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claire | 21 | i'm sitting pretty on the throne, there's nothing more i want except to be alone

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killerquccns:

clairebears:

Aurora had given up on most of her friends coming to see her. She didn’t blame them– the whole situation was so sketchy. Some nights she had to even stop and assure herself she hadn’t gone crazy. “Hey, it’s okay! It’s not like I was goin’ anywhere, right?” she smiled softly as she took a seat.

“Claire, I honestly don’t remember a lot, but I know I didn’t hurt anyone.” Aurora frowned, cuffed hands reaching across the table for her’s, “I know people don’t believe– I get it. I’m sorry this has affected you so much… You’re my friend, I’d never want to hurt you.” She sighed, looking up at the girl with tired eyes, “I got grabbed in the bathroom. I felt a pain in my arm and I woke up in The Director’s clothes.” The brunette shivered and hugged herself, “God, and I had to sit and get questioned for hours wearing that stupid hoodie… I felt so gross… The whole thing was so gross.”

claire wrinkled her brows as she tried to piece the story of the night back together. “so you mean... it wasn’t you?” she exhaled, letting out a long, jerky breath as the tension in her body faded a little. “it’s good to know my gut’s not completely off base. i knew it couldn’t have been you.”

she reached out a hand to stroke aurora’s arm. “god, what a mess. what an awful, fucked up mess. i’m glad you’re okay though?” claire offered a tentative smile. “i mean, as okay as you can be after the whole incident and spending all that time in here,” she gestured a little at the bare walls around them, shuddering slightly. “can i do anything to help? i mean.. just trying to get you back to normal and stuff?”

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cherrygraze:

“I’m not even gonna grace that stupid question with an answer.” Prunella huffed, nose in the air which delivered a false sense of superiority to her posture and added to the already brittle throng in the air. The scan of the girls eyes did not go unnoticed, and despite there being a palpable hostility between them, her observation was more than welcomed. She milked the attention by changing position, bent one leg so her foot folded into her crotch while the other stretched straight on a diagonal, she reached her lithe arms to grip the tips of her toes. It was a clear, teasing demonstration of her flexibility, and she was more than aware of how good she looked. “I pre-booked all my practice sessions upfront at the beginning of term, actually. So I won’t be going anywhere.” She straightened up again, lifted both arms above her head while eyeing the other girl through the mirror venomously. “I’m definitely not going to be missing out because of some clerical error, or a mistaken bimbo. Whichever the reason behind this mishap is.”

claire couldn’t help but roll her eyes. “calling me a bimbo? wow, that’s rich, coming from you.” she slid into an easy split, rolling her body forward languidly to stretch out her muscles even more. the other girl was getting a little cocky, and claire wasn’t willing to look like the lesser dancer. “if you’re not going to prove that your booking’s valid and mine isn’t, i guess you’re just going to have to get used to my company.” she was sure the other girl could hear the cold edge to her voice, but claire was determined not to let the other girl bother her, especially not during her much needed reprieve. “hope you like my music.” she smiled, plugging her phone into the speaker and pressing play.

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@killerquccns || closed for aurora

the rusty metal gate clanged shut behind her, and claire walked nervously up to the table where aurora was sitting. she kept her head down, not wanting to show the other girl the tumult of feelings ravaging her mind. still, the distance between them had to close eventually. claire took a deep breath, and raised her eyes to meet aurora’s. “hey,” she said softly, unable to hide the concern she had for her friend. “i’m sorry i haven’t come to visit until now. i’ve just been...” she hummed a little, trying to find the right word. “confused..?” her voice trailed off weakly.

claire placed her hands in her lap, twisting at the fraying threads of her top. “what happened that night, rora? just tell me the truth, honestly. i’m done feeling like a fool.”

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evaxlarsen:

“It’s not asking for a favor, Claire, if I think you have my property. If you don’t return it, that is considered stealing and I’d have to report you.” She crossed her arms as she gave the girl a look. “So really, it’s in your best interest to return it.”

“oh wow, eva. reporting me to the police? i’m real scared of you.” claire twisted her face into a caricature of remorse, and said in a faux-desperate voice, “how did you know i only kept your stupid planner because i’m obsessed with you?” she rolled her eyes at eva. “look, i honestly don’t know what you’re talking about. i don’t have your fucking planner, you’re welcome to check if you don’t believe me.” she stepped aside, leaving room for the other girl to enter the apartment.

