[circusprince-w]

before you follow

ownership of body, agency over mutilation.

(omar el akkad)

i'm always talking about sadism, and sometimes there's sex in there too. then vent posts and identity politics, although i try to keep those infrequent. i love rambling about my current partners and the disaster of my gender identity. occasionally, i remember i enjoy hornyblr writing too. watch out for those posts, they're the only good ones.

boundaries:

DO NOT CALL ME ANY PET NAMES. "prince" as a title is the only thing im okay with.

don't be an asshole. don't be a bigot. & please don't be a minor. this is my dni.

if i fit your dni i'm probably blocking you.

not a safe space for cishets. go away.

more info abt me !

if you must refer to me, call me Circus.

black, american, 22yo. very queer & polyam

not into men. the closer you are to a man, the less attractive you are. trans inclusive.

transmasc, genderfluid. all pronouns make me uncomfortable. they/them is fine, he/they in bed.

mostly dom & mostly top. sadist with no masochism tendencies.

disabled. tourettes, autism, asthma, etc

tags

# hehe 🤭 : i get off to these

# nsft : my posts are tagged here

# homoerotic circus : friends in general

all the circus tags are for specific people

i am the circus prince.

[circusprince-w]

see the problem is that, when i'm asked, "what do you want from sex/kink?" the answer is rarely To Have Sex and much more often other stuff. i want to hit and bite people. i want to feel powerful. i want to be worshipped. i want to torture you. but none of these are specific actions, and none of them are even really Sex.

i guess this is where all of my power exchange stuff comes from? i found subbing first because if i'm submitting, then i don't need to want as much. i recognize this isnt a good mindset now, and i've found domming. domming is so hard for me because it requires want. if you dom solely by following your partner's desires, you are the caricature of a dom. to dom well, i must want.

this ties into non-kink stuff as well. i realized in the past few months how little i want things. i am so Not Allowed to express desire in any form. this is why domming is therapy for me. i get to want.

not to imply that subs do not have desires—on the contrary, i love when subs do have desires and a sub without desires is not the greatest partner. however, for me, domming is a much more accessible route—wait no i'm allowed to want things. i just want to dom ffs.

[circusprince-w]

theres this post on fet (https://fetlife.com/domina-livia/posts/13605656) that discusses femdom. it revolves around the question, "what do you want?"

admittedly, i havent finished reading it, but god do i need to because i keep coming back to that over and over and over. what do i want?

the problem is just that i don't want.. anything. i love when they leave bruises on my neck, i love it passionately. i love them, honestly, and everything that goes along with loving them. i love how we are when we are close.

and i'd rather be domming. i'd rather be topping. i'd rather be the one inflicting pain. there is nothing wrong with our dynamic, it is deeply enjoyable, but god do i miss sadism.

so anyways i'm not single but im super ready to mingle xp

[circusprince-w]

see the problem is that, when i'm asked, "what do you want from sex/kink?" the answer is rarely To Have Sex and much more often other stuff. i want to hit and bite people. i want to feel powerful. i want to be worshipped. i want to torture you. but none of these are specific actions, and none of them are even really Sex.

i guess this is where all of my power exchange stuff comes from? i found subbing first because if i'm submitting, then i don't need to want as much. i recognize this isnt a good mindset now, and i've found domming. domming is so hard for me because it requires want. if you dom solely by following your partner's desires, you are the caricature of a dom. to dom well, i must want.

this ties into non-kink stuff as well. i realized in the past few months how little i want things. i am so Not Allowed to express desire in any form. this is why domming is therapy for me. i get to want.

not to imply that subs do not have desires—on the contrary, i love when subs do have desires and a sub without desires is not the greatest partner. however, for me, domming is a much more accessible route—wait no i'm allowed to want things. i just want to dom ffs.

[godless-femininity]

Doll-bratting by blinking at you twice before obeying

[mothwiingz]

fighting ableism isn’t about refuting the idea that we’re disabled at all

“autistic people aren’t incapable!! look at me, i’m autistic and i can function exactly like an abled person!! everyone should be like me” isn’t anti ableist. you’re taking the stereotype from one end of the spectrum and moving it to the other and that helps no one

the answer to “disabled people who can’t contribute to society are worthless” isn’t “all disabled people can do things if they try hard enough”. it’s “everyone inherently has worth just by being alive”

[nyanbinary-perineum]

Fucking you to your breaking point because it's what you deserve. (✿◠ω◠)

Just pushing you until you're overwhelmed, sweating, trembling, and you begin questioning if I'm ever going to stop.

