日向 順平

indie rp blog for hyuga junpei, written by tony.

[clutchcaptain]

indie / selective / single-muse blog for hyuuga junpei.

written by tony (previously ofmiracles)

let’s be be polite and respectful to each other! we’re here to have fun. i also want to clarify this is a SIDE BLOG, all follow backs will be from @sxndglass

i use small text and icons (no bigger than 100x100) when rping. i’m indifferent to what my partner’s rp style is (but please dont use SUPER BIG gifs/images). it’s also ok if you don’t use icons at all since sometimes i’m lazy myself or i just can’t bother to find the right icon.

any kind of plots are welcome! all from fluff to angst, mostly angst since i love writing drama. i am also oc and crossover friendly!

about shipping and exclusivity: hyuuga is exclusive with izuki and will stay like that. currently, im not looking for more romantic relationships with him but other dynamics are more than welcome!

this blog is also nsfw +18 (not limited to smut, so that includes mature themes like murder, blood and etc). be aware that english is not my main language so i might not be confident when writing smut and will end up in a fade to black.

i ask that you tag trypophobia and explicit suicide (i’m ok with it being mentioned tho). that said, i will tag any trigger as ‘trigger tw’.

anon hate will be blocked so don’t even bother :)) i also do not condone call-out culture, since i don’t care about petty drama. you do you, y’all.

[punandgun]

Izuki sighs lightly, but he promised himself he was going to treat Hyuuga with kindness regardless of his... oblivious nature regarding this topic. He's my friend, he's just a little... confused. He means well, but...

However, Hyuuga's follow up question makes him feel like a headache is about to slam into him. "I see. Well... there is no girl. If there's two guys." That's kind of the point, Hyuuga. God forbid Hyuuga also learns about lesbians someday. But that's too complicated for this conversation. "That depends on what you mean by girl...? Not all girls are the same either, you know... I think Riko would kick your ass if she heard you talking about this."

He shakes his head. "All relationships are different." Izuki is being as patient as possible, to his credit. As the man who didn't peep on the girls in the hot spring... he has to put up with a lot from his teammates sometimes. Now he's wondering if Hyuuga had been picturing him as a girl when they had kissed. Annoying. "Don't take this the wrong way, but... why are you so bothered about it?"

[clutchcaptain]

"I'm aware there are two guys, yeah..." How about they just... Focus on the gay men topic? That could potentially make this conversation less embarrassing (it won’t). "Why do you think I'm not having this conversation with her?" Because Riko would surely take this the wrong way, and Hyuuga wanted to live to see another sunrise.

While Hyuuga did think she would be nice enough to help him navigate this, it just felt... Awkward. Look, it was painful for him to even be talking about this with Izuki, okay? Give him some credit for at least trying to organize his thoughts.

(For the record, even if Hyuuga wasn’t able to read Izuki’s thoughts: no, he wasn’t imagining him as a girl at all.)

It was then, when Izuki asked him why he was 'bothered' about it, that Hyuuga realized maybe he was... Still wondering about some things from years ago / things he had never brought up to Izuki (he definitely was bothered about it, he was just trying to gaslight himself). "I’m not bothered by it." He said it a bit too quickly, sounding defensive. "I was just curious. I don’t really think I’m attracted to men after all."

He thought maybe... Kissing Izuki, who was also a guy, might have given him a change of heart. Like a switch. But nope, nothing at all (this would definitely bite him back later on). "I know being, uh, bisexual? Is also a thing, but I guess it’s just a phase I'm going through." Morbid curiosity, and Izuki just happened to be there.

[punandgun]

Izuki waits patiently, wondering what Hyuuga has to think so hard about. He's never known him to think this much in general, so it must be something serious. This also means he's determined to stay in serious mode and not make any jokes about it.

...Wait, what? "Eh?" The confused noise that leaves his throat is entirely unintentional. "How it would work? I assume pretty similar to dating a girl. With like... less of some things, and more of other things." He's trying to be as vague as possible so he doesn't go into crude territory here. "I guess... I haven't really thought about it directly," he says cautiously. "Girls and guys are equally as annoyed by my jokes, so I guess for me it would be the same."

