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Nag-talik ang mga bituin Ako ang naging bunga Pinangalanan ng langit ng Christine Dagdag ng kidlat ang Alyssa Nakilala ni Juan Tamad Bininyagan ng Siey Makasalanang nilalang Kung mag-biro ay havey.

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i passed

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to God be the Glory!

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let’s read some books

[toastbutteregg]

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Gloomy weather

all i wanted to do is to cuddle with my cat and my dogs. but my cat doesn’t want too much cuddle and if i do a lot he’ll bite me.

on the other hand, my dogs are stinky because they played with the water and so the dirt is on their fur.

it’s a gloomy weather huhu i’m eating wafers and tho i hate eating wafers bc it’s messy i’m still eating it idk whyyyyyy

ps please send mi goreng

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Sana lahat ng inaaral ko lumabas sa vmle

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Laptop

Dad bought me anew laptop so I’m testing it out here in Tumblr. How’s life lately?

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tengene sa'yo na yang oras mo p0ta.

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you will never find me anymore.

[oraclesofnorway]

Your body is an incredibly bizarre machine.

“What you see is a myosin protein dragging an endorphin along a filament to the inner part of the brain’s parietal cortex which creates happiness. Happiness. You’re looking at happiness.”

[andrewbelami]

Look at her STRUT!!! She is dragging that endorphin for filth and using that filament as her runway, bitch.

[deactivatingrealsoon-deactivate]

6 inch heels…..she walked in the club like nobody’s business…..godam…..she murdered everybody and i was her witness

[edensgardener]

JESUS CHRIST

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Random, as always

Hi. This is me writing this evening and hoping that tumblr won’t be erased for the next years coming so that I will still be able to read all of the contents of my blog and remind me of every ka-gagahan in my life.

Waddap. It’s your gurrrl, na inakalang gagaraduate ng June but failed Compre Exam because I gave in into sleep than review #SleepIsLyf. Now, we’re going to have classes this summer for Re-Compre so we’ll be able to graduate on August. After August, hello adulthood.

They say take one step at a time. But that doesn’t work for me, maybe bc of my depression and anxiety. I’m 60% scared to enter adulthood after August bc I don’t know what it’s like to be out there offering yourself to people you don’t know. I spent 8 years in College. 1 yr Bio, 7 yrs Vet. I don’t own my own money, I was always supported by my mom and dad. The idea of being out there, earning your own money, and budgeting it seemed to be challenging for me. I also fear not to save for the future bc as filipinos there is this period of giving back to your family. I wanted to help, but I wanted to help them not to the point that they will relay all on me. I don’t wanna be tired without saving. So my first priority when I earn money is to save.

Second thought right now is to pass the Re-Compre exam 2019 for me to have diploma. Idk why is diploma important to people when the bottomline of living is to function. I mean diploma just reflects what you’ve done and accomplished in school. How about those people who didn’t get the chance to go to  school yet their skills are way better than those who had diploma. System is just unfair. So there, after graduation, ofc I’m still not licensed, I’d like to work in Clinics or Sales and will review for boards on the side. I will pass Boards 2020.

Plan B, if I failed Re-Compre. I’d go to Call Center. But this is the dead end.

In the future, I will buy my own house and build a family in which Sundays will be allotted for Family lunches and Bible Study. I will buy a big car and use it to travel the country.

I want to be a Vet Corps.

Everything is just random here.

I hope you understand.

I’m scared.

But I will figure it out.

I love me.

P.S. I came back here bc I feel unsafe to share this thoughts on Twitter.

[coral]

I want to forget everything I’ve been told

and everything I’ve seen. (via coral)

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I feel like you wanted to do more things on your own

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If you’re reading thins, I’m still awake and sad.

I don’t wanna be blamed by someone anymore :------(

I don’t wanna be someone’s excuse of why he wasn’t able to do it :------(

If you wanna do something, do it.

Please don’t think about me.

Go and go.

Pls stop blaming me :------( it wasn’t my choice afterall.

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Just a random day

Hi. Ang tagal na rin since noong huli akong nakapag-blog. 6th year student na ako, graduating. Kauuwi ko galing sa school. Late kasi Testimonials for the Newly Licensed Veterinarians. Nakaka-inspire silang lahat na at the same time nakaka-pressure.

Hindi ko alam kung kanino ko puwede i-open itong feelings ko kasi parang ang burden kung i-oopen ko pa sa iba.

I hate myself.

Ang laki kong negative sa buhay ng iba. Kahit anong gawin kong pakikisalamuha, pakiki-blend sa iba lagi pa rin akong solitary. Ilang friends lang din meron ako. And ang sensitive ko. Ang fragile. Sobrang dali kong masaktan. At ayoko na ng ganun. Ayoko na ng ganito.

Gusto kong mapag-isa most of the time kasi mas nagiging ako ako.

Napaka-burden ko kay Pat kasi sa kanya ko lang naipapakita lahat ng kabutihan at kasamaan ng ugali ko. Mahal na mahal ko siya kasi kahit na hindi niya deserve yung mga nagagawa ko sa kanya, nandiyan pa rin siya para sa akin. 

Tapos naiisip ko na namang lumayo...sa lahat kapag nakakagawa ako ng mali, kapag hindi ko namimeet yung expections, kapag hindi ko naibibigay yung deserve nila. Kasi sobrang nakakasama ng loob. Kasi when I’m not enough, sila yung lumalayo.

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