scenery is changing;

maybe i lost my head. maybe i chose my fate. you had all the answers first and i was too late. no, it wasn't you. i could see it way back, when i failed. you got the best of me. nothing makes this simple about the way you got the best of me.scenery is changing, looking at the broken spaces i have. it's almost gone. surely you don't notice, but i am standing broken in my path.

[chvndlcr]

since one of his biggest hobbies was cooking, chandler rarely ate out. but he was currently starving and was far too drunk to safely cut anything or use a stove. there was a twenty-four hour diner near campus one of his friends loved to eat at, so he decided to give it a shot. he ordered, then got up to use the bathroom. when he came back, he paused for a moment. “ where the fuck was i sitting again ? ” he asked himself quietly. that’s right, i was two tables away from the entrance. proud of his drunk memory, he started walking back to where he was sitting. except, he miscounted the tables and sat down at the third table instead, frowning when he saw someone sitting across from him. “ what the fuck are you — ” suddenly it clicked. “ this isn’t my table, is it? ”

[chvndlcr]

@kiaraftw​

if chandler was one thing, it was consistent...he could get lost in almost any setting. his class was in a weird location, a building he had never spent much time in during his three prior years at suffolk. he thought he’d have no problem getting to the right classroom, but the numbers just skipped right from 482 to 488. what the fuck happened to 485? was his class in some other dimension? “ hey ! ” he called out to a girl he saw sitting down nearby. maybe she spent a lot of time in this building. “ do you know where room 485 is ? or is this just, like, a mean girls ‘back building’ kinda thing ? ”

[chvndlcr]

@mjsimmons​

Chandler wasn’t really sure what he and mj were, exactly, but he also wasn’t about to ask her. it seemed so high school to put labels on anything, and neither one of them seemed ready to commit to more than whatever they were doing right now. but one thing chandler enjoyed about hanging out was getting to try vegan dishes. he had never had that kind of diet himself, so it left him cooking all kinds of new things. mj was coming over for dinner, so chandler was making a vegetable and ‘pesto’ pizza and a side salad. as he pulled the pizza out of the oven, there was a knock at the door that startled chan. “FUCK ! ! ” he exclaimed, dropping the pizza right back onto the oven rack and pulling his hand away to find the top of his thumb had been burned when he jumped slightly. “ One second ! ” he called out before successfully removing the pie from the oven. After setting it on the counter, he walked over to the door and opened it. “ Hey ! Come on in. Dinner just came out of the oven. ” he turned around and went back into the kitchen, running his hand under cold water. 

[chvndlcr]

mjsimmons​:

                  SHE’D RUSHED OUT of her dorm, being certain that she wouldn’t be to class on time  — and the last thing the blonde wanted was that ‘ stain ‘ on the record she’d been keeping in her head since she was a freshman, it was spotless and even while the only person she was accountable to was ‘ herself ‘ mj would argue that she wsa her HARDEST critic. moving through a crowded hall, she came to a harsh halt when she remembered… “ SHIT ! “ the curse word slipped her lips, blue eyes growing wide as she looked down at her watch. “ the curling iron…. “ she mumbled between a gasp and a huff, before she spotted someone near by. “ hey ! “ she called out, as she approached them. “ quick question… for the paper. “ sure that sounded convincing, at least to everyone who didn’t know her. “ have you ever googled how LONG it would take for a heating hair tool to burn down a building? “ she paused again. “  key information for an article, you know how that goes. “

Chandler looked up when he heard a familiar voice shouting to him - he recognized it was mj before looking at her. as soon as she said the question was ‘for the paper’, his eyebrow raised in disbelief. “can curling irons actually start a fire?” he smiled, laughing slightly as she double downed on this being a school paper thing. “you left your curling iron on, didn’t you?”

