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ed tumblr / active dec 2020 cw 111 ugw 96

[lettersto-whom]

starving makes me so much prettier and its so clear to see.

[copincigs]

Honestly, I don't hate myself, not one bit. I don't hate my body either. I'm at a good height and weight. Some even say that I'm skinny, but I think normal people define skinny differently from people with EDs (aka chopsticks and twigs = real skinny).

For me, this and getting to my ugw is a physical proof that I'm moving forward and succeeding at life. I'm at a point in life where success is so ambiguous and things are not tangible. When you're in HS success was getting into college; everything added up to that acceptance letter, but life after HS becomes intangible, nothing is ever defined to a single letter. You question your own abilities and competition is at every corner.

My body has always been a tangible proof of my own success. When I got acne, my skin cleared up when I was doing well: eating well, vacation, happy, exercise (which tone my body). These things showed me that I was moving foward.

As things got more ambiguous with life, I could see the changes with my body. My acne would flare up, my stomach would lose some defined lines, and I'll feel so heavy (both mentally and physically). To get better I'll diet and work out. I'll obsess over getting glass skin, thigh gaps, toned legs, flat a stomach because if I look better, I will feel better, and things will work out for the best.

This need for skinny is just an obsession about control. Controlling what's uncontrollable through my body. If I can succeed at this, then I will certainly succeed at everything else, or so I believe.

[wonderfilledflower]

dm if you need an ana buddy or just a relatable friend (a plus if you are 1 or more of the following)

have an ed

16+

vegan or vegetarian

[berryandana]

My favorite thinspo is usually fall thinspo since it’s my favorite season. And gosh her waist is so perfect

[cottagekcal]

i will be at my lw on christmas.

[sunshinenokia2]

Summer, come faster!

[lightertt]

[wannalivenah]

2 | 22 | 21

I am currently 43 hours into my 3 day fast, and I’m having terrible cravings. Like, ice cream, milk and cookies, and pizza (only because my siblings ordered pizza, but I faked a stomach ache, even though I really wanted some, and it looked so good, but I knew it would only lead to a binge), and chocolate. Which is everywhere in my house, it’s so frustrating! But I got through the day. Yay!

please send help, lol

I also started my period this morning, which is peculiar because I don’t usually start till the end of the month, lol.

I worked out too! And burned 550 cals.

10 min stretch

20 min jump rope - 200 cal

30 min elliptical- 250 cal

20 min abs - 100 cal

10 min stretch

any motivation is also appreciate, please send, lol

[digestvegaanx]

[k-ayo]

[k-ayo]

[monzercal-deactivated20201023]

[the-ana-roan]

hipbones 😩

[bitchy-and-glitchy]

Imagine looking good in that type of legging

[daintydelicatedelicious]

summer weightloss inspo

beach season - you can wear the cutest bikinis and that sexy onepiece with the cutouts, show off your flat tummy and smooth, muffin-top-free hips

sheer floaty summer dresses to show off your slim arms, delicate collarbones, and tiny shoulders

strappy sandals, cute flats, and adorable wedges to show off your long, slender, fawn-like legs

cute little highwaisted shorts to show off your cute little booty

figure-hugging party dresses for hot nights out, to turn heads with your petite waist and slim body

3 MONTHS TILL JUNE.  that’s only 90 days.  

just 90 more days and people will stop and stare and whisper.  

blink and it’ll be over - wouldn’t you rather work hard for 90 days?

[posionedoleander]

When I stepped on the scale for the first time in months and saw the number drop substantially, it made my mind kick into ED mode. I can’t gain weight when I’ve lost so much, restricting is my greatest option. Eating disorder brain has taken over.

[iillbeskinny]

[bruwho]

photo: @chloelecareux on instagram

[wintergxrl]