maze

writer | litt student | songs

[letsbeapoemtogether]

“If it stays, it is love. If it ends, It’s a love story. If it never begins, it is poetry.”

Unknown

[complicatedchaos]

I read somewhere yesterday

love is where our scars align

we can’t ever align time

yet love and time go hand in hand

while here we are

letting go of people

cause we can’t figure out

how something that goes hand in hand

makes us let go of the hand we love

[complicatedchaos]

used to be a girl out of relationships

never been in one and never felt it too

cause I had that one validation

oh darling you're one to love, more than date

but then in they swirled

capturing my mind and my heart

eyes sparkling for every time they talked

coffee captured by sunlight

girlfriend material I was called

to be loved and dated was what they said

they looked at me and the relief

I've never seen such an emotion before

not for me not anywhere

but then came the fear too

I saw the walls and the moats

I craved the smile behind the cage

silent looks of worry and affection

smiles, dimples and hugs

there was professed words and feelings

and that was what differed

and I’m here looking at them all

back to my square one

wishing I never dated

cause anyway, I've always loved

cause it's not black and white

I can feel the red and the orange

pink just consumes me

along with the midnight blues

what's a future to feelings anyway?

it's always baby steps and the little things

but god the hope and expectation

it crashes the heart and everything within

and I wish maybe but maybe

that I could have just stayed as one to be loved

for then I wouldn't have looked up

and I’d not have drowned

but then what's there to rise without to fall?

what's there to life without ever loving

to keep my heart and hope for it all

god, I can’t find it in me to regret

and I keep loving them

it never really goes out

and I’m back to the girl who's loved

but I’m also the girl who loves

- Maze

[sourdough-seal]

“how did you get into writing” girl nobody gets into writing. writing shows up one day at your door and gets into you

[letsbeapoemtogether]

[letsbeapoemtogether]

[simpingsapphic]

everyone likes to romanticize long distance relationships but what they don’t talk about is the frustration at loving her but being unable to hold her and the sadness that sometimes overtakes you when you’re missing her a little extra in the middle of the day

[lynne-monstr]

I love how canon is exactly like fanfic in the sense that every time alec sees magnus his brain becomes one long stream of beautiful beautiful he’s so beautiful

[complicatedchaos]

malec my heart-

[letsbeapoemtogether]

You listen and you know, you could live a better life than you do, be softer, kinder annd maybe this year you will be able to do it.

Mary Oliver

[complicatedchaos]

here's to 2024

[perfectquote]

“I do not know who I am, where I am going - and I am the one who has to decide the answers to these hideous questions.”

— Sylvia Plath

[relativefic]

Love as devotion

Julien Baker red door // Leah Horlick for your own good // nosugarallspicenothingnice on pinterest // Phoebe Bridgers waiting room // Sean Glatch caffeine, pt.1 // Otto Künzli ring for two people // Hozier francesca // Michael Cunningham the hours // Richard Siken “the torn-up road,” crush // boygenius we’re in love.

[fulltimebookaholic]

so i just saw your malec quote post and I was wondering if you could bless us with more of your favorites??

oh gosh I have so many and I probably forgot half of them

“He [Magnus] had been through a hundred heartbreaks, but he found himself afraid when he thought of Alexander Lightwood breaking his heart. He did not know how this boy with the messy black hair and the worried blue eyes, with his steady hands and rare sweet smile that was less rare in Magnus’s presence, had acquired such power over him.” --“What To Buy the Shadowhunter Who Has Everything” from The Bane Chronicles

“‘So I’m your first ever Shadowhunter, huh?’ Alec said when they separated at last. ‘You’re my first so many things, Alec Lightwood,’ Magnus said.” -- City of Heavenly Fire

And this one from before Alec and Magnus had even met, when Maryse and Robert were still in the Circle:

“‘I am fighting for a better world for myself and my son,’ said the woman called Maryse. ‘I have no interest in the world you want,’ Magnus told her. ‘Or in your doubtless repellent brat, I might add.’ --“The Last Stand of the New York Institute” from The Bane Chronicles

like the irony, lol... in like two decades you won’t think of him as repellant, magnus

“‘Hold on to me,’ Alec said, and Magnus gave him the sort of smile that made Alec feel like someone had taken an apple corer to his heart and tried to dig out the center. ‘I always do, Alexander,’ he said. ‘I always do.’”  -- City of Heavenly Fire

“Speaking of hope, did you see the shot Alec got off with his bow? That’s my boyfriend.” -- Magnus Bane, City of Lost Souls

“Magnus raised his head and looked up and over at Alec; it was a look that made Clary flush and glance away. There was so much love in it, mixed with exasperation and pride and despair. It was an unguarded look, and it felt wrong to see it.” -- City of Heavenly Fire

“‘All I did was think about being worthy of coming home to you,’ said Alec. ‘It was nothing much.’ There was silence. Alec turned, a little concerned, to find Magnus staring at him. That surprised look was on his face again, and there was a softness along with it that was rare for Magnus. ‘What?’ said Alec. ‘Nothing, you stealth romance attacker,’ Magnus said. ‘How do you always know what to say?’” -- “The Land I Lost” from Ghosts of the Shadow Market

In case people are wondering why there are none from the dark artifices, I swear I can’t remember a single detail of that series lol. Also this really makes me want to make a compilation of magnus bane quotes bc anything he says is absolutely golden

anyway, consider yourself blessed, anon (or anyone who reads this)! feel free to add your own favorites :)

[perfectfeelings]

“Six shots later and I’m still staring at my hands trying to remember how it felt to hold you.”

— Unknown

[havingapoemwithyou]

resolution #1,003 by June Jordan

[complicatedchaos]

2024 fr-

[baneedom]

As painful as those memories may be, they are a part of who we are.

[izzymalec]

#found his prince charming

[complicatedchaos]

alexander gideon lightwood being the pinnacle of validation I can’t-

[foldingfittedsheets]

Part One! Part Two!

Two witches are forced to cohabitate in order to raise the baby promised to both of them.

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