Hadn't Hyuuga kissed him earlier in this conversation? He's going to ignore that for his own sanity. "If you mean how it would work around other people... I think obviously, there's always going to be more judgement if you date a guy, and people will, um... question your masculinity?" Izuki senses that Hyuuga has this fear in his heart, so he acknowledges it directly. "Ah, hmm..." It's risky to ask, because doesn't want Hyuuga to get defensive and run away from him. "Do you... like someone? You don't have to tell me though. But, uh... if you want to talk... about it?"

[clutchcaptain]

Can't blame Izuki for being caught off guard with that -very embarrassing- question, so Hyuuga had to keep a serious face on him while Izuki tried to give his point of view. He -painfully- waits for the other to finish.

"Less of some things, and more of... Other things." He repeats like a broken record, not exactly the answer he expected but Hyuuga will try to work around that. Yes, Hyuuga kissed him no more than half an hour ago, that is not something that's being denied? Given that Izuki silently decided to ignore that detail, he will ignore it as well for the time being. After hearing more, he did consider having food for thought the matter about one's masculinity being questioned.

Hyuuga sighed.

"No, there is no one." Partial lie... Or not? Hopefully Izuki would not be able to tell, not ready to bring up that elephant in the room just yet. "I just wonder, you know how some people also ask questions like... 'Who is the guy and the girl?' Or something like that." He definitely has asked that too, in case anyone is wondering.

[punandgun]

Izuki is actually a bit surprised that Hyuuga apologized, but he supposes his friend isn't the least emotionally intelligent person in the universe. It's a relief to think that Hyuuga is still willing to simmer down after their bizarre interaction. Maybe something can still be salvaged between the two of them...

"Kiyoshi is definitely not me," Izuki says. "My hands are smaller, and he irritates people in a much different way than I do." He nods as though he's said something very wise. "Right, I know you care... well, thank you. It's just an offhand thought I have sometimes. Thanks for giving me a hand." Actually terrible. Hyuuga should leave him immediately.

He gives Hyuuga sad puppy dog eyes at that one. "Everyone?! But they're fun, aren't they? Hayama laughed at my jokes, remember? Surely someone on the team finds them funny...?" Izuki is very aware he's alone on this island. Oh well! Not everyone can appreciate the Izuki-family genius. "Inner thoughts... well, what do I know, maybe they're winner thoughts." Since Hyuuga apologized, Izuki has managed to relax somewhat, and is now back to his typical annoying self.

Izuki tilts his head to one side. "Have I ever what?" he echoes. "Come on, we're friends. Ever what?" Now he's too curious to let it go.

[clutchcaptain]

In his defense-- Okay fine, there was no defense, but Hyuuga was not that harsh! Yes, he was being dramatic right now / however, that was not the point of this whole mess of a situation. That and among other things, the least he wanted was to loose all that connection he had remaining with Izuki.

Not that he would say that out loud. Truthfully speaking, Hyuuga was made for the position of Captain in basketball. For his personal life? That was not the same case, sadly. Some things were just not that easy to handle!

Now he regretted opening his mouth more than intended. Hyuuga figured he’d better be honest now, before asking if they could both pretend this whole kissing thing and conversation never happened. "Hm." Give him a moment, he was putting together the words in his brain and also thinking how he could approach this. If Izuki laughed, he would end the conversation right here and now. "Have you ever... Thought about how dating a guy would be? As in, how it would work?" Alright, maybe Izuki could laugh a little-- Just a little.

[punandgun]

The two of the haven't spent time together for a long time, and now they're arguing...? Izuki sighs. That's just like Hyuuga, isn't it? It would almost be endearing if it were happening to someone who wasn't him. He knows letting things escalate will not be good, so he decides to diffuse the situation... or at least try.

"I'm sorry, Hyuuga," Izuki says cautiously. "I didn't say no because I wanted to help you with whatever it was. It's been a long time since you asked me for help with anything directly... I agree, maybe Kiyoshi would have been a better choice." His smile is kind of sad. "I know you say he irritates you, but I think he's a good person to go to for support. He's kinda an airhead sometimes, but I know he cares about you." Not that Izuki doesn't care, of course he does, that's part of the problem, but, well — you know.

