12/23
Did not sleep last night... I either dreamt of you or my heart ached while I was awake.. I do not want to see you in my dreams but this is what happens when my heart is in agony. It’ll get better, the thought of him will slowly not be so aching but it will hurt for a little while. Breathe. You’re not the only person that has endured this type of pain. Be thankful for the clarity, be thankful for realizing your worth. You’re in pain because you’re losing him, the memories, and the future that you both imagined with each other and that’s okay. Your feelings are valid and you are allowed to cope with whatever way you want to. Someone else will give you what he never could and it’ll be all worth it. It’s normal to feel pain with loss. Who knows how long it’s going to take but you will feel better eventually. You did this once when you were clinically depressed and could barely wake up in the morning for years on years, but you kept moving, you kept fighting to live. This loss of your person and relationship does not even amount to when you were depressed and couldn’t even see the end of the day. You’ll be okay. You will be okay. Be kind to yourself and try not to make your chest ache so much. One day you will stop writing these posts and look back and be proud of yourself.
