much time in being a "great lover" that I lose track of me. I dont want to keeping doing this to you and I dont want to feel this low. It really hurts me that no matter how hard we try we wind up hurting each other. I am sorry I dont see your picture but I am also sorry that you do not see mine. I know at heart we mean no harm, but that loneliness is there. I am sorry I can not fill that hole.