when night falls, i am your escape.

poppy // 23 // multi-fandom fanfic writer //requests [open] // steve's gf // i follow/reply/send asks from @writersgarden // navigation

[corpsesbaby-main]

ynow thats such an asshole move to not post anymore. because face the reality no one gives two fucks about you and your probably not even the best on this platform. kindly fuck off ur dilly dallying. ill just atke ur fic and make it bette rbecasue u apparently cant continue it because no one likes it enoigh to fukcing comment. your shit, not me.

so it's an asshole move to not post anymore but nobody cares at the same time and my writing is bad? if the latter was true, shouldn't you be happy i'm not posting anymore? why do you wanna read something that is 'bad'?

i always find it so funny when people hide behind anons like if you're so tough and all to send me this, come off anon and talk to me face to face. i'm not scared. are you?

i also love the very blatant threat of plagiarism which is very much illegal and punishable by law? not sure why you would want to put that on the internet but okay? also, small tip from one writer to another: you might wanna fix your grammar before you put the 'better version' out, i can send you some helpful links

additionally, i adore the small compliment about 'probably' not being the best on this platform! thank you! so you think that i could actually be the best but you're not sure? made my day!

anywayssss, little reminder for everyone why a lot of writers left the platform! it's the sheer entitlement and the outrage of entitled people like you that we have to deal with when we make very valid points about this entitlement. im not obligated to write. you're not owed anything. writer's aren't shitty for not posting anymore. it's our platform, our stories, we can do whatever the fuck we want to. would you have been this angry if i just didn't have the inspiration to continue? or if i didn't have the time anymore due to personal life changes? would you have sent this anonymous message if something had happened to me? who are you to decide on the validity of my reasons to stop posting?

oh, and i did actually improve a whole lot, thank you very much! especially with corpse fics. too bad you won't ever get to read them <3

[corpsesbaby-main]

i've actually been trying to find your blog for weeks to not only binge atp for the millionth time but to reblog it with comments as i finally made time to do it 😅 i'm sorry for being part of the problem!

i'm a writer (yikes i know) who's dealt with a similar issue on wattpad where the only interactions i got were people adding my stories to reading lists, so likes are super rare and i literally don't know the last time i got a comment or a reply to a comment (and i doubt ny notifications go back far enough to see 🙃). it's one reason why i've kind of stopped putting stuff on there (again: yikes i know).

yet i'm terrible at commenting?? especially on here because i always want to write an essay everytime because i know how much work goes into writing something as short as a blurb so i feel bad about writing a 'i love this!' even though i personally enjoy those comments? no one will be more pissed or confused about me being affected by yet contributing to this problem more than me. again, i'm sorry. i know much a heart emoji means and how much silence hurts.

i'm so sorry that i contributed to your frustration.

i adore atp and your writing but never knew how to put it into words (ironic). i'm angry at myself for not supporting my fellow writers especially seeing how many fic writers are talking about the lack of comments are discouraging and angry for contributing to this problem. and to anyone reading this or other fic writers' vents, non-fic writers like me and published writers are having issues getting feedback. (hence why i said no one is more pissed about my lack of comments than me)

i hoped tumblr was glitching when i was having issues finding atp until i saw the asks and your answers. you have every right to be angry and upset and disappointed in readers like me. anyone who says otherwise is a dick because it's true.

i'm sorry i waited too long to try and reblog and comment. i truly am and i hope you enjoy finishing atp and any other works for yourself 💙 if you ever decide to share your writing again, i will be sure to reblog and comment with everything.

thank you for apologising lovey and i completely understand! it's not you in particular that made me leave, just a collective problem if that makes sense? i don't bear any ill feelings towards anyone in particular just more how this like-culture has formed bc of tik tok and instagram and users of tumblr not using tumblr the way they did 5 years ago when my stuff was actually reblogged

the only thing that genuinely grinds my gears (besides the like problem) is that ive received asks of anons telling me im being 'hurtful to fans' when i say that everyone who just liked and never reblogged or even send an ask yk were part of the reason i left and refuse to roll out chapter after chapter, request after request with the same people demanding more to get nothing in return. the fanfics everyone reads are already free, so are reblog, yk?

