Ad astra per aspera.

Indie Resident Evil OC | Non-selective | OC, AU, and crossover friendly | Multiship and multiverse | High activity | Saved by Cherry | formerly written @constellationcursed-a | Icon credit to @moonlitvintage | pinned graphics and header credit to @sworn-in-blood |

[constellationcursed]

Welcome!

Hello, everyone! You can call me Cherry or Natalie (she/they, 20+, CST), and this is my rp blog for my OC, Cassiopeia Clay! You can find my blog directory here. If you don’t know why I followed you, I might’ve been following you so we can interact on my sideblog multi fandom multimuse @coffinshared!

PEOPLE TURN ON YOU JUST LIKE THE WIND. EVERYBODY IS A FAIR WEATHER FRIEND. IN THE END, YOU’RE BETTER OFF ALONE — ANY WAY THE WIND BLOWS.

A study on: living constellation | asking questions | action girl | making wishes | scrounging up bravery | keeping your eyes to the sky | rising from the dead | a ticket to the underworld | your story being told over and over again | canary in a coal mine | songbird and rattlesnake all wrapped into one | haunting the narrative | Lady Lazarus | Ophelia | came back wrong |

[constellationcursed]

((This blog is on semi hiatus rn btw! All my muse is over on my side blog @coffinshared. Hoping to write here again soon in the near future though!))

[apoemaday]

Anxiety I

by Tove Ditlevsen tr. Cynthia Graae and Michael Goldman

Anxiety is old it reeks of childhood it has no object is awakened by glances, words and sudden noise lives in recurring dreams where the one you love shows the deadly hatred he hides by day.

People’s eyes are yellow they are too close together and they have no lashes over them their menacing eyebrows run endlessly together the corners of their mouths dislocate and twist, watercolor-wet do not look at them slip away from any dangerous and keen attention.

Wrap yourself in rhythms and rhymes from the old bygone songs hide with the troll and the dragon the pure evil shy away from all affection even from the child who plays with and caresses the cat shy away from his expectation his memories his blocked future.

Seek the company of those who peacefully turned away want nothing from you libraries waiting rooms railway stations people with suitcases in hand have firm contours unknown goals in a world that is not yours.

All the others are transformed under your stare as if under windswept waves they know that you see their secrets and innermost thoughts hate your lurking and waiting you do not know the day of the catastrophe approaching by the hour.

Anxiety is old your father and your mother are safety and danger staring through your lover’s eyes and are not dead. Do not watch them. Lay flowers on the grave light candles at night fold your hands and hum in devotional horror the old forgotten songs.

[nixscriptum]

[mythshire]

⋆ · 𖤓 · ⋆ 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐒𝐓 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄 𝐈 𝐒𝐀𝐈𝐃 𝐈𝐓 𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐃 ··· a collection of first loves and found family, the quiet courage of being seen, learning to take up space in a world that asked you to make yourself small. genre: romance, hurt and comfort, self discovery, queer joy.

I've been practicing saying it in the mirror for three weeks. It still doesn't sound real.

You're the first person I've told. I need you to understand what that means.

Don't make it a big deal. Also — it's the biggest deal of my life.

I knew when I was seven. I just didn't have the word for it yet.

You looked at her the same way I look at her. I think that's when I knew I wasn't alone.

Say it with me. You don't have to say it to anyone else. Just say it with me first.

My family doesn't know. I need tonight to just be about us knowing.

I came out twice today. Once on accident.

You held my hand in public and I forgot how to breathe for a second.

I spent so long pretending. I don't really know who I am without the pretending yet.

This is the first pride I've been to as myself. Bear with me if I cry a little.

I kept waiting to feel different after I said it. I just felt relieved.

Nobody gets to tell you what your identity means. Not even me.

You're allowed to still be figuring it out. The label can wait. The feeling doesn't have to.

I'm not asking you to announce anything. I'm asking you to stop hiding from me.

You looked so free today. I don't think I've ever seen you look that free.

Love is not a phase. I need you to say that back to me like you mean it.

I've loved you in every version of myself. That has to count for something.

My mother cried. I don't know yet if they were good tears or bad ones.

You didn't flinch. When I told you, you didn't flinch. Do you know what that meant to me?

I used to pray to be different. Now I think I was praying wrong.

Hold my hand. Not for anyone else. Just because I want you to.

I found the community before I found the word. That's how I knew I was home.

You are not too much. You have never been too much.

I spent years shrinking myself into something easier to love. I'm done doing that.

She smiled at me and I forgot every lie I ever told myself.

The world is loud today. Can we just be quiet together for a minute.

