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mcdicatedpixie:

Sleep deprivation was obvious in Anna’s unfocused gaze and the dark circles under her dull green eyes.  “I’ve been so paranoid, so fucking scared, I can’t sleep.” She sighs shakily. “I can’t figure out what’s real sometimes.” Her voice breaks, and her eyes well up with tears that she desperately tries to hold back. She reached for Maddie’s hand, her own tiny hand trembling, and interlocked their fingers as she takes it. Anna pulling herself out from the bed allows Maddie a closer look at her skeletal form. Collarbones, ribs and hips jutted, every bone in her delicate neck and and back were visible under almost translucently pale skin. “I just…. I just need you to hold me, will you please just hold me?” The shakiness of her voice indicated that sobs and panic were imminent.

Madeline listened to her as she was talking. She seemed so soft, yet so broken. Madeline knew the breaking point was coming, it would be a point where she would come out okay, or she wouldn’t come out of it at all. 

“I’ll hold you as long as you want Anna. I’m always here for you. No matter what.” Maddie replied to her and held her close in her arms. Feeling tears burn at her eyes, she knew that she might lose her best friend. “Why don’t we move downstairs? Peter is down there and we can watch some silly movies with him.” Standing up slowly. 

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cogitantiumfada:

@mcdicatedpixie [Text: Anna🐭]I’m coming [Text: Anna🐭] just give me a couple minutes [Text: Anna🐭] on my way..be safe

[Text: Mads] hurry [Text: Mads] doors unlocked

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Driving as fast as possible and trying not to get a speeding ticket because she wouldn’t hear the end of that from Arthur. Peter had been buckled up safely in the back seat in his booster seat, dozing a little because he had been having a nap before the texts had come.  Parking the car, probably not actually very straight in the street, but not caring either way. Grabbing Peter and his toy bag along with the child proof fence to block him from dangerous items. Madeline walked up the stairs leading to the door before setting Peter down and opening the door. Peter ran in and went to sit down in the living room as Maddie called up to Anna to say she was here.  Madeline made sure Peter had his toys and was fenced up away from the kitchen before going to check on Anna. Heading to her and Hamlet’s bedroom, with no trace of her being there. She peeked under the bed. “Anna...I’m here. You are safe, please come out.” She said, reaching her hand out to her to help her. 

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@cogitantiumfada liked for a starter [Text: Mads] i’m sick i’m so so so sick [Text: Mads] help [Text: Mads] i’m not safe 

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@mcdicatedpixie [Text: Anna🐭]I'm coming [Text: Anna🐭] just give me a couple minutes [Text: Anna🐭] on my way..be safe

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@cogitantiumfada liked for a starter!

❝ I think it’s broken. ❞ His foot tapped idly as he examined the buttons of the now unmoving elevator. He should have known that the little voice in the back of his head saying ‘take the stairs’ was for more reasons than his diet. Defeated, Wes sighed and leaned against the wall, posture slumping. ❝ Looks like we’re gonna be stuck here for a while. ❞

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❝Of course it broke. It’s not like I wasn’t trying to get somewhere.❞ Her crystal blue eyes rolled as she looked at the door. She should have known that her luck would make her more late than she had been before. It was just her luck that this happened. Sitting down on the cold floor, she looked at Wes. ❝How long do you think it will take them to fix this or for someone to come rescue us?❞ 

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“That. Fucken. Basic. Bitch.” The cat-like girl snarled, looking at the crack-whore red lipstick wearing child, who was rubbing against the lead singer of the band. Who just happened to be Arthur Kirkland of the band, Dèjá Vu Nights, of which was dating Madeline. 

“I’ve seen enough of these god damn thirteen year old girls rubbing and touching all over him, he is clearly uncomfortable.” The tapping of stiletto heels on the pavement as rushed footsteps moved that way.

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xgentlechaosx:

A smile came over his lips, amused and intrigued by her response. “I’ll keep it in mind.” She didn’t need to know he was quite the dancer himself, simply wishing to learn a few new tricks.

“I’ll follow your lead.”

Madeline nodded to him and smiled slightly. “I’m stretched out for practice, do you need to? So you don’t get hurt.” She said. She reached down to feel her toes, she knew her knees looked weird, but she didn’t mind it as much as other people did.

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bxrnthepieces:

“I’m sure it will be fine.” He assured her, not seeing how it could cause any harm, pet birds seemed fond of them so why wouldn’t wild ones be? “Be careful though… maybe ask someone else to help you? There isn’t much point risking your neck over a couple of birds Maddie.” Alex was only half-joking of course.

Madeline nodded to him. “Yeah, or I could throw them on the porch for them to have at it for now, I guess. But I guess if I get a chance to have someone help me hang them up I should, bet they would like that much better.” She said, actually curious if it made a difference to the birds. Madeline smiled and opened the window and threw the bell shaped item covered in seeds out to them.

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@cogitantiumfada   liked for a starter with Zadi Azai

“You’ve have some astounding moves… mind teaching me a few?”

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“Uh..No. I don’t mind. You just probably should be ready for every muscle in the world to hurt.”