as if i want fans? i just want a community and people who support me in my writing and who i can support back in whatever they create, who chat with me not just about my fics but fandoms in general, life, etc! and thats not achievable through likes

thank you for also giving some perspective! it's good that more writers step up and talk about this and offer a different viewpoint to those who don't write bc it's impossible to know how discouraging this feels until you're in the middle of it. im sorry you feel that way too and that people interact so little with your works as well! im not sure if you're a corpse writer and i havent read corpse stuff in so long but if you are, send me some of your stuff and i'll be happy to read and comment! ❤️ (this goes for everyone btw for most fandoms)

and i completely get being horrible at commenting! i always write essays too (especially on ao3 lmao) and i understand how you wanna carve out some time to do so!

i dont know if tips will help you and i certainly dont wanna tell you what to do but maybe i can give some tips in general to fic readers reading this:

i have a fanfiction sideblog (which i will not share bc there's shit on there that's between me, the author who wrote it, and god) bc i didn't want to reblog on the account i post my own writings on, mainly bc i feel like it will annoy people if i reblog every fic i read bc... there are a lot lmao. so first tip is maybe run a sideblog where you just reblog fics you've read and loved?

second tip is to have a queue running if you're scared it will annoy people?

i have a system where i reblog when there's a fic i see that i wanna read but i dont have the time for yet and tag it with 'to read' then i'll reblog it again with insight/comments. that way the post is in circulation and even if i dont get to it ever, i've still helped out he author?

i hope you don't feel too guilty. it's something we all have to work more on to make sure writers feel more appreciated! i genuinely dont have any vendetta or ill feelings towards you or anyone, i just choose to write for myself now <3

feel free to dm me any time if you wanna chat! im genuinely open to sharing my works with the friends ive made on here and other writers!

[corpsesbaby-main]

love that you're talking about how lack of reblogs effected you. I used to write reader inserts for the longest time, probably since 2017, for various fandoms. I used to write weekly when I wasn't super good and cared more about just posting something when I got the idea which then turned into me building ideas with a community of writers through, you guessed it, reblogging. I found friends through writers who were active readers and we'd constantly give feedback to each other. took a break when I started university and when I came back it was really different. I did the same things as I used to do and consistently my only interactions and comments and reblogs on my writing were friends I had made in the writing community. I knew I had readers, I could see it in the likes and the follows, but no one who wasn't also a writer that I knew and also interacted with, interacted with me. I'd get a bunch of likes and next to no reblogs. it's fucking disheartening. I still write occasionally, but I just don't post it anymore. I can't tell you how excited I'd been to post something, how proud I'd been of a piece I'd spent weeks on, written thousands of words for, only to receive silent likes and little to know comments. I was writing for myself but I was posting for everyone else. or when I actively took requests or write ships where people would send in themselves and I'd ship them, and the people that requested would only like it. not even a thank you. it destroys your willingness to share.

I will write regardless, I love writing. I have over a hundred posted fics across various accounts. that doesn't happen just because you want people to praise you or something like that. it happens because you love writing. but I don't owe anyone to post those. I can continue writing and get joy from it. posting it was just an additional way to get joy, it fostered communities and gave you extra motivation. comments on fics made my day even if they were generic or simple, it meant someone enjoyed what I did and wanted me to know, and people can argue that's what likes do but let's be honest, they don't. likes are very quickly done and impersonal. if you take a second to reblog, even if it's just with a heart, it means so much because you decided something we loved creating was worth your attention outside of just content to consume. and a lot of writers like to respond to those comments and engage and share excitement.

anyways, I don't post fics anymore. I still get notifications of people discovering my works and clicking like. I don't think I've gotten a reblog on a fic outside of my first week posting them. there's only so much fellow writers can do to keep you sharing your work. there's only so much a single, regular commenter can do in a see of hundreds of likes.

if I'm not worth your time to comment on my fic, you're not worth my time to post free content for you to consume. that simple

read this, then read it again.

thank you so much for sharing this, love. i'm so sorry you went through this too. i'm sure you're an incredible writer and it's such a loss that the way people have treated you drove you away. i completely agree and i feel so similarly.

i've been posting fanfics since i was around 15 i think and the ratio was 50/50 and not just on tumblr but ao3, fanfiction.net when i still used that. it's not too much to ask that people engage with us, it's really not. and we have every right to not post anymore and just write for ourselves or to share with our friends.

it's good that non-writers see the perspectives of multiple writers on this manner so thank you again for sharing your experiences and if you ever want to chat, my dms are open <3

