overweight :/

Cw: 220 Lw: 169 gw: 160 Ugw:145

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hi everyone, I’m back. It’s been awhile. Let me catch you up! I attend the gym now. I like going. I can’t tell if my pants are actually getting bigger or if I’m just pretending they weren’t that big all along. I hugged my mom today. I don’t like being touched but I really wanted to do it. When I hugged her after she came back from work I expected to feel the tinge of uncomfortableness I always feel. Yet, when I hugged her I just wanted to hold her forever and I felt like crying. Is this what touch starved really is?

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My mom and Dad didn’t go through with divorce, she says she’s happy. I don’t even know anymore.

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Overdue but, 300 followers, thanks

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I spoke to my sister about the divorce and my frustration of getting the short end of the stick always at the hand of other people and then she told me she didn’t care about my “sob story”. Wow

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Its weird, I don’t feel sad or mad, just numb.

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For the first time ever, I want a hug. I long for that affection, I’ve always despised physical touch and never understood the appeal. My thoughts have changed.

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At least with my patents divorce, I now have more reason to starve and hate myself

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spit on a used cigarette and that’s me

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I hit 200 followers and I’m not even sure when. Thanks

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This video is my reason of being

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I’m not even sure what I did to distract myself to lose weight. I don’t know, masturbate? This is tiring.

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Something about boxer briefs just carries me home

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I often find myself being messaged by people for motivation and such. Contrary to popular belief I am not a very talkative person, nor can I hold long conversations. I apologize if you reach out to me and I’m no good.

Apologies

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I have to get fitted for theater and they have to measure me after spring break, I’m petrified

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I am miserable

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I adore this photo so damn

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