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SHOUTOUT TO THE BALLET DANCERS WHO AREN’T SUPER SKINNY

SHOUTOUT TO THE BALLET DANCERS WHO AREN’T WHITE

SHOUTOUT TO THE BALLET DANCERS WHO HAVEN’T BEEN DANCING SINCE THEY WERE FOUR

SHOUTOUT TO THE BALLET DANCERS WHO STRUGGLE WITH BODY IMAGE

SHOUTOUT TO THE BALLET DANCERS WHO DEFY THE NORM, WORK HARD, AND LOVE TO DANCE

BECAUSE YOU DESERVE TO DANCE JUST AS MUCH AS ANYONE ELSE

...time is a funny thing...

I know that it's been ages since my last post...sometimes you just need to take a breather to revaluate yourself and right now it feels like I have done that.. Now is the time to reclaim myself and shape me back into the person I want to be - healthy, prosporous, cultured and loved. Sometimes all you need is a little perspective!!

Not a bad view from the balcony....#thassos #wynks #pool #beach #sunshine ☀️☀️☀️

#wynks #thassos #sunshine #beach #pool

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"in the end, will you float or will you sink?"

today has been a bit of a roller coaster ride...this morning, i was all go; determined, confident, feeling happy. But then an unscheduled trip to get my blood pressure taken resulted in a negative, snappy mood where i could cry at a moments notice...

im not normally one to take teasing well at the best of times, but have that word thrown at you, like a bullet springing from a gun straight towards you completely knocked me for six.

FAT

I know that it probably doesn't mean a lot to a lot of people, and that it is thrown around like any other word, but to me it hits a nerve. I look back at photos of me from 10 years ago when i thought that i was overweight, and realise that it is something that has been engrained into my head time and time again.

maybe it was the industry i wanted to be in so much that it has eventually scarred me. maybe it is the campaign for 'skinniness' that surrounds us day to day. who knows? all i know now is that i need to make a decision - do i let this horrible woman who thought it was ok to tell me that i was too fat to have a long and prosperous life drag me further down, or do i do something in order to make myself happier.

I am not blind - i know that i am not the skinniest girl but i love my curves. running is making me really happy at the moment - giving me that time to process my thoughts and have some alone time.

i just need to find the strength to let it go...

יום העצמאות!! Yom Ha'atzmaut 2014 #israel #independence can't wait to be back there!!

#israel #independence

Bank holiday selfie #goodtimes #evenbetterfriends

#evenbetterfriends #goodtimes

יום הזיכרון

Tired puppy after a long walk round the park #sleepy #lazy #cockertzu #park #puppy

#park #lazy #puppy #sleepy #cockertzu

...tomorrow holds such better days...

Yesterday I was asked that thought provoking, yet utterly frustrating question - where do you see your life heading? For the first time in a while, I felt like I had some form of answer and as I talked, and pondered over my looming future, I felt a sense of warmth and happiness come over me. It was as if what I was saying was right, that someone somewhere was agreeing with me, saying that I was going to be ok and I was going to get my happy ending. Recently, I have seriously thought about getting away on my own. 2014 hasn't had the best of starts for our family and we know that getting on a place in less than 4 weeks will be our new years eve all over again - our chance to make the best of the rest of this year and the future ahead of us. To do it all as a family who have been brought even closer than before. But I also know that I need my space and time on my own to take in and evaluate where I am. Would I be classed as a loner for wanting to spend some time in the sun alone? Would I hate it? Would I just want to come home? Who knows....but what I do know is that if I never try these things then I will never know... For the rest of 2014, I want... To increase my business further To enrich my life with positive people and experiences To ensure that my health stays on an even keel To spend the time on my own that I need and deserve I know it all seems very me me me me me, but sometimes you need to put yourself first in order to reach your goals...I just need to believe that I can do them... So where do I see myself heading? Who knows, all I know is that is will be one amazing journey!!