Some Days
On some days, I can feel my heart thrumming
Like it has been anticipating
One bad thing to happen to me
So it can burst out like a dam but
I think, My eyes must be broken,
Someone tell me why it won't stop leaking
out ocean tears
I just need someone to hear
And say that I'm also a human
But it feels like I'm not satisfactory
So why do I keep hoping exactly
I don't know, please someone help me
I think I'm losing my psyche
Over things that would never happen
I should get out of my comfort and
Try to live with my friends
But I just need someone to understand
That it's hard to take a decision
When my thoughts are going vicious
And wrecked all my good reasons
To live.
It must be so easy in the youth
To be free of every issue
But do they even know the truth?
How absurd, I can't exactly
Think of ways to show you the reality
Some days, i feel unlovable
Cause i can't seem to fall in love
My diary filled with poems
Yet I have never spoken
More than few words with you.
I know you must hate me
Don't ask for reason, just debate me
About what's so bad about me
That you can't seem to like.
Swear I'll change overnight
Maybe spend some sleepless nights
Wondering if I'm even doing anything right
But sometimes I just can't seem to
Keep on liking you.
Swear i change, overnight
Maybe spend couple sleepless nights
Wondering if I'm even right
Gulp down some melatonin
And throw my burden in a dustbin
Just like my thoughts, I'm only ruined
For anybody to even like me
Cause I can't seem to exactly
Even brush my ugly teeth
Or dress up neat
I'm just being myself
Tortured through till the end
Maybe I'll find someone who'll love me
But I know I'm not satisfactory
So I will die exactly
Buried under my thoughts directly.
-@corpsethatdoesntrot