Misunderstood their friendship? What does Hyuuga mean by that exactly? Izuki should have kept that thought to himself. "Oh, um... well, I'll admit I kind of feel like the odd one out these days, sometimes. With you and Kiyoshi and Riko... but that's not something you have to worry about, Hyuuga. It's just my own insecurity, really."

He wants so badly to make a joke out of this. Instead, he holds his typical puns back for the sake of a serious conversation.

"I mean, I — you can still confide in me, if you want," Izuki clarifies. "Even if I'm not... the best option?" Still, he wonders why Hyuuga would have wanted to kiss him. He thought Hyuuga was more... rigid? About things like this. And that he had been for a long time, which is why they drifted in the first place, whether Hyuuga knows it or not.

He remembers when Hyuuga stopped wanting to hold his hand when they played. And he remembers running home and crying to his mother that Hyuuga didn't like him anymore, and asking if he was too girly. Baby Izuki worried that having two sisters had made him not understand what boys were supposed to do. But his mother assured him that there wasn't only one way for boys to act, and that Hyuuga was probably just embarrassed about something.

Izuki started to keep his distance after that, out of respect for whatever Hyuuga was going through. But he'd hoped that at some point, after working through it, Hyuuga would come back...? Instead, they seem to barely be friends anymore.

"Is it the puns?" He genuinely wonders if that was the final straw that made Hyuuga want to avoid him. "I know you're annoyed by them, but I'm capable of having a conversation without them, you know."

[clutchcaptain]

In all honesty, Hyuuga had not meant for this topic to turn out into some sort of argument, and hearing Izuki apologize after his dumb / defensive act left yet another sour taste in him. "It's alright, I should be the one to be sorry." No howevers / no buts. "I'm... Sorry as well, Izuki." There you go, it wasn't so hard now wasn't it? It felt as if these two hadn't had a real conversation in years, and that was not so far from the truth? Outside of basketball, there were not many topics of conversation between them.

Okay, he was getting there / somehow / little by little. Just give him more time...

"Kiyoshi is not you." He huffed, embarrassed in admitting that out loud / while that stupid Iron Heart did manage to make Hyuuga come out of his shell way more easily, and also inspired him to get back into basketball, the one who was really there all along has been Izuki / even if the other didn't really realize it. "We all care about you, and you are as important to me as Kiyoshi and Riko are." Maybe that could help Izuki with his own insecurities as well, because that wasn't a lie, at all.

"It's not the puns. I am annoyed at them, yes, but everybody shares the same sentiment. I'm not alone on that." If that were the root of all issues, they wouldn't even be having this conversation at all. Hyuuga sighed, emotionally drained from all of this. "Just my inner thoughts, too." Which needed more thinking on his part, since even saying the reason why he asked Izuki, of all people, for a kiss, was very embarrassing for him, you might as well just end his misery right here and now.

What if they took another approach... Maybe the process of catharsis would be easier if they did that, just so that Izuki doesn't feel so much in the dark with Hyuuga's ambiguity. "Izuki, have you ever..." Ughhh, make it stop, please!! "No, never mind." Nope, crawling back to a hole it is!

[punandgun]

"Hyuugaaaaaa," Izuki whines, swatting his hands away. "C'mon, I'll stop." Hyuuga is always so critical of his sense of humor! Izuki will choose to believe that's a deficit of Hyuuga and not of him.

Why did he react so angrily?! Hyuuga said himself that it wasn't anything out of this world, but he's mad that Izuki confirmed that it was a lame kiss? They're in full agreement here! "Ooookay, then what did you need to kiss me for? At least go through with it if you're going to use me for practice." Coward. He's not a mean person, so he's not going to say that, but Hyuuga really could stand to be a little more... decisive? He never seems to commit to his feelings — and what is Izuki supposed to do about that? Hyuuga doesn't come to him for anything anymore.

