Cliff Notes of My life

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Maria Eugenia Calderara, from Poems of Exile; “I Still Don't Know Your Name,”

[thepersonalquotes]

[dagangarincel]

Be unwanted can destroy you

[committed-to-coffee]

I feel like curling up in the corner of a room and crying till I can no longer feel.

The oddest part is that I do not know why....

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Nina LaCour via letsbelonelytogetherr

[committed-to-coffee]

It has been years,

Yet tonight I think of you.

It has been a month since I have spoken to you,

Yet tonight I think of you.

I wonder the what ifs and the possibilities.

A failed reality.

I think of you.

I write of you.

The only one I have ever loved.

[committed-to-coffee]

You know some days I ache to write to you.

I wonder when it became the craziest thing in the world to write something to you.

I wish it was easy.

Like it was to love you.

[descentintoentropy]

[committed-to-coffee]

Drink your water,

Sleep for hours,

Spend your time with family,

Read every kind of story.

Don't waste your time on people who don't deserve it.

Don't waste precious thoughts on people who didn't earn it.

[committed-to-coffee]

Were you aware, my love?

That you are still part of every story I tell others.

That you are still the one I miss the most in my happiest and saddest moments.

Were you aware, my love?

That you are still the only who made me feel like home.

That you are the only one I felt could be my future.

Were you aware, my love?

That you are still on my mind.

That you are still the best person in my mind.

[committed-to-coffee]

I doubt myself more than I should,

I know my worth,

I know my strengths,

Yet, when push comes to shove I cower behind excuses like a scared kitten in rain.

[committed-to-coffee]

Sometimes .....

I miss you,

I miss us,

I miss the promises and the dances,

I miss the love and the trust.

I wish something else felt like home like you did.

I wish I could forget us.

But I don't regret us.

[committed-to-coffee]

Oh how I wish life was as easy as it appears on social media.

[love-ignitesinmyveins]

[whendidmythoughtsgocrazy]

And if I'm meant to be alone, please take away my desire to be loved.

k.b. // unknown

[melanch-oholic]

!!!!!

[committed-to-coffee]

Is it so bad to see the good in people?

[committed-to-coffee]

I feel afraid and hurt, I feel like the air is stuck in my lungs, unable to find release, unable to be set free.

Catch me, see me, just save me.

[committed-to-coffee]

2.22 am

I can't catch sleep

I am cold

I am hot

I am drained and hungry.

Why can't I sleep.

2.23 am

Still no sleep.