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dylxnkexry:

Dylan smiled and nodded, bringing the her in for a hug. “I’m glad I have you too.” She pulled back and looked at her confused. “Did you know the person they arrested or something?”

the question echoed in claire’s head as her face twisted into an indecipherable expression. she hadn’t figured out how she felt about aurora’s arrest yet, and she wasn’t sure she’d ever find closure with that. realizing that she’d been silent for a long time, she shrugged and said, “you know what, i honestly don’t know how to answer that question. when do you ever really know someone, really?”

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atomhearts:

@clairebears ||  PRUNELLA  ➳ CLAIRE

In Prunella’s relatively stubborn opinion, there was nothing to be ashamed of, and there certainly wasn’t anything to hide when it came to her talent in dancing. Though she didn’t boast, she didn’t talk herself up and make a spectacle of her skill, she most definitely wasn’t shy. After all, she hadn’t dedicated the last ten years to it to keep it hidden. Her capability and creativity as a dancer had blossomed to a truly commendable pique, but practice was still required, and this rainy Tuesday afternoon found Pru in her regularly booked private practice room. She was sprawled out on the laminate flooring, stretching out lithe leggined legs, her boombox pulsing music she was adapting choreography to – but then her solitary space was invaded and she snapped briskly to attention. “You’re in the wrong room.” She barked once she had made a quick observation of the intruder, and swiftly turned her attention back to her own nimble reflection. “I always have this room booked on Tuesdays at 4pm. Check the time and fuck off, please.”

the other girl’s harsh tone immediately cut through the music playing through claire’s earphones. she pulled them out, furrowing her brows in confusion. “um, i’m sorry, who the hell are you?” her eyes slid along the length of the girl’s lean body, appreciating how goddamn good she looked even if she was being a huge bitch. “look, there must’ve been a system mix-up or something. i booked this studio for right now, just check online and get out, there’ll be no hard feelings.” claire set her bag down and kicked off her shoes to start stretching at the barre, intent on not being evicted from the studio that was most certainly hers for the afternoon.

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evaxlarsen:

Finally the door opened and Eva grinned up at the girl. She placed a hand over her heart and tilted her head to the side, proper pageant style. “You think I’m the biggest bitch in the world. Oh my god, thank you. That is so sweet.” She pushed past her, walking inside. “I was in the library yesterday and I knew you were there, I could smell the desperation, but when I left I forgot my notebook. So I wanted to see if your grubby little hands landed on it and brought it here. So…do you?”

claire scoffed as eva pushed her way into the apartment. “who the fuck said you could come in?” she slammed the door and rolled her eyes, knowing that it would be hard to get rid of the other girl once she had her heart set on something. “do you really think that’s the best way for you to ask for a favor, my dear eva?”

[drowsydrunk]

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(she catches the whisper between my demon and my desire)

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xaviertempest:

     “Food was made to be cooked, Claire–Hey!” Zave’s jaw dropped before he grinned and reached over to snatch a piece off her plate: something fishy-looking and covered in brown sauce that might have been eel. Rolling his eyes playfully, he clamped down on a piece of sushi with his chopsticks–and, for good measure, stuck out his pinky like a classy guy. “If I die from this, I’m not leavin’ you anything in my will,” he said, shoving the offensive piece of mystery sushi into his mouth.  

“eh, don’t be such a bore. food is meant to be exciting, and you’ve gotta admit this definitely fits the bill!” claire smiled mischievously at zave, mimicking the way he was holding the chopsticks. “just look how great you are at using those! new life skill for sure, and i’m sure the ladies will appreciate the new dexterity you’ve learned here.”

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dylxnkexry:

“But it honestly could. It could be anyone. We have no clue who is doing this. Or if they’re doing it alone. I mean honestly, this is complete bullshit and someone needs to do something.” Dylan said and sighed. “Aw Claire. But same goes for you. I’m always here.”

claire smiled tightly. “you know, i’m glad to at least have you. it’s really hard knowing who to trust nowadays, you know?” she shrugged. “you think you know people, but then you hear about them being arrested for crazy shit and it just...” a choked laugh barely escapes her throat. “it’s like your whole world falls apart at your feet.”

[wnq-writers]

Because we all just want to escape one thing—our heads at night.