I'm not brave. I'm just tired of being afraid.

You loved me before I knew how to love myself. I don't know how to thank you for that.

Stop apologizing for existing so loudly. That's the whole point.

I kept the letter for two years before I sent it. I'm glad I finally sent it.

You're the first person who ever made me feel like this was something to celebrate.

I don't need anyone's permission. I just needed my own.

I'm not confused. I have never been less confused in my life.

You came. After everything, you came. That's all I needed to know.

There are so many of us. I keep forgetting how many of us there are until days like today.

I wrote it down before I could say it. Here. Read it. Take your time.

You make being this feel like the most natural thing in the world.

I hid it for so long it became a habit. Breaking habits is hard. You make it easier.

We don't have to call it anything. We just have to be honest.

I used to think the love I wanted was too much to ask for. Then I met you.

My chosen family showed up today. My blood family didn't. I know which one counts.

You kissed me in front of everyone and I think my whole life changed in that second.

I have never felt more like myself than I do standing here with you.

Loving you is the easiest thing I've ever done. Everything else was the hard part.

You told me it gets better and I didn't believe you. I'm starting to believe you.

I don't want to be tolerated. I want to be celebrated. Is that too much to ask.

We made it. Look around. We actually made it here, together, and we're okay.

[junimorpmemes]

lgbtqa+ headcanon meme

Because for some reason I haven’t found many of these floating around!

1. What gender identity does your muse identify as?

2. What sexuality does your muse identify as?

3. What is your muse’s romantic orientation?

4. Is your muse out or no? Do they intend to come out?

5. How did people generally react to your muse coming out?

6. Is your muse full of pride? (meaning, do they wear pride pins or shirts, proudly express themselves? Or nah?)

7. If your muse isn’t canonically lgbtqa+, what made you decide to change this? Alternatively for ocs, why’d you decide to create them this way?

8. Has your muse experienced discrimination for their orientations?

9. Has has your muse’s identity evolved to what it is now?

10. Do they dress more feminine, masculine, or androgynous?

11. If under the trans umbrella, have they transitioned at all? Do they plan to?

12. Who was your muse’s first crush?

13. How did they come to realize their identity? Was it early on in life or later on?

14. Has your muse ever secretly dated someone because they were afraid of what other people might think?

15. Has your muse ever dated someone they weren’t attracted to just to get people to be less “suspicious”?

16. Have they ever been to a pride parade/festival? Did they enjoy it?

17. Were there any people or characters when your muse was young that seemed to influence their identity?

18. How did they react to discovering their own identity?

19. Was there an “aha!” moment, or was it a more gradual discovery? Did anyone help them discover their identity?

20. Does your muse fall any of the “stereotypes”?

[kittyhelpsstuff]

Send 🏳️‍🌈 + A muse to get a headcanon about a facet of their queer identity

Could be their orientation, gander identity, how involved they are in their community, if they're poly, or a lot of other things

[constellationcursed]

((Happy pride! Cass (though solely committed to @sworn-in-blood’s Matías) is bisexual, biromantic, demisexual, and demiromantic. And I, her mun, am a queer demiwoman! If any of yall wanna write pride stuff with her, hmu.))

[memesomething]

the way some muses have to get used to being loved. the way some muses haven’t really had the experience before, properly, and they might even know that they deserve it, but it just hasn’t come up, they’ve been busy, they have had to do this on their own for so long and they got to be really, really good at it. the way some muses have to get used, to being loved.

[hungryfictions]

Rebecca Makkai, I Have Some Questions for You

[perriaeyjeve]

[portraitoftheoddity]

The problem with having OCs is that sometimes you wanna read about your little guy being in situations but unfortunately he is YOUR little guy and no one is gonna put him in that situation but you. Tragic.

[rpm3mes]

Want to destroy and break my muse?

Then tell them the one thing you think that will break them. Hurt them. Open those scars up once again.

[constellationcursed]

((Cass’ favorite album is When The Pawn… by Fiona Apple. She listens to it OBSESSIVELY when it comes out, the year after she dies, and she relates to it so heavily. Her original CD of it is intensely scratched up, and she’ll listen to it when she wants to have a good cry in the car. “Fast As You Can” and “Paper Bag” are her favorite songs off of it.))

[constellationcursed]

((Cassiopeia “love makes you insane and miserable and ruins your life.” Clay and Matías “love is the most beautiful thing out there!” Allen.))

[fantasyrps-a]

send me " hc + a word ", and i’ll write a headcanon about it regarding my muse.

[littlespringsongbird]

Jordan Tyson’s Eurydice costume Hadestown on Broadway