Miss Cindy

I don’t think you’re supposed to think about it. Just sat back and enjoy, I guess.

#c:lukaya

pierced-holden

What kind of music is this?

It’s- I actually don’t know. That’s the beauty of Apple Music, you know?

#c:lukaya

@littlemisscindy: 120 000 of babies born every year are product of affairs you know thats pretty scary

#tweets

@littlemisscindy: Selena Gomez is a gift from God himself and everyone needs to accept it

#tweets

maggie-christianson-blog

I think technically you are one.

Technically I’m a teenager. So I’m as much of a child as you are.

#c:maggie #e:4th of july

maggie-christianson-blog

Sorry. Let me re-ask the question. Is there stuff here that’s meant for non-children?

Uh, I’m sorry, did you just call me a child?

#c:maggie #e:4th of july

“My dad doesn’t care. It’s a reason to have a mini shindig. He’s like an overgrown teenager. He encourages me to have parties but I like my privacy.” He took her hand and led her to the kitchen. “Have you cooked before?”

“You two are so different sometimes. It’s alright though, I’ll take care of the parties,” she smiled, kissing his cheek. His question managed to make her laugh. “Yeah. My grandma likes to show me the old family recipes when I’m there - always trying to turn me into the truest southern belle. I’ll cook for you, promise.”

maggie-christianson-blog

Thanks Mom for dragging me to a carnival like I’m five. Okay. Is there actually anything fun to do at this thing?

It’s a carnival of course there is! I mean, it isn’t the prettiest of places but you know...

#c:maggie #e:4th of july

turtlenecks - alfie & cindy

“You have no idea what it’s been like for me these past few years. I had to tell someone, and you had to know, eventually.” Alfie could only imagine the shit that would come out of his mother’s mouth if Cindy confronted her about Alfie had just told the girl. Immediate ideas of her excuses flew out of his dead, but he was certain that she would come out with something quickly to weasel her way out of an awkward conversation. “She’ll lie to you, and then she’ll get defensive and then she’ll talk to me and then we’ll argue. It’s not worth it.”

His lips stretch into a thin line as he concentrates, taking in a little breath, he rocked back and sat down. “You have two choice right now Cindy. You can take this information in your stride and appreciate that mom and dad are two adults that know exactly what they’re doing and the implications and turn a blind eye to it without being caught by surprise at anything you see. Or you could potentially be instrumental in ruining this family by saying something.” Maybe maintaining appearances was important. Could Alfie’s mom really deal with a divorce when she’d just had a kid, had one at home and was in the spotlight thanks to her new found fame on reality television? It was like a living nightmare, Alfie was practically having visions of Cindy screaming at them both about their infidelities which sounded so much worse out loud. “You need to come home, and by come home I mean be at home. You need to stop hiding at Ezra’s or your friends, you need to talk to dad, you need to sit down round the dinner table, talk, smile and laugh like it’s okay. It’s been working pretty good so far.”

#c:alfie #p:turtlenecks #famtp:heffes royalty

Cindy pulled Alfie in for a hug. “I’m sorry.“ She couldn’t come up with anything else to say at the moment. All she could think about was her brother having to keep this to himself for years and it made her sick to her stomach. “I’m really sorry Silvy,” she pulled him closer, shutting her eyes tight. Despite everything he had told her, there was still a part of her that didn’t want to believe that their mother was cheating. That was such an ugly word. “Maybe if I could hear it from her. Everything feels like it’s falling part and it needs to stop.”

Letting go of him, she decided to listen carefully. But the sheer thought of her ruining the family had her sobbing uncontrollably again. There was no way she was going to tear her family apart - nothing mattered more to her, after all. “For the love of God never say that again.” She was always taught to smile and stand straight, even if she was nervous or scared, be it at pageants or parties, and she was amazing at all of that. But this was different. One by one, she started to dig her nails into her palms, a nervous habit she picked on in middle school. “This really doesn’t make me want to be home more, you know?” In fact, she wanted to run to Ezra’s as soon as the conversation started. He would make her feel better. “I don’t want to talk to dad. And it’s not okay. This is so wrong, everything about this is just wrong.” She couldn’t remember the last time she felt this disgusted - with herself and with everything around her.

“Not tonight. He’s having a big farewell dinner for us though. Want to help me finish putting everything together?”

“Of course he is. That makes it look like we’re leaving for years - but I can’t wait.“ She nodded, looking down at her feet for a second. “Sure.”

turtlenecks - alfie & cindy

“You’re going to have to. You have no other choice.” He appeared at the door of their living area as Cindy was just knelt beside Genie. Alfie ignoring the situation had stopped him from getting involved and Cindy being blissfully aware and blaming their absent father for something that was, in Alfie’s opinion, out of his control.

“You don’t say anything. You can’t say anything okay?” He walked up beside her and knelt down too, “That’s the most important thing.”

#c:alfie #p:turtlenecks #famtp:heffes royalty

She hid her face on the couch, focusing on her heartbeat and trying to slow it down. “Yes I do. I can...“ she drifted off, nails digging on the couch as her whole body started to shake. There had to be something she could do because simply trying to deal with it wasn’t an option. Not when her shoulders already felt so heavy. “I don’t know but I just can’t... Why are you telling me this now?” She didn’t want him to carry this by himself, but why now?

“But- Alfie I have to ask mom if it’s true. I can’t just be around her and pretend I don’t know this.” Cindy looked up at him, wiping the tears from her cheeks. What he was asking her to do was almost impossible.

Text: All Friends

Callie: Anyone want to go to the beach tomorrow?

Cindy: sure sure. can you pick me up?

#text:callie

“I had a feeling you’d say that. Good thing I had already started to prepare it. Dad’s around here somewhere so he’ll probably come round to say hi.” He picked her up and spun her around. “Hey there darling.”

“You know me too well. It’s scary. Will he join us for dinner?” She giggled as he spun her around, resting her hand on his cheek when he put her down.

“Good evening mademoiselle.” He bowed dramatically. Ezra fully intended to spoil Cindy tonight. She seemed to be a bit off so he would do anything to make her truly happy again. “Come inside and I shall. What are you in the mood for?”

She giggled. Only Ezra to make her smile when she felt this awful. “Lasagne,” she answered matter-of-factly. It was her comfort food most of the times. “Always lasagne.”