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mcdicatedpixie:

The walk to Hyde park is brisk, Anna’s small hand still entangled in Madeline’s. She ignores the honks and catcalls from passing cars. When they reach the park, they make a beeline for the middle, eventually choosing a grassy spot to settle down on. Anna sprawls on her back, staring at the brilliantly lit night sky. The stars flicker in her hazy vision and she grins. “Sorry you’re all shook-up.”

Madeline held Anna’s hand the whole way, feeling the comfort of having her close on a night like this. She had never freaked out like this before and they had gone out enough times for it to now make sense that she did it now. 

Madeline laid on her back, looking to the stars. “Tis not your fault. I don’t even know if it’s mine this time.”

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bxrnthepieces:

“Good idea.” He mused softly, the weather was pretty temperate, but that didn’t mean that a chill didn’t set in during the night. Looking at the two wild birds sitting on the window-ledge, Alex couldn’t keep a small smile from his lips. “Perhaps you should start feeding them, maybe they’ll keep coming back?”

“I thought about that, but the only thing I can think of feeding them is those little bell shaped thing that is made up from seeds. Do you think that would be okay?” Madeline asked him. “I already bought a couple, it just putting them up might be fun. I don’t want to fall out my window.” She said. 

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open to females // poly-ish ship. (both males are straight)

so maybe they shouldn’t have went drinking until 3 am. because now, derek was half way through their girlfriends window, struggling to make it all the way through until he got a pull from one of his buddies, zander who was already in the room. the male made a big thump, glaring over at the other male once he got shushed. a few moments later, derek crawled into bed with the girl, wrapping an arm around her from behind. “wake up.” he drunkenly whispered. sure, they could’ve used the front door since both of them had keys, but this, was much more fun.

as derek got into bed with the girl, zander wandered over to one of the lamps and flicking it on, squinting his eyes as the sudden light hit. but a few seconds later, zander copied derek’s moves but laid down in front of her as he gently rubbed her cheek with his thumb. “c’mon, baby. we’re drunk and we need you.” he spoke softly after derek.

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Madeline had been sleeping pretty peacefully. She knew the boys would be drinking, and that hadn’t bothered her too much. She kind of just let them do what they wanted and enjoyed watch the events that happened after. She had slowly woken up from the thump that Derek made. She shifted a little, but stayed mostly asleep until she heard Zander. She woke up, blinking and yawned. “You need me?” She asked as she slowly looked at Zander and then turned to Derek. “How much do you need me?” She asked flirty. Her hand going to Derek’s chest and rubbing and her foot rubbing against Zander’s thigh.

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bxrnthepieces:

“I know.” Alex said with a slight smirk, “Though I doubt it would hurt you to say it more often.” Still smirking, he gave a slight roll of his eyes. “You know, Google is a lot faster than I am… right now the weather is fine, a little mild, but fine.” 

Madeline laughed and nodded at what he said. “Of course. I’ll try and get in the habit of saying it more.” She teased. “Blah blah Google. I’ll pack warm and some kind of chilly clothes then.” She said as she looked out the window really quick. There were a couple birds outside her window. “They keep coming back here, it’s weird.” She said and showed them to him.

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As Kevin drove down an empty road in the middle of nowhere, he noticed a car pulled over on the side of the road. He wanted to see if they needed any help, so he pulled over behind the car and got out. After walking up to the window, he recognized the girl in the car. They were neighbors and she had a crush on him. He looked at her and smiled, “Need any help?”

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Madeline wanted to bang her head on the steering wheel of the junk car she was driving. She sighed and leaned her head back to take a deep breath. She just needed to figure out what was wrong with it this time. She heard a voice, one she recognized as her crush. Her mind raced. “Um..Yes, if that would be okay with you.” She said, rubbing the back of her head.

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so you are interested in a brotp ship?

Yes. :3

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Hi :3 This is a reverse starter call. Hit the little grey heart if you want me to look at some of your opens. If you want to plot something, message me, I promise I don’t bite...hard.

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bxrnthepieces:

“You used it because you were mad? Don’t tell me any more, I think I’m better off not knowing.” Alex said, his mind leaping to too many conclusions for him to ponder over. Not that he wanted to think about it. 

“Good, I’ll start setting up the guest room for you.” He smiled, trying to remember which box had the spare bedding in it.

Madeline shrugged again. She really needed to control her anger in other ways then destroying things, but it was always the way she had done it, so she kind of felt attached to it. 

“You are the best Alex.” Madeline said to him and smiled. “You’ll have to let me know what the weather will be like so I can pack the right stuff, and don’t even say I can look at the weather, because I honestly would rather ask you.”

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bxrnthepieces:

“Well be careful, I’m sure you know this already… but remember its not a toy.” The man said, the distaste obvious in his voice. Alex had no time or patience for weapons of any sort, as far as he was concerned the only use they had in ordinary day-to-day lives were behind sheets of glass in a museum display case (and were preferably several centuries old). 

Nodding, Alex smiled brightly at the camera, “Of course, there are two airports but I can pick you up from either.”

“Yeah I know they aren’t. It’s why it is usually kept in a lock box. I just keep it around so he won’t buy me another one. I don’t so much like guns, but I was just mad the time I did use it. I don’t even have bullets in it usually.” Madeline said. It really was the only gun she had. She didn’t mind weapons in self-defense, but anything more and she was against them. 

“I’ll right. That is good to know. I can’t wait to come now. Gave me something to look forward to at least.