despondency

a poser

[cloudyonme]

That morning at SMP Santa Angela Bandung, I wasn’t in the classroom — I was on guru piket duty, holding the front line like it was mission control. Coffee in hand, I watched the day unfold: students rushing in, some trying the classic “I’m not late, I’m just early for tomorrow” excuse, others greeting me with the kind of energy only teenagers can pull off at 7 a.m. Between reminding them to tuck in their shirts and answering questions that had nothing to do with school rules (“Sir, if you had a high-tech suit, could it get me out of math?”), I realized piket isn’t just about discipline — it’s about reading the room, catching moments, and maybe, just maybe, engineering a better start to someone’s day.

[cloudyonme]

First day at SMP Santa Angela Bandung. Walked in with sunglasses, coffee in one hand, drone hovering behind me. Half the class looked ready to take notes, the other half ready to post me on Instagram. Grammar drills? Not happening. Instead, I gave them a mission: write a journal entry as if you were assisting someone who saves the world before breakfast. The results were gold — “I check the suit every morning,” one wrote. Another confessed, “I eat noodles while the boss works.” Pretty sure I laughed loud enough to be heard in another dimension.

This place isn’t just a school — it’s a creativity lab disguised as a campus. The walls are alive with color, the canteen serves siomay that could win international peace prizes, and the students ask questions like, “Sir, can a suit get me out of math class?” My answer? Sure — but it’ll also email your parents a full report. Somewhere between the noodles, the laughter, and the impossible questions, it hit me: teaching is basically building a high-tech suit. You start with scattered parts… and end up creating something unstoppable.

[cloudyonme]

Been there

love is not a lasequest - is a great song from arctic monkeys. and i love it

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i lost myself

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god knows shes the one I rely on

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come here, when I’m all alone

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when you are mentally and phisically wrecked

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“I dont think Im meant to understand mself

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we were on Journey in a rural area. There were my college friends and also my lovers stopping by for a moment and grumbling about what hot day it was. We talked about many things

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RAINS IN ANOTHER

my mind used to wander in a pouring rain back then It's so amazing to enable myself recalling the days of a marveolous ride in the twenty years has been. stunnning, so exquisite. The rains brought me as a 12 years old boy - exploring the traffic jam riding a bicycle in my hometown. Sometimes I found myself just sitting back behind the rusty windows or I could be surrounded by my old pals having weird convo. Those felt so warm and magical. I can’t help the feel.

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[cloudyonme]

turning back to 7 year ol boy seeking for mom in the office. I know mom retired but she took another job as accountant. I sat on her lap. What a dream

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hehe gila ya gila

[thoughtsofdog]

human refilled my water bowl!

[thoughtsofdog]

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[cloudyonme]

blue tees, black jeans, vans, glassess, intelligent, outgoing. Cant dismiss

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