solipsistic siren song

19, transfem. she/it nsfw sometimes

[tauxel]

[star-angel-selkie]

help again

hiii our internet bill is also due and my gf who usually covers that lost her job recently. we need 120 for that. we both need internet access to do commissions and fundraise, this is very important.

$0/120

[kuuderecatgirl]

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disabled tranfem, could use help with upcoming power bill

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i want to nap because i slept for three hours less than usual but my body does not like to nap

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[lesbianbloodritual]

trans woman needs help with bills and medication

hi all, sorry to do this again. i ran into some unforeseen expenses signing up with my HRT provider and now i'm behind on bills with my roommates, and i also need an extra 80 euro to get my vyvanse refilled for the month. i would really appreciate any help you could give. thanks

0/263

p@ypl

[lesbianbloodritual]

49/263

[calamity-corner]

please help us pay rent/bills!

hello again friends, loved ones, and beloved mutuals. i hate to be making a post like this again so soon, but bottom surgery was extraordinarily expensive, and the time i had to take off work for surgery was not paid which has made bouncing back financially quite difficult while i wait for insurance to reimburse travel and lodging.

as such, myself and my live-in partner @delicate-viscera are coming up considerably short on the bills this month. we could really use some help making ends meet with rent, utilities, and groceries, as well as catching up on the money owed for the cat sitters who helped take care of our beautiful furballs while we were away from home.

i've never raised near this much money through tumblr before, and honestly i don't expect to, we're scrambling to find help through every avenue available. but anything you can do truly means the world!! even if it's only a couple bucks, even if it's just sending it to someone who you know is in a better position to help, or just sharing it on your blog for reach. we are two dykes in desperate need, recovering from surgery and sickness respectively, please help us make ends meet!!

i love you all very much <3

v: @ coldbrewcash

p: @ kohineko

c: $ c0ldbrewcash

$ 1,300 / 2,900

[calamity-corner]

jesus, i forgot to add the links like a fool. please reblog this version tysm ily

[tauxel]

it's mildly funny that i have a high enough dissociative and dxm in particular tolerance that pcp would likely be comforting instead of mind-rending

[tauxel]

one reason i stay unmedicated even in the face of evidence that it can make me subjectively happier is that i believe the fear i have will become useful when i learn to properly integrate it instead of it lurking like a spectre over me that must be banished

[tauxel]

true curse of neuroticism is always having a great outpouring of things to say that are always reflexive instead of anything more broadly applicable

[tauxel]

not to say all of this isn't 'productive', i wouldn't be doing it if it wasn't, but i could be honing literally any other skill

[tauxel]

true curse of neuroticism is always having a great outpouring of things to say that are always reflexive instead of anything more broadly applicable

[tauxel]

not sleeping is a very annoying response to stress

[tauxel]

every four years or so an alter forms out of the universal desire for a new personality or outlook and it wields all this desire as immense influence and drive likened to slow-burning mania, but without all the brazenness of true mania it still gets limited by the body's preexisting biases and disposition and must filter itself through them until they give way in a manner that is both exhilarating and incredibly frustrating

[tauxel]

i feel like i could easily write many pages on my psychological dynamics regarding nicotine with more interesting things to say than 90% of the other drugs i've been entwined with which in of itself is noteworthy but i'm not about to

[tauxel]

taking a walk outside and feeling no new feelings has more or less cemented that i have spent every last experience in this miserable habitat

[tauxel]

prozac created a really unique psychotic thought pattern in my head where i would both compulsively keep in mind everything i had access to that could harm me i.e. razors, knives, pills, box cutters, and imagine the ways that i could hurt myself with them and also be so scared of this happening that i would stash all of them away from my immediate access out of fear that i might spontaneously act on these thoughts

[tauxel]

weird mood making me turn my lights red and stare at the ceiling