[chvndlcr]

elwalton​:

❝ hey ! hey you ! ❞  is the only warning the other gets before el’s saccharine smile & overbearing energy is forced directly into their face. there’s a pen in her left hand & a clipboard in her right — her trusty sword & shield — as she gazes at her newfound prey with an excitement that only a sleep-deprived university student jacked on far too many energy drinks can have.  ❝ where are you heading ? hope you don’t mind if i join you. you see, the student union is conducting a top-of-the-semester survey, so i need to pull your ear for just a second. shouldn’t take too long at all ! ❞  her words come out a mile a minute, barely room for a breath, let alone a response. ❝ first order of business : what are you most looking forward to at suffolk this semester ? it can literally be anything at all. ❞

chandler didn’t get hangovers, which he was very grateful for. but that didn’t mean he wasn’t completely exhausted from last night’s party. he had been out until four in the morning and hadn’t slept well after that. shortly after nine, he woke up and couldn’t fall back to sleep. after stopping at the cafe between his apartment and campus, he was trying to find a couch to sit on and chill before his first class. instead, he crossed paths with el. her impression of navi the fairy was annoying enough, but when she got in his personal space he stopped in his tracks, taking a step back. other people getting too close made him feel uneasy. with a sigh, he started to walk around her. what the fuck about his demeanor made her think he wanted her to join him? And how was she so perky before eleven in the morning? ❝ it can be anything? ❞ chandler asked, rolling his eyes before glancing at her. ❝ cause right now, what i’m most looking forward to is the end of whatever this is. ❞

[chvndlcr]

someone sent me a message about plotting, but tumblr ate it. i have no idea who sent it but i’m caught up on my IMs here so if it was you please send me another message! 

[chvndlcr]

hey everyone, i’m elle! i’m in the est timezone. i’m nonbinary and i use she/her pronouns. i’m very bad at doing short intro posts but i’m gonna try to keep these short and sweet. so now let’s talk about my boy chan. he is my oldest oc - i've been writing him since 2014. 

[ alex fitzalan, cis man, 22, he/him ] did you see who just walked in? it was that SENIOR, the ╳ + ASSIDUOUS AND  - GUARDED ╳  one? you know, the one who lives OFF CAMPUS, CHANDLER LINWOOD! i heard they are majoring in BUSINESS and they can’t wait to get out of here to FIGURE OUT WHAT HE WANTS TO DO.  crap! stop staring, here they come! 

name. james chandler linwood // when chandler was five, he found out about middle names at school. after asking his dad what his was, he immediately decided that chandler was a way cooler name than james, and has gone by his middle name ever since. one of his pet peeves is people referring to him as james.  hometown. wayzata, mn // suburb of minneapolis major. business // chandler has no clue what he wants to do with his life. he’s been doing some photography gigs on the side since his freshman year of college, so he decided it wouldn’t hurt to get a degree in business so he could run his own shit better. he knows he doesn’t want to do photography as a career long-term, though. birthday. february 11th, 1999 // twenty two years old.  gender. cis man orientation. biromantic asexual // chan is completely out as ‘bi’. most people assume that means he’s bisexual and he doesn’t correct that idea. he’s a lot quieter about being asexual. a lot of people don’t understand what it is, and ask invasive questions, and he’s a naturally private person who wants to avoid all of that entirely.  hobbies. photography, cooking, video games phobias. acrophobia // fear of heights allergy. bee venom

[ BIO ] [tw. abuse/neglect, alcoholism, drug addiction, self harm, depression]

chandler is the only child of john and susan linwood. susan is a doctor while john works for an advertising company. susan has always been a bit ‘out there’, with no brain-to-mouth filter and some very problematic viewpoints and opinions. john started drinking when chan was eight. actually, he relapsed into drinking again, but chandler doesn’t know he had an alcohol problem before that. chandler knew his parents loved him; one of their better parenting traits was making sure he didn’t forget that. but they weren’t mentally present enough to be very good parents. gradually his dad became angry and violent while he was drinking and that, coupled with chandler’s rebellious teenage years, made the linwood home a less and less safe place for chandler.

in high school, he was known for hanging out with the “wrong crowd”. he partied a lot, trying to mentally escape from his home life and normal teen angst stuff. he often mouthed off to teachers and got in trouble on a regular basis. but he also worked really hard in school, taking mostly AP classes while managing As and Bs. not many people knew what to make of that, and acted like he was just a troublemaker that was naturally gifted. but in reality he was juggling challenging school work, a busy social life, and doing all of the cooking and cleaning at home. 