"I don't know how to kiss," Izuki protests — now he's feeling a little irritated for some reason. "And why would I initiate that, anyway?" Sometimes, Hyuuga acts like they're little kids again. "You don't have to know how to cook to taste a dish and know it's awful." Izuki finds that he's being immature now, too. "You don't even want to answer the question of why you asked me, for some reason. Weren't we friends at one point?"

Ah. He hadn't really meant to let that slip out.

"...It's fine if you want to be stubborn," Izuki mutters. "Never mind. Look, if you want practice..." He closes his eyes for a moment, sighing. "Ask someone with relationship experience? Not me."

[clutchcaptain]

He was acting angrily because... He can?? Awesome reason, can't even counter that in his own head because yes, they did agree -or so it was stated- that it should NOT mean anything. Yet, here they were, pointing fingers at each other / trying to find who was the culprit instead of being reasonable teenagers and actually expressing what they were both thinking or feeling. Even if Izuki didn't tell him right on his face that he was a coward, he was right in assuming so. "This is why I said you could say 'no'." Now Hyuuga was getting defensive. Trying to turn around this conversation -argument?- as to not deal with the turmoil of inner thoughts and emotions.

"Well, good to know we both have so much in common about having no experience in kissing people", the sarcasm rolled out in every word / like venom. Maybe he meant it to say it like that / maybe not, but who cares? "Sorry to have troubled you with this. I knew I should've asked someone else, like stupid Kiyoshi." Ohhhhh, that was... Very low, even for Hyuuga.

By this point, he had already crossed his arms and looked the other way, trying to find an excuse to not look Izuki in the eyes / ignoring the questions.

'Weren't we friends at one point?' Wait... That actually made him turn back again to look at the latter. "Huh?" What? Why did Izuki say that so... Sad? "Izuki... Why are you saying that?" They were still talking, they were still friends, and they even attended the same school-- For fuck's sake, they even were in the same club. Wasn't that enough to prove they were still friends after all? If Hyuuga actually had more emotional intelligence, he would've figured a long time ago just how distant they both grew.

Now, with Izuki saying-- Asking that, it just further confirms how much of a terrible idea it was to ask him for a stupid, dumb kiss. "I... I seem to have misunderstood our friendship." A punch in the gut would've hurt less than saying that out loud. Any last remaining bit of trust they had left just happened to finish shattering into a million pieces, never to be fixed to what it once was.

...

'Junpei, take my hand!'

...

'Junpei?'

...

"Holding hands is for girls, Shun..." He clenched his jaw at that far and faint memory of him saying that, on one of the many field trips they had back in elementary school. Life had seemed so much simpler at that age.

Whatever, it didn't matter anymore.

[punandgun]

"Guh — ?!" Izuki makes a less-than-romantic sound when Hyuuga smushes his cheeks together, and he barely even registers that Hyuuga has kissed him before his friend pulls away. That's it? Why had he even gotten nervous about that in the first place?

"I would call that... lip service." Yes, he's a little proud of that joke. Not only is he stupidly proud of it, but it also sucks! Worst of both worlds.

That was super anticlimactic. What's he supposed to make of that? He's kissed Nigou on the nose for longer than that kiss lasted!

"Did you prove something to yourself?" Izuki tilts his head, curious about what any of that meant. "Or did you fall for me? Fall... in the fall. Fall for me, but it's no fault of mine. The folly of falling for me, which isn't my fault..."

Why does he make Hyuuga angry when he speaks, he wonders? A mystery for the ages.

"So, who is it that you really like?" Izuki raises an eyebrow. "I assume you were practicing for something or other. By the way, unrelated, but if you ask Riko out with a lame kiss like that, she's going to kill you, you know."

[clutchcaptain]

He had loosened the grip he had on Izuki's face after that poor attempt at a kiss... Which did not last long, as he was back to squishing his friend's cheeks, this time with more force. Some things never changed because the point guard clearly had a death wish. "Is this a competition? To see how much patience I have left with you?" Hand was still squishing said face, as if saying a silent 'Make another pun, I dare you.'

Finally, after thinking Izuki had had enough of a punishment, he let go of him. "Hm, didn't seem anything out of this world." He did figure something out, even if it was a poor attempt. At least there was comfort that Izuki treated this very casually.

