May 4
i’m so tired of being fat and ugly.
i used to be 110lbs, 5’5 throughout most of high school, now, because of my medication, i’ve shot up to 180ish-lbs. i think everyone is beautiful no matter their weight, except for me, being fat looks awful on me.
my arms are large, my cheeks are chubby, and i have a noticeable pouch. i dont have a pretty face in the first place, but maybe if i were skinny again, i could be pretty in some sense of the word.
im going to try Christian Bale’s diet where he only eats one apple a day + water. i need encouragement. i want to be pretty.