COLE.

Peace.Love.Unity.Respect #fuckcancer

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Do you ever just want to disappear

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I wonder what life would of been like if I kept you... would I have done a good job ? Would you of loved me the way I would loved you ? Would I be happier ?

Every day I think of you and what would of been.

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2 of the hardest decisions I've ever made in life.

To sign off on my mother's DNR.

And the push the button in the crematorium.

Both impacted my mothers life and our family as a whole.

I hope she respects my decisions and knows how difficult they were.

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All I want is to physically see my family for Easter and thats not even possible. Fucking stupid.

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Day 26

Fuuuuuuuuuck you covid.

That is all

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When you've been together for a while but still flirt like you first met ❤

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Happy birthday me...

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😔😔😔

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This next week is going to be tough...

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I'm finally happy

I no longer worry about what my man is doing behind my back. I dont worry about where he is or what (or who) hes doing. I know I'm always going to wake up the an "I love you".

I dont have to worry about him raising his hand to me whenever he gets mad. I dont have to worry about him calling me names whenever he is upset or doesnt like something I do. I dont have to worry about him threatening my life or making me feel worthless.

I'm finally loved & I've never felt happier.

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When he shows you what it's like to be loved. Pay attention.

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I cant bounce back from this one

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I hate being this angry....

I wish I could get rid of this feeling

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Great start to 2020.

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Can I just have my mom back ?

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😭😭 fuck this feeling

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I dont give this man enough credit for all the unconditional love he gives me. The patience he has with me and my inability to trust is outstanding. Nothing in the world compares to how he makes me feel about myself. Day in and day out he makes me feel like I'm the most beautiful person on planet earth even when I'm sleeping and drooling.

Hes dealing with a girl he didnt abuse. Hes dealing with a girl whose never been loved properly and never felt like they were enough.

Every day he makes me feel like exactly everything he wanted in life. He makes me feel on top of the world.

And best of all. He makes me feel safe.