i'm like one of the guys!

inspired by other closeted opinions blogs. a collection of thoughts from when i was figuring myself out (or trying not to).

[closetedtransboyopinions]

Haha what do you mean not every girl thought they were gonna grow a d/ck??? Lol everyone does that! My body sucks!! No? No one? Huh. Hope this doesn’t awaken anything in me.

[closetedtransboyopinions]

ive had so many people tell me i look like a guy from a distance and they immediately apologize for caling me 'he' but nnnOPE hahaaaa its fine it was a mistake pshh why would i want to be male???

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fantasizing about having a dick a perfectly normal! im a normal cis girl, its just my hypersexuality making me have weird kinks! being 3x more aroused when thinking about having a dick is a normal Cis Girl Thing!! i dont have gender dysphoria!! wanting no breasts and a cock is just a kink, right?

[closetedtransboyopinions]

My dead name is really cool ( although it makes me dysphoric ) and I would feel bad about changing it because my mom chose it and it’s a special name but I wanna come out and change my name and it’s just so hard sjjsjdbjzkandgz (advice....?)

well! i suppose you could do a variation of it as a compromise, or keep it as a middle name? but it can still be special to you without it being your legal name anymore. you could even name something else you like whatever that is. for example, i named my cute sylveon plushie angelique, which is what my birth mother wanted to call me. it was special to her and now i’ve “passed it on” you know?

[closetedtransboyopinions]

I wish I had a penis like my girlfriend does. This must mean I’m a…chaser. Yeah. That’s why. I’m a gross creepy cis girl chaser. 

[closetedtransboyopinions]

its probably just me being ungrateful with my current situation, these escapist fantasies that ive been having since a small kid. thinking about what would it be like if i lived centuries ago, when there were knights and pirates - and, no legal documents and stuff like that to keep track, either. i could run somewhere far away and change my identity completely, maybe even pretend to be a guy...

[closetedtransboyopinions]

I hate my body because…women’s are inherently inferior. I mean I’m a feminist and everything, but the reason I hate my body is because women are just uniquely cursed. Yes other women’s bodies are beautiful and capable of miracles and super cool… but mine is Cursed. Just cursed. Unlike those lucky men. 

[closetedtransboyopinions]

every cis girl almost cries out of happiness when a waitress mistakenly calls her a "handsome young man" haha amirite ??

[closetedtransboyopinions]

Due to circumstances I'm gonna have to get my name changed and gOD I want a boys name but my mother has shot down every gender neutral name and just... aaaaggh. Let me have this! Please!

i’m sorry :(

[closetedtransboyopinions]

My friend is very respectful and Im so grateful to him for it but he accidentally uses my male name around my mother and anymore when he does it we've just turned it into a song to cover it up. -- "Hey T-..Hey toblerone we all know about the scandal, stop makin your chocolate bars smaller, we all knooow." -- How we manage to make this sound anything like music is beyond me.

omg that’s great, i love it

[closetedtransboyopinions]

Sure as hell not wearing the girl's uniform to school but a bit scared about wearing the guy's even though it feels so much better.

[closetedtransboyopinions]

Afraid of your friends accidentally calling you your male name around parents because wowie they're very in the know and very transphobic and this could open a very big can of worms

[closetedtransboyopinions]

mm yup all girls feel this way, disgusted about anyone thinking of them as a girl and feeling sick when they look at their chest.

[closetedtransboyopinions]

*as a child/early teen* ok sure when I try to imagine myself as a fully grown adult woman I can't do it and I feel really awful and a bit suicidal but that's normal right everyone has that! no one /wants/ to be a woman!

[closetedtransboyopinions]

I'm not my deadname. I'm not my genitalia. I'm not a 'girl' wanting to be like a boy, I am one.

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i love shopping online in the men's section! but i never buy anything bc i only think the male models are hot!! yh that's it!! no jealousy or anything haha

[closetedtransboyopinions]

when ur friends ask you "would you ever want to be the opposite gender" and you scream YES GOD PLEASE OF COURSE I DO ARE YOU KIDDING ME WHO DOESNT ID LOVE TO BE A GUY