"I'm--" Now he was taken aback. Did his friend just insult him? "I'm not gonna ask her out!" Partial lie, because if he were, he definitely would NOT kiss her on a first date, or do anything that compromises their friendship as well as club activities as coach and captain. "If you so happen to know how to kiss, then maybe you should be the one to initiate it." He scoffed-- He was now feeling petty.

[i-probably-forgot]

[punandgun]

Well, if Hyuuga can still tell him to shut up, that means they haven't ruined their comfortable dynamic yet. That's probably a good sign. Not that Izuki is even physically capable of stopping the puns; it's baked into his genetic makeup.

"Hmm... well, I can give you a grade after. Then it's kinda like homework." And considering how flighty Hyuuga is acting, he's not going to get a very good grade. ...No, Izuki will go easy on him. It doesn't matter how good either of them are anyway, because it's not a "real" kiss.

Is there a reason Hyuuga is trying to be romantic about it? Izuki has never seen him act so gentle and nervous before. He swallows. Right, why did he agree to this? Hyuuga's so stupid about things like this! And emotionally incompetent! He knows this!

Hyuuga's a huge dork. But his awkwardness makes him cute. At least, Izuki has always thought so. He's a dork in his own way, so he doesn't judge Hyuuga for his hobbies or the fact that he gets easily flustered.

Too bad these days they haven't been as close as they used to be.

Hyuuga's body language and words are completely at odds. Why is he going through the motions and then acting like he wanted to run? Wasn't this Hyuuga's idea in the first place?! "Didn't you ask because you wanted to practice?" Izuki tilts his head slightly. "Doesn't that also mean you have be the one to kiss me?" Hopefully Hyuuga gets this over with sooner than later; Izuki is starting to remember the way he felt around Hyuuga when they were kids, feelings that he buried a long time ago. "Don't sweat it. We both know it doesn't mean anything. Mean... but it's not a mean... meaning. Hmm." Not his best work.

[clutchcaptain]

"I don't think grading how I kiss you is going to make me feel better." If Izuki paid attention and if his eagle eye were to work that way, he could see how a black cloud formed on top of Hyuuga's head, feeling gloomy all of a sudden, and confidence going down the drain, just a bit... But good thing Hyuuga recovered as quickly as to not look way too pathetic, he still had pride remaining in him (haha, get it? Pride).

Somehow, feeding into the idea that it's not a 'real' kiss was rubbing him in more bad ways than Hyuuga would like to admit. Not like either one of them would say it out loud, though.

And of course, Izuki had to open his smartass mouth one more time, which made the captain's eyebrow twitch. "The more you speak, the more angry I get." Irritated too. The right hand that was cupping the latter's face then happened to suddenly forget all about the romantic gestures he was trying to transmit. Index and thumb squished both of the point guard's cheeks, and now the latter looked like a squirrel with how much pressure he was putting into those cheeks. "Just shut up." Truly romantic! Deciding to finally get over this stupid awkwardness, Hyuuga then closed the gap between him and his friend. A kiss was given, nothing out of this world, it was more like... A peck, because the kiss ended as quickly as it had initiated. "Hm..." Not his best work either, please have mercy.

[punandgun]

Is he sure it's fine? ...No, he's not. This is probably just something stupid that Hyuuga hasn't thought through, but Izuki can't promise that it'll go well. He's still not entirely sure what Hyuuga has to gain from this. Perhaps he has a crush on someone (a girl) and feels like he needs practice before asking her out. Perhaps someone teased him about being into men, and he's going to prove them wrong by kissing Izuki and being grossed out about it, then laughing about it later. Izuki has to remind himself that if that happens, he shouldn't feel offended. It's not like it's personal.

"Of course it's fine," Izuki says instead of the truth. "And if you hate it, then... you can fine me later."

Perhaps the joke will get Hyuuga to call it off and run away from him. It's always hard to tell with him.

Politely, he tilts his head towards Hyuuga, allowing him to initiate. The other nice thing about Izuki is that he's trustworthy. Even if this winds up being awkward, he won't run to Kiyoshi or Riko later to complain about it. "You're just...trying, right? You can think of it like you're, um, doing homework or something."

