thoughts & things

"One day I will find the right words, and they will be simple" Jack Kerouac

[blackcoffeecinnamon]

Saitou Kiyoshi, Cats

[codygohl]

(via GIPHY)

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I wish I loved God

like my grandmother: certain,

unflinching, wholly. 

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I just wanna watch her sing forever. 

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His face, like the pierce

of some defiant light

through the densest fog. 

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The first time, like sun 

and rain at once - beautiful 

and surprising. 

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The bird lifts a cry 

to the purple sky - it is 

the most fragile wail. 

[codygohl]

I imagine you

imagining me and feel 

at once less lonely. 

[codygohl]

i guess i thought if i poured all of myself out you’d eventually see me and love me but looking at it now i see that you had no intention of drinking from the glass i’d put before you that you were never thirsty in the first place that you had never asked me for anything and that if maybe i had taken my eyes from your eyes i would’ve seen the glass overflowing the water left unattended the most vulnerable parts of my soul leaking from the lip of the counter

[codygohl]

I love the lift 

of your eye —

how playfully 

it beckons.

[codygohl]

another small moment

The drag show before

us, your back pressed so gently 

to my open chest. 

[codygohl]

And then there are nights

when even strangers notice

how I look at you. 

[codygohl]

Are you just waiting

for me to be brave enough 

to say it?

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The meanest thing, your 

hand in my hand, that fractured

semblance of safety. 

[codygohl]

I forget sometimes

that you don’t love me, that I 

no longer love you. 

[codygohl]

Love, you don’t see me 

as I see you - how sad

it seems to make us.