You try to hide it, but it scares you. But you can trust me, I know what's best for you~ ;3

I slow down just enough for you to hear my voice over your beating heart and heavy breathing.

I whisper that I am going to bring an end to this and it will change you. You can hardly understand me.

I say that I can see you are at your limit and I will push you right beyond it so that you can do something precious for me.

You will cum for me one more time. It will shatter you, and only then you'll feel the relief of melting into my arms as I softly kiss your senses back one by one~

You'll slowly come back to me, different than before. Molded, imprinted upon, and hopelessly dependent on the cock that broke you~

That's my good girl~

[fae3ntanglement]

Gardening

[hemipenal-system]

when i say autogynephilia isn’t real in any meaningful sense, i don’t mean that trans women don’t get turned on by themselves being hot. i mean that it is perfectly normal to do so and many cis people also do that

[hemipenal-system]

also you totally can transition for sex reasons. that's a thing you can do. your reason can absolutely be "god it would be so hot if i was a girl" and you're not a weird pervert for thinking that because cis girls think "god its so hot that im a girl" allllll the time. they really never stop thinking it

you can want to get bottom surgery solely so you can neopussy bounce on another trans girl so hard that it makes her want one for herself. that's totally legal

[dohwa110]

[puppygirllaika]

at some point in your life you are going to do or say something racist, sexist, or otherwise bigoted. Your goal is not perfection, your goal is to be the kind of person that the people you've hurt feel safe being honest with when that happens.

[circusprince-w]

anyways. gonna make a writing series entitled The Perfect Scene where i envision sex in ways that would make me most satisfied.

[circusprince-w]

see the problem is that, when i'm asked, "what do you want from sex/kink?" the answer is rarely To Have Sex and much more often other stuff. i want to hit and bite people. i want to feel powerful. i want to be worshipped. i want to torture you. but none of these are specific actions, and none of them are even really Sex.

i guess this is where all of my power exchange stuff comes from? i found subbing first because if i'm submitting, then i don't need to want as much. i recognize this isnt a good mindset now, and i've found domming. domming is so hard for me because it requires want. if you dom solely by following your partner's desires, you are the caricature of a dom. to dom well, i must want.

this ties into non-kink stuff as well. i realized in the past few months how little i want things. i am so Not Allowed to express desire in any form. this is why domming is therapy for me. i get to want.

not to imply that subs do not have desires—on the contrary, i love when subs do have desires and a sub without desires is not the greatest partner. however, for me, domming is a much more accessible route—wait no i'm allowed to want things. i just want to dom ffs.

[puppygirllaika]

if you're new to snuff erotica, be warned: "This is really dark (hot)" and "This is really dark (sad)" live much closer together in your brain than you may realize.

[pokeballvictimized]

You know, I do continually find it odd how people on this site will associate kinks and sexuality they dont like with whiteness. Like there is absolutely stuff to unpack with how kink interfaces with race as a subset of how the socially constructed category of race influences everything but I dont think that's "no black person would ever like this kink" like I just don't think thats true

[pokeballvictimized]

I dont think white people have unique claim to perversion. That doesnt make sense

[circusprince-w]

reposting pictures of someone with bruises like "when is it my turn" makes people assume i want to be bruised. no. i want to hit someone, hear them whimper, and feel the pump of arousal and adrenaline. then i want to hit them again

[dohwa110]

[circusprince-w]

my kink list is like. "i like like playing with the application of choice and also hurting women" and it's true. these are my kinks if u rly think about it.

[circusprince-w]

so my ideal situation i guess is when one or more of us is rly foggy on if the sex is consentual but theres nothing to be done about it, and also i get to hurt somebody.

[circusprince-w]

im too drunk to know what im doing and i hurt you because you're irresistible.

i'm seduced into blurring my morals and i end up beating somebody while they beg for more.

i have someone tied up so they cant fight when i hurt them, even when they're crying.

physically overpowering someone so they cant say stop me when i hurt them.

like it's all the same idea. blurry consent & hurting people.