Right. This is the same level of discomfort as a math assignment. Of course it is.

[clutchcaptain]

There was really nothing to gain from this... Other than the embarrassment and uncertainty if these two would be able to look each other in the eye anymore. After what felt like hours and not mere minutes, Hyuuga finally found the courage to look Izuki at the eye because that joke was so terrible it made him want to change his mind. "Izuki, shut up" and it was said by reflex, because it was so terrible it made Hyuuga cringe.

That pun was definitely not meant to be taken seriously, but it actually made the atmosphere to feel less tense. Perhaps that's just how it has always been / how it would always be between them. There as some comfort in that thought. Hyuuga trusted Izuki, he just need to trust in himself.

"It's a kiss, Izuki. I'm not sure this can qualify as homework at all", he huffed. Tension on his shoulders left and now he just had to... Do that, yes, he should. After thinking about it for yet another painful minute, he has just now realized how Izuki had a very pretty face.

Wait... That was a thought that came out of the blue. Even he was not expecting that at all. This will definitely not come back at him to bite him in the ass (spoiler: it will).

As an awkward teenager that has never kissed someone in his life that he was, Hyuuga just happened to recall how kisses happened in movies: the male lead would raise a hand and cup the love interest face, thus creating the most a sense of anticipation. So Hyuuga will just do that too-- He extended his right hand / gently caressed his friend's face / tilted his head to opposite direction. He was now closer / the distance was making his heart beating faster and hopefully the later won't notice that (and if he did, then please don't say anything at all). "Izuki", why did he suddenly said his friend's name in such an intimate way? "You can still say no". A very tiny part of him hoped that the latter didn't back away now, though.

[clutchcaptain]

no, there is a LOT of reasons to say no. for instance, and if it wasn't clear in the beginning: hyuuga is convinced -more like, has tried to convince himself so hard since childhood- that he solely likes girls. as of lately hyuuga was having this irritating / nagging thought that basically was screaming at him 'but what if that isn't really the case'. it was a mini-crisis. since he was the captain, he should at least have experience in keeping calm and setting the example in stressful situations.

only now that wasn't the case anymore, because even as a captain, that didn't mean he was made of stone.

right now, the offer that was made with izuki in mind was because his best friend could act like a failsafe of sorts / because he knew izuki would not make a big deal out of this, he was too good for that. was that also inconsiderate of him? / did it look like he was taking advantage of izuki's goodwill? definitely. in the end, he was very much acting like an asshole with the person with whom he has shared more than 10 years of friendship. what an idiot he is.

before he could have another chance at insisting that it was fine and to suggest that they pretend this conversation never happened, izuki just seemed to further push it / very gently / which made hyuuga stiff at the kindness. unconsciously, he even backed away from izuki like it was a threat / like it was going to burn him. "are you sure-", eyes were doing their best to not look at the latter at all. how embarrassing this was. "are you sure it's fine?" last chance to back away. // @punandgun / cont.

[ofmiracles-archive]

punandgun​:

[ hyuuga ]: “ let’s just kiss already. ” @ofmiracles

Izuki smiles, a nice, pleasant expression to hide the growing feeling of dread festering in his stomach. He supposes he’s happy that Hyuuga is asking that of him now, but he can’t help but feel that if something goes wrong, Hyuuga will never talk to him again, that their friendship will shatter into pieces at the slightest discomfort. Sometimes Izuki longs for everything to be simple like it was when they were kids, a nostalgia for something they can never go back to, for a time where they held hands and snuggled up together without a second thought. Now everything is tinged with precariousness and the knowledge that Hyuuga is pushing himself – and for what? Does he really like Izuki that way, or is he trying to prove something to himself…?