Pauline (via wnq-writers)

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evaxlarsen:

[ @clairebears ]

Eva knocked on the door loudly, not caring that it was still early in the morning and that people might be sleeping in. “Hello! Please open! This is life and death.” Was it? No. But Eva had misplaced her planner and she needed it. The last time she saw it was in the library and she knew Claire had been in there so there was a chance she had it. And would she give it back on her own accord? Also no. “Claire! Open the fucking door.”

the sharp knocking against the door shocked claire awake. she groaned, tossing around under her duvet as she tried to shut the sound out. still, she could recognize the shrillness of eva’s voice anywhere. she sighed and pushed herself out of bed, pulling a coat on around her haphazardly.

she pulled the door open, staring the other girl down with an expression of disdain. pushing her sleeve up, she looked at her watch, and then back at the other girl. “of course, only the world’s biggest bitch would wake me up at this fucking hour. what the hell do you want?”

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dylxnkexry:

“I fell like the school would have shut down if they had know. I’m a little surprised they haven’t done that yet. Maybe it’s an inside job, like a professor is the director or something.” Dylan said and shivered at the thought. “Thanks Claire. That would actually be amazing. Especially if i have to get some night shots for class.”

claire shuddered at dylan’s suggestion. “dear god, it can’t possibly be a professor? that would honestly be the cherry on top of this whole fucking shitstorm.” she chewed at her lip nervously. “yeah, just let me know if you need anything, honestly. i can’t imagine anything happening to you.”

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xaviertempest:

LOCATION: A sushi bar not too far from campus TIME: 12:01 PM FOR: @clairebears

      “Remind me again why ya’ll eat this stuff?” Zave gave the sushi and sashimi on his plate a look of suspicious disdain. “I get that this place is s’pposed to be tasty and all, but for twenty-five dollars I could be eatin’ like a king at Taco Bell.” He poked at a piece of California roll with one chopstick, squinting and peering into the layers inside the seaweed. “It’s not … all raw in here, right?”

claire dug into her food, grinning widely at her friend. “c’mon, man. so what if it is?” she smirked, reaching out her chopsticks to snag one of his california rolls. “don’t wimp out on me now, zave. be classy for once!” she shoved the sushi in her mouth, humming happily at the familiar taste. it’d been too long since she’d gotten to catch up with zave, and this lunch was the perfect reprieve from the ghastly nightmares that campus life had become lately.

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killerquccns:

“No problemo, homie.” she beamed, making her way to the kitchen in the back before returning with the milkshake. Aurora placed a crazy straw in the thick chocolate drink, “There ya go! Hm, well I can’t say no to tips– especially on this salary. The struggle, amirite?” The brunette joined Claire at the table and took a seat across from the blonde. Hands folded, she leaned in with a sad look, “You were? Well, I’m sorry for your loss too. You’re keeping safe though, right? I’d hate to see you get hurt.” She slinked back into the faux leather seat, sighing. The image of Sebastian’s dead body kept flashing in her head until she spoke up again. “I just hate that the police think I did it.” she frowned, taking a look around the diner to make sure her boss wasn’t going to come yell at her for sitting, “But I’m trying to keep myself busy…  It’s probably not a totally healthy way, but it’s been working so far in my life.”

claire smiled gratefully at the other girl as she took a long sip from her glass. “i’m trying my best to keep safe, yeah. trying not to stay out too late, or go anywhere creepy by myself. you too, right? you’re not taking any super late shifts here alone?” 

she grimaced a little at the memory of sebastian, and reached out to hold aurora’s hands across the table. “well, between you and me, i definitely believe you. the police are just incompetent idiots struggling to grasp at straws, you know? it must suck for them to know this crazy guy’s still out there.”

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dylxnkexry:

Dylan sighed and shook her head. “College was supposed to be fun. And I’ve always looked ahead to being here now I’m afraid to go out alone.” She said and shook her head. “It blows.”

“god, i know. i would’ve warned you to stay the hell away from this school if i’d known.” claire frowned, but tried to shake off the negativity so she could reassure the other girl. “hey, you know what? it’s not like we have to be alone. there’s safety in numbers, right? i promise, i’ll be your buddy! we can go out together whenever, i’ll be there if you need me!” she tried to sound chipper, and smiled at dylan with whatever excitement she could muster.

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“I didn’t get a wink of sleep last night.” - From Peach :)

“me neither.” claire smiled at the older woman. “it was worth it though, right? that was…” she bit her lip, running her fingers down peach’s legs, “really something else.” claire kissed peach on the cheek. “i really should be going, though. i’ve got class in 20 minutes.”

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