[corpsesbaby-main]

Hii poppy I just wanted to say that I love your work and I get the whole no interaction = no more fics I just wanted to let you know that you are one of my favorites writers! I’ll follow you anywhere you go tbh much love and hopefully you are well and healthy <33

-🥮 anon

hi sweetheart <3

thank you for telling me, love, truly! i hope everyone who has interacted with me through anything other than likes knows i worship the ground they walk on lol it's literally just about people who just like, that's it 😔

i hope you're doing well too! make sure you take care of yourself, take a sip of water every now and then, open a window when you can <3

if i do come back and write more, i'll let you know, i promise! i will probably start doing the same and blocking the people who just like bc that seems like the perfect solution but for now i'm gonna take a break from writing all together

i've been so demotivated for so long here that i haven't had the inspiration to do much lately so i'm going to take it slow and pick up some other hobbies in the mean time <3

[soupbinlily]

If she leaves I leave 🚶🏻‍♀️

[corpsesbaby-main]

you don't have to leave because of me, love, i swear!

[corpsesbaby-main]

Hii poppy I just wanted to say that I love your work and I get the whole no interaction = no more fics I just wanted to let you know that you are one of my favorites writers! I’ll follow you anywhere you go tbh much love and hopefully you are well and healthy <33

-🥮 anon

hi sweetheart <3

thank you for telling me, love, truly! i hope everyone who has interacted with me through anything other than likes knows i worship the ground they walk on lol it's literally just about people who just like, that's it 😔

i hope you're doing well too! make sure you take care of yourself, take a sip of water every now and then, open a window when you can <3

if i do come back and write more, i'll let you know, i promise! i will probably start doing the same and blocking the people who just like bc that seems like the perfect solution but for now i'm gonna take a break from writing all together

i've been so demotivated for so long here that i haven't had the inspiration to do much lately so i'm going to take it slow and pick up some other hobbies in the mean time <3

[corpsesbaby-main]

What about posting your stories on Wattpad or ao3? I feel like tumblr isn’t as fic friendly for interaction.

fic writers are just not appreciated anywhere 🤷‍♀️

[corpsesbaby-main]

poppy did you get hacked??? ur last post really didn’t sound like you it was kinda hurtful like saying your fans weren’t good enough

to the people who have reblogged, send asks with feedback, send replies, done anything but just liking: fucking love and appreciate you! genuinely the only people who kept me going for 6 chapters! i smiled at ever reblog, every small comment, every keysmash. every time i saw anything other than a like i got so damn excited truly. so to those people: thank you, from the bottom of my heart <3

now to the hurtful and fans not enough thing:

nope not hacked just insanely tired

these ratios are abysmal truly

71 reblogs against 1,457 likes??? are you kidding???

likes aren't good enough for me to keep pouring hours of effort into not just writing the fics but also creating social media edits which take forever to make it as authentic as possible

we writers thrive off comments to tell us if people liked the chapter or not and that is not achieved by likes

likes are for bookmarking, nothing else

it's especially sucky if people come into your askbox demanding the next chapter but never interact with said chapter

it's terrible that people ask to be on a taglist only to either not interact or just like the fic despite the effort it takes to make sure everyone is on the taglist and tagged?

i've seen so many super talented people being driven off by people either thinking we're writing machines, people not appreciating them, or them not getting any kind of feedback which is what keeps us going

likes aren't enough, they just aren't, and until these ratios are equal, i refuse to post here

i get that it's not fun to hear that likes aren't enough and that you aren't a true fan if you just simply press like on a fic, but in my eyes, you really aren't. i've made several posts explaining how much it hurt me to see these numbers. a reply, an anonymous ask (for whatever reason, all are valid), a reblog, that is what counts. that is what makes you a fan. bookmarking something and being a fan is something else entirely.

people have started blocking accounts who just like and tbh i agree with them.

tumblr is a blogging site, it works because of reblogs. and people are just not using this site correctly and it's harming us writers.

and before anyone is gonna say it: fanfic writers do write for themselves, but we post for you. so i'm gonna do the first, and leave the second behind.

[corpsesbaby-main]

Omg where did all your fics go :(

deleted bc of the lack of interaction 🤷‍♀️

lots of writers are leaving tumblr bc they only get likes and no reblogs this isnt instagram but people are treating this site like it is

im still writing fics but im keeping them to myself bc yeah