Perfectly Imperfect

I'm Clara. Welcome to my thoughts, my feelings, my life, and my journey. It's been a while since I opened my Tumblr, probably the last entry that I did was in 2014. I'll try my best to update and write my heart out whenever I feel like. 

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Rambling.

I'd really really like to see him, but there was no way. Maybe there was a way but the world is hella crazy right now which started few months ago. I'd like to get to know him more... but we were not even given the chance. I'd like to fall in love again... but I wasn't even given the chance. I'd like to say 'I love you,' but how? I'd like to see and travel around my favorite country with him... but there was no time. I'd like to eat out with him, see a movie with him, hug him so tight... but I just can't. You do not know how much I'd like to do all these things with him. I think I fell, I fell so hard without even noticing it.

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I cannot believe I've been to all the stations today. TV5, ABSCBN (DZMM), then GMA for 24Oras. It was really overwhelming to be interviewed, and to have met Mr. Lourd de Veyra, Mr. Martin Andanar, Mr. Marc Logan (Who asked me for a SELFIE 😂), and Ms. Amy Perez (She's really PRETTY). Seeing all these people work really excites me as a Mass Comm student. Hello real world! - Thanks for the support of my friends and my CEU professors who are practitioners themselves; Sir Ricky Rosales and Sir Norjee Domingo! 😊

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Please don't expect me to always be good and kind and loving. There are times when I'll be cold, thoughtless and hard to understand.

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I'm a strong person, but every once in a while I would like someone to take my hand and tell me everything's gonna be alright...

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New nail polish! ❤️

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Those random nights where you just start to cry out of the blue, not knowing what and why you are crying, and you just let it all out...

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This movie though. ❤️

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I let go because there was nothing to hold on to anymore.

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I'm not a perfect person, I make a lot of mistakes but still, I love those people who stay with me after knowing how I really am.

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I'm a living proof of a person who cried so much in one week. There was never a day I didn't shed a tear and I even got sick... well, I still am. I don't even want to go anywhere. I'm so tired and drained. Stayed in the house, inside my room for days, locked myself in and isolated myself from everyone. I gave so much time for others, work and everything... at the end, I forgot everything about myself. I also realized that sometimes, it feels so good to be just alone and think of things and just let it all out. Now, I just don't know how to survive the next few days... I'm sure I'll be able to think of something. Maybe still do the same? I don't know. I believe that one of these days, I'll get tired, get tired of everything... keep pushing me away. I kept on praying to God that may He give me all the strength that I needed. You are all I've got right now. 🙏

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Pain isn't a sign of weakness, pain is a sign that you cared.

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She won't wait forever.

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You've fallen for me.

"It’s always the same sky, It’s always the same kind of day. Other than not having you, Not a thing is different. I’ve thought of letting you go, Without leaving the faintest memory. No, no, I still haven’t. I still can’t let you go. I love you. I love you…”

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Please don't.

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“Even if you can easily give up on yourself, well, I can’t.” 💔