Likes: Fyodor, old books, incense, earl grey, chess, the violin, cherry flavor, salt, did I say Fyodor...
Dislikes: Misunderstanding of Fyodor, people who refuse to touch a book, oversensitive people, fish, windy weathers, coffee/tea with sugar...
- I love Fyodor and I will write for him centered.
- I am also on ao3 with the user countwendigo.
(Although I am planning on writing only about Fyodor, I think I wouldn't mind writing for some others time to time as well, or have people from those fandoms here.)
- Bungou Stray Dogs.
- Vanitas no Carte.
- Angels of Death.
- Moriarty the Patriot.
- Reverse 1999.
- Hannibal.
- The Secret History.
+ Not exactly fandoms but Fyozai and Fyobram, Fyolai time to time.
+ Also not exactly fandoms but things I love: A Clockwork Orange, Babel, mythology in any kind, Stephen King, CRIME AND PUNISHMENT, etc...
- Age under at least 16 dni.
- I will only be writing mlm (or gn) whether it's "x reader" or "x character" so do not ask for me to write other than that.
- Besides those, just the basic dni criteria.
- Ask to be mutuals if we share similar interests!
- Also ask me to write anything, I lovelove it.
- Anyway, remember who you are trembling creature and until then, loves Merlin. -
we are in a terrible need for more male reader content what can I say...
cw: dachryphilia, medplay, bondage, Fyodor being himself is an overall warning, size kink/difference, piss kink(?), nipple play, masochist Fyodor, religious guilt, mention of death, comfort, I don't rlly know...
SFW:
- bro he is SO gay.
- I like to believe he is unlabeled so he just likes who he likes but you cannot look me in the eyes and tell me this mf does not have the biggest preferance for men. (doa is basically his harem, no?)
- speaking of doa, it is so obvious he loves long haired men. he loves playing with their hair, bonus points if it has curls if you ask me.
- ALSO BIGGER MEN. now he isnt so small himself, despite most probably being underweight, he isnt that short. but oh does he find taller men than him hot, taller AND bigger, he loves people who take care of themselves so why not built wise too.
- he is an independent man himself, and that leads me to believe he would be on the side to spoil his partner rather than expecting them to spoil him. but thats only on the outside, deep down, he wants to get the return of his favors. he also wants to see effort or the thoughtfulness being put into act.
- because action >>> words.
- he does not even expect much though, just be a gentleman to him like he is to you. hold the door for him, set up the dates since he is so busy himself, remember his likings and surprise him with them... etc.
- he is a very simple man, actually. he can be difficult, yes, very much at that. but once he is in a relationship all he wants is to be understood and some peaceful time with his partner. so spare him some.
- and when I say he wants to be understood, dont come at me for this but he will not be with someone just because he likes them, you have to be able to defeat him intellectual wise if not at least the same level as him. he craves much more than the mere physical liking to someone.
- the same level as his intelligence AND his life span also. just imagine how many deaths of his loved ones he had to endure just to get used to it after some time or just avoid getting into a relationship not to experience that again. so if his lover is somehow immortal like him, or has a long lifespan, that would be the best.
- having to live such a long life, he has to deal with lots of memories which can come out as nightmares or panic attacks time to time. that is after he has a huge trust for you. so he would not ask for it, but simply be there for him and let him get through it without having to explain.
- he likes to be held. like a lot. not only in his moments of vulnerability but also when he craves closeness, he just like to steal his partners body heat and feel the contact of skin.
- he would hold you also, if you asked for it, but most of the time he just wants to practically get under his boyfriends skin and feel his bigger frame against his. just a sense of comfort and source of heat.
- I do believe he is touchy btw, LOOK AT HIM. LOOK CLOSELY. mf is always touching someone in the manga in some way Im not going crazy. (he wipes his hands if they touch him back though...)
- but with his partner, he would not be extremely clingy but he would love the contact of skin whenever he gets to have it even in the smallest ways.
- yapper. yada yada yada.
- is he a quiet man? yes. but will he shut up about his interests or even a random thing he noticed through the day once he is comfortable around you? no.
- he usually scares people away once he opens his mouth or they just dont understand him so please actually listen to him... you can be sure he will listen to you with the same amount of care.
- youre not getting your relationship to an official degree though, sorry. let alone it being too dangerous, its basically a lose-lose when youre a man. he doesnt mind, of course not. but people do and he doesnt want the looks on you.
- he likes watching you do your hair if you have a long one. or shave, or do any self care. he finds it attractive idk. (same)
- also since we are back the in the physical hcs, when I say he likes bigger men he LIKES them. he can and will be touching your muscles and going to do anything for you to use them on him. (merlin this is supposed to be sfw...)
NSFW:
- bottombottombottombottom.
