ꉓꂦꈤꍟ ꁅꂦꋰ꒒ꂑꁹ

‼️🦇Real life vampire goblin 🦇‼️ She/its 💥 I put my thoughts here 💥

[conegoblin]

Welcome wizards, vvitches and vvampires

20 Transfem Goththing

She/it (like shit)

#1 goal of 2026, play more music, collect more tapes.

crisis databass

Wrrrnings - graphic language

Content warning for SH, ED, SA

And other

General debauchery

If you’re sensitive or triggered easily, Don’t come to my blog and get upset with what you shouldn’t be interacting with.

Main Hashtag guide:

#bit of a rant #venting #pages #misadventures #bong stories

-Pages: my journal and art

All can be found attached to this post plus more.

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A bit about me <333

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Hey hey hey!! I’m CG. Im 20 and still a mess.

Transfem, metalhead, goth, punk thing, whatever you fucking want to call it.

I play live music and I live for bass! Grandma core and M.lewandoski influenced aesthetics?

Graphics, SFX, illustration

No wimps • no egg whites • Mosh till your dead •

Yours truly

Get fucked <3

Credit to @miseryundo 4 profile blinkies and banners at the top!!

[coyoteguuurl]

reminder that diy hrt is not only objectively safe, but in a deeply transphobic world, is imperative to the safety and longevity of trans people.

[coyoteguuurl]

Second time I've heard about diy being safer, so, in what way (s) is non-diy dangerous?

a few things:

pedantic, but the claim wasnt that diy is safe, wasnt that it is "safer", but in many ways it is.

doctors are often (read: almost always) uneducated on transgender health. from Continuing Gaps in Transgender Medicine Education Among Health Care Providers "few of [the endocrinologists] (11%) rated themselves as very compotent in transgender care. Consistent with their self report, only 5% correctly answered knowledge questions. Further, only 36% reported training in transgender care during endocrinology fellowship."

because of this, trans women are often prescribed doses of estrogen so low as to have very little feminizing effect. for example, the common dosing of 2mg daily estradiol tablets with 50mg daily spironolactone is generally not enough estrogen to dominate a woman's endocrine system, but is enough to strongly weaken her testosterone, which is likely to cause harm (your body needs a dominant hormone, it doesn't care if it's estrogen or testosterone, but not having either is directly dangerous). these doses also fail to meaningfully decrease risk of depression and its symptoms (self harm, suicide, etc).

in a deeply transphobic world, where trans rights are constantly under massive threat, anything which can give care to trans women is imperative to their safety.

[conegoblin]

When i started HRT, It was more to align with my neutral gender at time, i was put on double that standard mention in point 3.

After talking with my doctor about how i felt going further into transition and to fully transition into a woman i ditched hydrocloride pills all together and got an implant of about 8x that dose, i still take 100 mg of spiro.

But it is imperitive you have a doctor that understands your goals in transition and how to get there

[conegoblin]

Please can i put on some weight.

Please please please.

does anyone have tips for eating more food?

Im starving and have 0 motivation to eat, almost a compulsion to avoid it entirely, i live off of colligen broth (85 cal daily)

Most of which is protein

[going2hell4everythingbutbeingbi]

I just need a beautiful woman to tell me that my bizarre imitation of human social skills is alluring and sexy

[joeyandy]

Pride Month.

Save our children; Those of the village are perishing. It takes a village to raise us And we are children despite ourselves.

It only takes one hurt though. Happy Pride, Herbie, and you all. There are those that hate you, But by God, you are loved.

From Ovidio to Rob: "Loved! Loved! Loved!" That's all you need to hear, Not that venom. I love you.

This month is all about love. Love each other so that we Don't make that horrible choice. Thank you Martha-

Your love is beautiful, all in the Legacy of Patroclus, Sappho and all. Happy Pride. Spread Love.

Context It's the first of June which is. known in the west as Pride Month. There is so much work to do to end inequality worldwide, but as a westerner I'm so lucky to live in 2026 as a bisexual teenage boy. This world has been deconstructed and made again more beautiful by the work of activists like Marsha P Johnson who sacrificed so much and worked and fought so hard to give us this world. I acknowledged Sappho and Patroclus as a love letter to queer history. There are so many intersex, ace, trans etc historical figures to appreciate and while I didn't include them they are so important and valid and I don't want to erase their narrative. I also wanted to dedicate it to the victims of homophobia so we never forget what we're fighting for. I chose Ovidio "Herbie" Ramos and Robert Hillsborough but there are so many more. Happy Pride!

[conegoblin]

I am free from this curse, intrusive thoughts and evil intent from others, I am free, I am breaking free and I am saved from this. I am saved from this vision and those words and your actions.

