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Vent

!WARNING! SH, SU*CIDAL THOUGHTS, AND FLASHING IMAGES

I know I don’t usually post on my Tumblr, so I rather have fewer people I know about my mental state cause I hate worrying so many people but i need to get something off of me.. !trigger Warnings! I have lately been so fucking depressed and I haven’t cried this much in such a long time, the longest cry so far has been for a solid hour in a cold shower I took earlier the day. I was thinking about so much now I hear two little voices argue so here is the bad one fighting the good one, the green one I called the Four Arm Beast and the yellow is “wingless dumb angel” and they both represent the good and bad thoughts.  I’m not gonna hide it, I feel so s*icidal and I been SH but in different ways. I’m allergic to fruit and I eat it anytime I get a chance cause dammit I deserve it. I’m a terrible and toxic dumb fuck that I wouldn’t be surprised old habits resurface, not like it didn’t already. I hate to vent because it worries people but that’s all I do, I make people worry and I feel so bad that I do. I’m tempted to delete everything and just end it but I wanna tell them how I feel but I hate to do that!! I don’t deserve to be walking on this earth, I deserve to be 6 ft in the ground but I’m not. I wanna say, I feel so bad for my friends who don’t know anything but I refuse to let them know cause I don’t want them to be scared that my stupid actions will cause the end of me.  I feel so bad for my partner, who I cherish and love so much I keep worrying and make her feel terrible, she deserves to be with someone better.  I feel so bad for my family who is so disappointed in me, I’m a gay high school drop out, in a minimum wage job who’s dumb and ugly, they don’t know I’m even hurting myself again. I deserve to be in any form in pain, I shouldn’t even complain when there is people who have it worse, but I am and I’m a scum bag for that, but don’t worry one day, I’ll be out of everyone’s way, I’m just so sorry to anyone who knows’s me…

#vent

slitshi

@somesadkidd you scare me sometimes, jen- stop hurting ren you fuck

cosmic-sweetieheart

@mienfuchs he’s fine :)

#ren #boyfriend to death #ren hana #doodle

(I fucked up and posted it on my spam account lmao)

Here is some Kryoz enjoy it you hooligans!!

💕I need to post more here so I’m gonna try to post when I post evewhere eles!!💕

(Here is a Kryozgaming wallpaper/phone background!)

#john kryoz #gbg kryoz #kryozgaming #kryoz fanart #bbs kryoz #kryozgaming fanart #shittyart #art #artists on tumblr #fanart

Sorry, I haven't posted much here, I been mostly posting more on my Instagram but here some OC ART!! cause I want to show people, my babies! here is an OC I have named Husky Universal and this is her evil self, she’s the protagonist but in her story, she later turns dark/evil cause of the antagonist! I plan to tell more of Her story but I’m still working on it!! I also doing a DTIYS challenge but its on my Instagram, if you wanna join look into my Instagram: Somesadkidd_ under the cut is a shitty color palette