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[trixclibrarian]

it's been months but... the body never forgets {sometimes it's a good thing}🖤

[t-underneaththeradardancing]

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midweek murder

[aravenlunatic]

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happy midweek murder 💙🖤

[trixclibrarian]

layers of intensely layered ideas

like the comfort of wallowing in devotion to the uncanny valley

describing a thing over and over while never naming it

[trixclibrarian]

examples of uncanny valley described in ben learner's Transcription

being in the modern world without a functional phone

blown glass flowers

the way thomas's face looks to max after his illness

the way thomas's house looks to narrator part 1

ai faces images / screen worlds

the hotel at the border of france and switzerland

[nattousan]

ok so, I approached my local library with a proposal to donate a mural as a way to A: build portfolio/gain practical experience and B: give back to a beloved public institution. The director was very enthusiastic about it and i've been working on it since the beginning of March. Come with me as I endeavor to paint what is in all honesty an excessive amount of birds

I wanted the birds to look like they were actually in the space so first thing after doing the draft was to do a lighting study

after that I covered the walls in letters in lieu of a projector/vr headset bc i have neither of those :) Then i take a picture of the section of wall and superimpose the lineart over top of it so I can pencil in the lines

et voila

and that was a whole week on it's own so next comes the paintin' >:)

[nattousan]

and now, the birds

Birds 1 and 2/14: Red Winged Blackbird, Male and female, Agelaius phoeniceus

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Bird 3/14, American Robin, Turdus migratorius

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hoo boy, ok *out of breath*

GIVE IT UP FOR BIRD NUMBUH 5, THE CANADIAN GOOSE, Branta canadensis!!!!

this guy took me about 4 days to completely finish, all of those freakingk coverts were a bear to render

[nattousan]

speaking of obnoxious coverts:

bird 5/14, Bluejay, Cyanocitta cristata

the friggin stripes almost got me chat, i may not make it

[nattousan]

Madam....

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birds 6 and 7: American Goldfinch, Spinus tristis, male and female

pleasantly simple to paint! next is the flickerrrrr

[nattousan]

*melts into goo*

BIRD NUMBER 8, (yellow shafted) NORTHERN FLICKERRRRR, Colaptes auratus

genuinely made me start questioning my sanity around day 3, it's half the size the of the goose, WHY did it take me 4 days to finish??

nothing but pain and suffering, i'm sure hope the next bird will be much easier and with FAR less barring :)

[nattousan]

in other news, I am losing my mind hairline

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SHE'S DONE!!

Bird number 9: Red-tailed hawk, Buteo jamaicensis

my chains are broken i am FREE. although i did have a great deal of fun with this, the barring on the wings itself took me like four days and i am READY to move on

this was a week and a half of continuous work so please excuse me for getting a little emotional in the bg 🙏

[nattousan]

*does a little jig*

BIRD NUMBER 10!!! The Male Mallard Duck, Anas platyrhynchos

the male and female ones are gonna be posted separately bc they're taking a lot longer lol but yea! super happy i was able to capture the iridescent green of the head, i found metallic green and blue paint at a craft store that really made his head POP. it looks better in person i promise

ALSO!! As this is the 10th one, BIG announcement. The end is in sight!!!!! I plan to finish within the next 3 weeks and there will be a small dedication ceremony/ unveiling happening at the library to commemorate its completion on the 16th of May. If you live in the Western New York region and want to check it out for yourself shoot me a dm!

Also thank you everyone for your kind words and support throughout this whole process, it's been a genuine treat thinking there are potentially thousands of you out there cheering me on while I paint this 🥹

[nattousan]

aaaand another one bites the duck,

we're movin right along with bird numero 11!! The lady Mallard!! Anas platyrhyncos

the 16th is looming in the distance so i'm trying to get thru these as quickly as i can so i can have as much time for the GBH as possible. i still need to do the names next to all of them so i've got about a week and a half to finish everything which is GREAT because i have adhd and nothing gets my ass in gear like a fuckin deadline, let me tell you

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power couple that they are, here's bird number 12 and 13,

the Northern Cardinals, Cardinalis cardinalis

and NOW that they are complete, ITS GO TIME, in the next five days (library's closed for mother's day 😭😭) i need to have the GBH fully rendered, the names of the birds vectored, weeded, masked, applied to the wall, and then painted, plus additional cattails throughout. I may be able to get away with just getting the GBH done in time for the unveiling and then just have the names and cattails added later, but i'm gonna really try to get it all done in time. BUT, i have a plan. Part of why i take so long on these is because i really am just figuring it out as I do it lmao. there have been many a time where i am sitting on top of the ladder googling "how to paint birds" but I think if i take the time tomorro to do all that figuring out how to approach it beforehand, this will go a lot faster. I may also recruit some of my artist friends to help with the placing of the names... hrmm we'll see.

Anyways, shout out to the librarian who tracked down exactly the thing i needed so i could figure out where to place the highlights in my birds eyes, ur the real mvp

[nattousan]

thanks for the reminder, kid

[nattousan]

at long last, we've reached the end...

Bird number 14 out of 14,

The Great blue heron, Ardea herodius

thank you to everyone who reached out or got excited about this project, it genuinely gave me the fuel i needed to keep going. In total, the 480+ total hrs it took me to cover this wall pales in comparison to how long its expected to spend on there, hopefully imparting a sense of beauty and love for the natural world to the next generation and here's hoping i'm only getting started with these.

i'll see y'all soon :')

[trixclibrarian]

pure magic

[trixclibrarian]

yet... not all differences in reality fall into the uncanny valley. some of them are simply complicated truths

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Uncanny valley - Wikipedia

Uncanny valley - Wikipedia

[trixclibrarian]

tech

allows forces corners

us into

numbing

anxious

addiction to

the uncanny valley

that is escape

from reality

into its slightest

denial

one we are wired to

avoid

all connection to

yet cling dying to

instead

[trixclibrarian]

layers of intensely layered ideas

like the comfort of wallowing in devotion to the uncanny valley

describing a thing over and over while never naming it

[trixclibrarian]

more and specifics on this later but sometimes there is writing that is... so incredibly synced into layers of soundworthy poetry blended perfectly with metaphorical story and sustained in such a way that... it's paradoxically hard to believe it could possibly be intentional

as in -- that's so good it has to be an accident

the magic of fictional literature at its most...

flummoxing

[firstfullmoon]

writers and their cats: toni morrison / albert camus / patricia highsmith / ursula k. le guin / ernest hemingway / iris murdoch / tove jansson / joyce carol oates

[trixclibrarian]

happy caturday

[probuccalfat]

dead serious normalize having an average boring ass life where you have enough to meet your needs we do not need to be remarkable we just need to be alive

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the wait in reverse

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so... i was doing some hard daydreaming just now as i drove right past the entrance to my neighborhood. i turned around and upon my return spotted this owl. it definitely feels message-y to me {speculations & insights in this regard are welcome}

gonna have a lookupsee on owl symbolism & magic shortly

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mowed all the grass

visited with the {passing through} ex as they went by

did final cleaning of the now vacant chicken coop and secured all & any entryway {some spots with zip ties}

took the wind blower to the back porch & garage {in anticipation of truly doing the real thing garage clean next week}

ended with careful {anti-poison ivy} deep clean up & feeling satisfied

happy midweek murder anyway

[trixclibrarian]

[trixclibrarian]

constant

worry is not required

of me