I am in divine light, I surrender to love, harmony and I am surrounded by such with peace of mind. I do not to associate with your evil.

I disactivate you, I dispel you. If you cast dark energy I cut your assignment, be done.

[conegoblin]

Needing this again. Happy pride!! Fuck fuckers who dont love u for u.

[estro-boi]

we gotta get back to torrent distribution, i just watched someone eat eight grand in bandwidth charges because they ran a direct-download piracy site with local file hosting through cloudflare. torrents were invented literally for this exact reason

[estro-boi]

torrents work like this

i have a file or folder on my pc that i want to share with other people. let's call it gayshit.mp3

unfortunately gayshit.mp3 is 750mb and im not paying for discord nitro so i need another way to send it

i put it into qbittorrent and it makes a torrent file. this is essentially a very small file that points to gayshit.mp3 so other computers can find it. kinda like a treasure map

i send this tiny file to my friend, who loads it into qbittorrent. their computer takes a moment to find mine over the vast expanse of cyberspace and then (as long as my pc is running and the file is still where it should be), it gets copied from my hard drive to theirs

this is the cool part: if somebody else loads that tiny file, they can download it from both of us. if i'm offline but my friend is on, the third person can still get it. this also means that if two people have separate halves of the file, they can download the other half from each other. as long as some combination of people have the pieces between them, they can all have the whole thing.

crucially this does not require a server!!! you can just upload the file to a few people and as long as they keep it, it's still accessible. as long as somebody, somewhere is still connected, it's available forever. the only way it goes away is if everybody disconnects from it.

please learn to torrent

[macleod]

How to Use Torrents (with Pictures) - wikiHow

An expert guide to get started using torrentsTorrents are one of the most popular forms of file sharing on the internet, accounting for over

always use qbittorrent, do not use bitorrent or utorrent.

[conegoblin]

I love qbit!!! Its how i could get my vst programs and drum moduels!!! Sharing Whole WAV and Uncompressed, layered graphics files. Best shit ever!!

[conegoblin]

Ahhhh to just be held, hands on my waist, or wrapped around my belly, intemacy and warmth

I crave it sooo badddddd AAAAA FUXK MY BIG FAT GAY LIFE. Why do i have to be alone and so painfully queer.

At this rate i will end up being the lesbian aunt with three cats and a dog, still single and living in a crazy art shed that more closely resembles a crack house if it were from the 1800s

[miseryundo]

[conegoblin]

My stars!! My world is a fragile stage for what observer

Some might say- you, or my own tourment

But then you'd be selfish if not to think.

Did it stop at that point, or was it before that.

It was before you.

[conegoblin]

What if i tolf you a great thing to do evwry now and then, is to light some candles, put on a cassette, and turn off alllll the lights before taking

500ug of acid and a really great warm shpwer

[conegoblin]

I miss you so much. I miss you and i love you still. I cant see u i cant meet up with u i thinkni will break, i need to talk with my therapist first. Who i cant easly see now my cars fuckd

Theres alot of stress thats yet to build up

I think i just quit my job

I csnt drive anymore and i dont want to catch the bus qt 630 every day to go to work.

I could complain aboit any number of thjbgs but ive jyst let it get to me and now im bedlocked, i cwant to die.

[conegoblin]

I cant let you control how i feel, this is me not freaking out, im not posting cuz like its somethinf im more iternalising on the fly ober needing sometging to put things into context and a pixture for mysslf.

but i am shaking. Im just breathing, i cant wait for my day of, i habe styff i NEED to get done.

My heart is trembling, im looking for solutions but i just feel like i hit wall after wall after wall

[conegoblin]

What if there actually is magic tying us together

[conegoblin]

Public enemy no.1

!!!

Me!!!

Me

!!!

Me!!

i love public enemy and j am so much so.

[conegoblin]

Buying groceries in australia for me is like the most anxiety inducing thing ever.

Its shit food, that makes you fat

Thats more expensive every month, and a diffrent price in every location. They dont always have the stock you want and the staff are lovely, which gives u no chance to explain this to them becauze they beleve they are the store and they cant fix it and their doing everything they can.

Shut up. You work for a dueopoly.

This store dosent care about you or me.

When its probably some dispacher in a room making 100 decisions for lots of difftent stores that really just move things forward to give the illusion of a running workspace.

I just hate feeling like i dont even want to pay for whatever slop you have to go and pickup from the rows and rows of packaged sludge, bacteria and grain.

[conegoblin]

I feel like ive been waiting for you to say someyhing this whole time.

Every night i feel like i should check and see. Just in csse.. in case you did actually, say something.

I dont need that now.

I dont need it.

Let me give what it takes

To get on through!!

I need to not think of any of you.