lyricist and host of mbc fm4u’s starry night radio, kim eana, focused a post on jonghyun on today (november 18th). kim eana is a well-known and respected lyricst who has worked with shinee on “hello” and “if you love her”. a translation of her post can be read below. please make note that there are references to december 18th at the start and end of the post. (source)
[note from translator: i did my best to have her poetic writing make sense in english, but there may be inaccuracies.]
i’m the type to talk about jonghyun easily on broadcasts without hesitation, but since a few weeks ago i’ve been getting choked up, making me think, “it’s that time again.”
that time when i miss jonghyun deeply all of a sudden. today, when i was listening to <breathe> at the radio (station), i got choked up and thought my voice would become distorted. let’s try to enjoy this longing (for jonghyun) together with people who are experiencing these (same) symptoms, who make arrangements for times like these!
1. by my standards, the all-time legendary live video. as someone who officially become a fan through <y si fuera ella>, i don’t know how many times i’ve watched this live video that was filmed at the peak of emotions. was he was so overcome with feelings that he strayed off-path, or did the camera shake because they lost jonghyun’s movement? he must have been moving completely different from rehearsals. since he seemed like a person who poured his sincerity excessively (into things/performances), my heart aches, but that’s why it’s a video everyone needs to see more.
2. i saw this stage through a livestream. it was a stage they did before their title song during their comeback, but possibly because there was something with his mic, you see him fumbling with his in-ear and putting it back on. since it’s put on weirdly, he looks like piccolo [t/n: a character from dragon ball with large pointed ears.] so it’s funny, but meanwhile he sang the intro perfectly; indeed, shinee’s legendary stages are recorded whenever there’s some small incident. the precious members are all so young and fresh.
3. an unforgettable stage that i saw in front of my nose. the stage for sugar man was unusually close to the gallery seats, plus the participants would sit in the first row, so most of the participating singers said it was quite burdensome. but of course, our lovable attention seeker jonghyun showed off his charms even more in these conditions. even now when <only the words “i love you”> is requested (on the radio), i often play jonghyun’s version and remember this day. this video even captured me watching in awe, so it’s personally very meaningful. hehe [t/n: “attention seeker” is “gwanjong,” so she combines it with his name as “gwanjonghyun.” she’s using it in a positive way here lol]
there are emotions that you don’t want to face so they float like a hot-air balloon. the emotions from the night jonghyun left are like that. those feelings are hard to sort out and have gone on for a long time [t/n: literally “have a long tail”].
however, i think it wouldn’t be bad for these feelings to float a bit more. it’s a kind of sadness mixed with annoyance anyways; i believe there will be people who know what this is. i’m the type to not really count which death anniversary it is. it’s kind of a feeling of staying in a vacuum state of time related to jonghyun. #/shineejonghyun
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