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fucking crying and punching the floor

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i love to make it out like im so strong but i know that im the weakest person ill ever know

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why cant i cry anymore

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shit i gotta stop smoking cigs in my room or at least blow it out the window. its fuckin 4am and my mom knocked on my door telling me to stop burning incense.

fun fact: its not incense

i need to buy more incense tho

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tw/drug abuse, self harm, suicide

i don’t think ill ever get better because its very fuckin hard to quit with my horrible coping mechanisms (smoking cigarettes, huffing aerosol, smoking weed, cutting myself). it feels like a lock on my soul and if i don’t use them, i’ll be in a darker place than i am now with all of these addictions and ill want to kill myself again. my mother is scared that her kid will end up dead. i am trying as hard as i can.

on a more lighter note, im trying to get clean from self harm and i am about a day clean so lets gooo. its a start and i hope that i can overcome my other faults