another thing chan had a reputation for was quickly rotating through girlfriends (and boyfriends, but there weren’t anywhere near as many guys to date at his suburban high school). but it wasn’t the situation everyone thought it was. as relationships became more physically intimate, he became more uncomfortable. as soon as sex was suggested, he would end the relationship. in hindsight, this wasn’t the best way to approach dating. but at the time, he had no idea asexuality was a thing and that he didn’t owe anyone sex just because they were in a relationship.

his longest high school relationship was madison. they had mutual friends and started hanging out. madison had a fairly obvious drug problem, but that didn’t bother chandler. a part of him was more attracted to her because of it, although he’d never admit that to anyone. plus she was asexual. this not only was how he found out that was a sexual orientation, but it also took a lot of anxiety out of the idea of dating and chandler fell hard. 

madison easily grew jealous. she was biphobic, hated sharing chandler with anyone, and was often bossy and controlling. yet chandler noticed none of the red flags until it was too late. by the time he started trying to untangle himself from her, he couldn’t. he was scared what she would do to herself if he ended things, and as she became physically violent he was scared of what she would do to him as well. since he couldn’t get out of the situation, and had never learned healthy ways of coping with the stress and trauma in his life, he turned to binge drinking and self harm.

his way out came in the form of an acceptance letter from suffolk university. as soon as he graduated high school, he left for boston and never looked back. 

while he had a great inner drive in high school, that came to a screeching halt once he started college. his motivation had always been to get out of wayzata. but now that he was finally free, he had no idea what to do. at the same time, he was dealing with the aftermath of both his dad and his ex-girlfriend’s abuse towards him. 

while he continued pushing forward, he never found that motivation to really care about school or his future again. he’s in his final year of college and still hasn’t figured out what he wants to do with his life. he feels stuck and frustrated.

most people don’t know about his parents, or his struggles with mental health and self harm. he’s in total denial that he has a problem with alcohol. he simply doesn’t open up easily, preferring to surround himself with a shell that can become spiky if he feels uncomfortable. but he’s always cracking jokes and acting like he doesn’t take anything seriously, putting up a front so nobody looks too closely at the cracks.

[ HEADCANONS ] 

while chandler is shit at taking care of his own needs, he’s amazing at taking care of other people. he will hold your hair back at a party while you throw up, make sure you drink enough water and electrolytes, then make you breakfast in the morning. he’s definitely a bit of a ‘mom friend’, although he doesn’t think he is.

he may act apathetic, but he cares. a lot. he’s a rather empathetic person. unfortunately he has the emotional intelligence of a spoon, so this isn’t always a good thing

sometimes when he’s drunk, chandler starts rambling about video game and/or cartoon conspiracy theories

his yearbook quote was “would you woohoo me in sims yes or no”

also he really likes cooking for other people so if he asks to cook for you please just humor him and say yes

[ WANTED CONNECTION ]

some sort of family member // he’s an only child, so probably a cousin. they don’t have to be from minnesota.

exes // guys, girls, nonbinary people....doesn’t matter. 

fake relationship // for some reason, these two pretend they’re dating. maybe more happens, maybe not.

restaurant service // they can’t cook, so they’re always coming over and eating what chandler makes.

roommate // they could be the best of friends or hate each others guts. lots of room to find the right dynamic

best friend // one of the only people chan trusts, and they know everything about him

classmate // self explanatory

[ DISCLAIMERS ]

i know some people get really touchy about aces being portrayed as sex repulsed so often. asexuality is a lack of sexual attraction, that’s it. some aces like sex. however, chandler does not and that’s okay too!

also i know he has some heavy topics in his writing. i will tag any post that involve these topics accordingly, and always do my absolute best to handle this kind of material in a respectful and empathetic way. 

[ FINAL NOTES ]

so yeah that’s chandler. so much for making this short, but i actually left a lot of small details out. please like this post or send me a message to start plotting with my son.

[lunah-goodbye]

I hate ice breakers so much “tell us one thing about yourself” do I look like I know myself

[ammascrellin]

Harry Bingham saying his favourite word, part 1.

[dejjavus]

Alex Fitzalan for DAMAN.

[beccs]

[killurparents]

You can’t keep dancing with the devil and ask why you’re still in hell

Something my friend told me the other day (via perrfectly)