Cloud2wo

Pieces of Me

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a million pieces.

sometimes I wanna tell you how I feel

but then I remind myself that you just wouldn't care.

so i keep my emotions to myself

and hope that one day you'll realize on your own

how much you really hurt me. 

am I bitter? no.

am I mad at you? maybe a little.

but put yourself in my shoes. 

what if I led you on?

what if I made you think that

what we had was real?

how would you feel?

what if I ripped your heart out of your chest

while it was still beating?

what if I twisted your brain into thinking

that we could have been more?

how would that make you feel?

so i just keep all my emotions to myself.

i don't speak to you because I'm not over 

what you did to me.

maybe I forgave you too soon.

maybe it was because I put up this front

and made you think that I was perfectly fine.

I can't help it. 

I refuse to let someone see me break.

But you saw that side of me.

I warned you not to play with my heart.

i begged and I pleaded. 

but you still tore my heart out of my chest

and watched as it bled across the carpet floor.

now i'm here trying to put myself back together.

but everyone knows that getting blood out of carpet

isn't an easy task. 

i'm struggling. 

i'm fighting. 

but am I winning this fight?

maybe i'll be losing until I

gather enough courage to tell you

that you smashed my heart into a million pieces.

maybe then i'll be able to put my 

heart back together. 

all one million pieces.

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Never trust anyone with your feelings.

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...heartbeat

…. who knew that my heart could still beat for someone other than myself? after 3 years of detachment and the constant thought that no one would ever love me better than myself, you'd think that my heart wouldn't be able to love for another human being.

Recently, I felt my heart beat. The feeling, that feeling, I remembered it but I couldn't quite remember where it came from. It felt so brand new. It felt like something I'd never felt in my life. It felt damn good. And from that very day, my heart kept beating. It wasn't just a normal paced beat. It was a rapid, intense, emotional beat. 

I couldn't figure out why my heart was beating the way it was. Was I in, dare i say it, Love? How could I, of all people, be in love? Love is an emotion that I swore I'd never feel again in my life, or at least not until I was 50. Someone had cast a spell on me. Maybe Cupid shot his arrow at me. Maybe it was that damn psychic I went to who told me I'd fall in love soon. I couldn't figure it out, but I knew that it felt so good. 

Even though it felt good, it was scary as fuck. I was so afraid. So afraid that I would fuck it up. So afraid that I would end up getting hurt again. So afraid that I would hurt the other person. My mind started racing. It would go from one outcome to another outcome until it, I, decided to just stick with the worst outcome and run with it. 

Once I decided what I thought the outcome was going to be, I started thinking outrageous things, and I started saying crazy things. I was afraid, and when you're afraid you do crazy things, especially when it involves love. I don't even remember what I was upset about, or what I was talking about, or what I was scared of. Honestly, I can't even tell you what the fuck I thought the outcome was going to be. All I do know is that I fucked up the situation. 

I fucked up what me and that person had. I fucked up. And now I regret it.

-Domi 

7/4/12

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It's not you, it's me.

well, it is you. But in a sense, it's me too. 

I don't want to push you away, but I have to. I have to push you away because if I don't, I'll go insane. I want to keep my sanity. I don't want to lose my mind into the world of you. 

See, this thing in my head called a brain, it makes me think. It makes me think a little too much at times. Maybe a lot. And I know that if I let you put a foot in the door, if I let you reach out, grab my hand, and pull me back in, I'll go insane. I'll over think. 

Happy. Sad. Depressed. Upset. Excited. Worried. 

I wish it wouldn't happen that way. I really do. I wish there was a cure for this, but so far I haven't been lucky at finding something that'll fix this. 

The easiest thing for me to do is push you away and learn how to control this. 

I don't want to. 

But i'll never be good enough for you if I don't. 

-DB

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part three

I couldn't figure out why my heart was beating the way it was. Was I in, dare i say it, Love? How could I, of all people, be in love? Love is an emotion that I swore I'd never feel again in my life, or at least not until I was 50. Someone had cast a spell on me. Maybe Cupid shot his arrow at me. Maybe it was that damn psychic I went to who told me I'd fall in love soon. I couldn't figure it out, but I knew that it felt so good. 

-DB

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King Tut

{photo taken 9-4-13}

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FlowerPower

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photo taken 9/4/13

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part two

Recently, I felt my heart beat. The feeling, that feeling, I remembered it but I couldn't quite remember where it came from. It felt so brand new. It felt like something I'd never felt in my life. It felt damn good. And from that very day, my heart kept beating. It wasn't just a normal paced beat. It was a rapid, intense, emotional beat. 

-D.B.

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I<3U

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BirdsHome

{taken 9/3/13}

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vulnerability.

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Heartbreak.

Plain and simple, heart break feels like someone ripping out your heart, spitting on it and throwing it in a blender making some kind of heart break smoothie, drinking it. Then they vomit all over your soul. Thats heart break in a nutshell. Or did you want something more poetic?

- Von (@vonmeetsworld)

7/12

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Love.

I didn't believe in love for a really long time because the definition of love I had, wasn't what I saw in the world. I always believed, if you love someone, you don't want to hurt them, and you'll always love them but that's not what I saw. So of course if I didn't believe in love,I didn't think I'd fall in love. Well, I was wrong. And falling in love was a lot easier than I ever thought. At first I wondered, how do you know you're in love, but when you're in love, you know it, because it's an obvious feeling that you can hardly explain. All you want to do is be around that person, at all times. You want to protect them. You can actually see a bright future with them. All you think about is them. You never ever get tired of them. You just want to be able to hold that person in your arms and never let go. And when they leave your sight, you miss them right away, and you know if you ever lost this person, you would never be the same again. The feeling you feel being around them is so unexplainable. Like literally unexplainable. I guess the best partial explanation is the butterflies in your tummy, they never, ever go away, they're always there. But the worst part of falling in love with someone, is the fact that it may not be reciprocated. You can fall in love with someone, but they don't fall in love with you. And when they leave you, it feels like they ripped your heart out of your chest and spit on it. You feel at first like you'll never feel that feeling again for another person. And you learn to put up walls, as if everyone is going to do the same thing to you. Heartbreak is a huge painful risk of falling in love, but the feeling of love is worth it all.

-Katelyn M.

7-26-12

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what does love feel like?

Scary, knowing someone has complete control over your emotions & feelings. and at moment they can take everything away from you. but at the same time it's a very comforting happy feeling, like nothing else matters.

-- joshkillss