“Sure,” Izuki manages. There’s a strange voice chattering in his head, wondering if his hair looks okay or if he seems cool at all, if he’s standing awkwardly or seeming casual enough. He feels awkward in his own skin suddenly, and he’s also hyper aware of things he usually tries so hard not to think about, like how cute it is when Hyuuga furrows his brow in that grumpy manner of his, or how strong his hands are from playing basketball, or how his glasses look nice on him (even if he doesn’t have the stereotypical smarts to go along with them). “But if you don’t like it… we can stop, okay?”

no, izuki is partly right, hyuuga is trying to prove something to himself. not that the latter even asked what this was about, he didn’t need to know, or maybe he did deserve to know? to not have hard-feelings whatsoever? in any case, this was very embarrassing for him– but this was izuki they were talking about! his best friend since their childhood, surely this won’t backfire, right? right? oh, he was trying so hard to convince himself about all this.

gah– don’t look at him with those soft, considerate eyes! you’re going to make him feel worst about this. “you can still say ‘no’, you know? i won’t be offended” probably will feel like izuki let him down, but it’s not the latter’s fault in all fairness. it was just hyuuga and his never ending philosophy of running away from unresolved issues since he was six years old, how unfortunate to be in this predicament. now that he thinks about it, it was something they kind of just let it die on it’s own, huh? see, now he was frowning and overthinking this! help him.

[punandgun]

“There’s no reason to say no,” Izuki says cautiously. “It’s fine. I want to help you out, so you don’t have to worry about it.” How silly it all sounds. Helping out is what you do when you’re helping someone carry a bunch of groceries from their car, not kissing your best friend as a favor.  But as long as they both remain casual about it, then it should be fine. Right. Then why does Izuki feel like he’s stepping into something dangerous?

He moves closer slowly, as though Hyuuga is a startled animal and Izuki doesn’t want to spook him. Right… so Hyuuga wants them to kiss, because he wants — what? To prove he’s not into men, or that he is? Of course Izuki is the perfect test subject, because he won’t make it weird and their friendship will withstand whatever awkwardness comes from this (hopefully.) Hyuuga hadn’t clarified the details, though. “Would you like to…?” Izuki glances at Hyuuga’s lips, his cheeks turning a bit pink, betraying his nerves. “Or, would you rather I initiate?” God, he’s not going to admit to Hyuuga that he’s never kissed someone before. Just keep it casual. This one doesn’t count, maybe. 

[punandgun]

[ hyuuga ]: “ i want to either kiss you or kill you right now. ”

"That's quite the range of emotions," Izuki says with a laugh, though his heart does a strange little flip at the word kiss. Huh. Clearly Hyuuga doesn't mean it like that, it's more of a -- Izuki, that was a great pass, I could kiss you right now! Like that. In a platonic way. "With that range, I'm sure we could arrange one or the other." Hyuuga is probably closer to kill right now. "If you killed me, I think you'd miss having someone to tell to shut up," Izuki adds cheerfully. Agreeing to a kiss is a little bit precarious, since he's not sure what Hyuuga means by that, or if Hyuuga himself even knows what it means. "If I stop making jokes for fifteen minutes, will you consider not killing me?" That's a lot to ask, actually. "...At least five minutes?"

[ofmiracles-archive]

why yes, it is quite the range of emotions! and whose fault is that, again? maybe if izuki wasn’t so dumb hyuuga would actually not say things like that, that’s just the effect the latter had on him. very unfortunate, to be this susceptible. he really would miss that idiot--- ugh! no! don’t even think about it! “die”, yep, smart response! good one, junpei! you idiot.

[ofmiracles-archive]

“ so are we going to kiss or not? ” (for hyuuga)

“izuki, shut up” said hyuuga the wiser. that sentence in particular brought some memories to say the least, very inconsiderate and dreadful memories at that. there they were, in the couch, comfortably cuddling while watching one of hyuuga’s historical dramas. or at least hyuuga was the one actually watching while his boyfriend was trying to get his attention. either way, he as well was starting to loose interest already. “if it’s that boring we can watch another thing”. most of the time it was him the one choosing what to watch whenever they had free time, so he should also be considerate and let the latter choose, right? either way, he ignored completely izuki’s request for a kiss. // @punandgun !!

[izukillme-moved]

I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM I LOVE—

[pumpkinpietimb]

Hyuuga: Your existence is confusing.

Izuki: How so?

Hyuuga: Your presence is annoying but the thought of anything bad happening to you upsets me.