- together with my belief that he is into bigger men, there is no way he is topping if its not for the sake of being a sub-top. (wait do we see the vision lmk)
- he is very talkative only to get under your skin and piss you off when he wants to, but other than that he is very pleasant with just laying there and looking pretty while you do all the work for him ngl.
- aw pillow princess fedya.
- veeerryyy much bonus points if you tie him up, he likes the feeling of being helpless when he knows its in a condition he is actually safe.
- he also just likes the thrill of being at his boyfriends mercy kinda.
- since he is very pale, he WILL have so many marks on his skin afterwards. whether it be from the bondage or you.
- DACHRYPHILIA. I WANNA SEE HIM CRY. he cries so prettily you just cannot get enough of it ngh.
- sensitive ass man, he will try to keep calm but he cannot help how sensitive some certain points of his skin so why wouldnt you use that to your advantage. pinch and twist his nipples while youre in the middle of fucking him and he is crying right then and there.
- slap his very sensitive cock too, he is into it, dont worry. he is the biggest masochist out there.
- use your size difference to your advantage too, also. he will slap your chest and curse you for it but he cant hide how much he enjoys the feeling of being so full, the feeling of being held against the bed with his smaller frame almost disappearing to the sight.
- so hold and fuck him against the walls of his office the next time he tries to be a dick-
- the most kinky man ever while thinking of sex as an intimacy he holds so dearly at the same time. how he will act depending all on his mood.
- so you will find him crying afterwards too, sometimes, from not only how overwhelmed he is but because of the underlying guilt he feels. once the heavy air of desire is gone, he will sit with his thoughts questioning himself.
- I swear if you dont give him proper aftercare for that-
- seriously, aftercare is always the best part for him no matter if he has done the most vanilla or the kinky shit ever. he likes sleeping in his boyfriends arms after, feeling the hands gently in his hair after they've been pulling them all night.
- I will not be explaining this but omoroshi... (or should I)
- adding one more, medplay. MEDICALLY ACCURATE !!
- this pillow princess just loves to ragebait his partner and seeing him angry just so he can feel him deeper inside, hitting places with a force he didnt know existed.
- good way to stop his very exhausted mind, you know.
- there will be nights where he cannot even sleep from thinking too much and asks you to fuck him to sleep just so it can exhaust him enough to rest.
- ohmygodIneedhimonmydicksobad...
anywaaaayyyy life is shit rn kinda so WE ALL coping with Fyodor right, right...
Tags: Bottom Fyodor, smut, brat Fyodor, hate sex kink, established relationship, Fyodor lwk a masochist
You're the first to show Fyodor a time where for once he doesn't need to lift a finger. Maybe for once he'll believe there are times where not everything is hell.
And maybe you just wanna shut him up, but don't tell that to his face.
"My dear..." Fyodor whispered to you.
It has been so Long since you've seen him again, maybe months.
His mission had just ended, it was fairly succesful and yet he seemed rather upset over the last few couple of days.
He had continued to give you the talk of the nature of humans after every mission. You're well aware of how people act. For God's sake you live around thousands of them!
You know he's just stressed. The plan he has for this world is more than just for one man. So here he is in your bed, his eyes closed and his neck tilted back.
Your tongue sliding from his collar to his jaw... Spit leaving along in the track. "Its okay... Shh..." He sighed at your words. It felt nice to be comforted to him...
"I'm supposed to be working on the plan..." He frowned, despite his words he would tilt his head back further.
You blinked and pulled away, you're starting to get sick of his constant complaining. "I'm aware."
He rolls his eyes with a grumble before he wrapped his arms around your neck. "I'm really busy." He pulled you down on top of him.
His hair was strayed across the sheets as he stared up at you. His cheekbones shined in the candle light, flickering as the fire danced around.
Fingers ran through your hair and you grabbed them, pulling them away which he clearly didn't like. "I'm aware." you repeated once again.
"You wont shut up about it. 'Oh I'm so busy.' 'I can't bother with this!' I've had it." He frowned at your mocking words. Nonetheless your bodies stayed pressed together.
"Then... Maybe just for tonight I suppose I can spare some time." He turned in head away from you, making you lean against him.
"... Let me take off your clothes again." You mumbled to him. Begging to see his body fully naked once again.
He nodded slowly and at that, you got up off him only to slowly but unbutton his shirt with enthusiasism.
His lean and rather skinny torso was revealed... You could see the end of his ribcage and you could as well see the top of his hip bones.
It wasn't anything you havent seen before and yet, it was like watching the most intricate painting be created in real time, over and over again.
Your Hands reached to his pants, unzipping them slowly. If it was to tease him or take this slowly, Fyodor could only guess the former.
Before taking off his pants, your Hands reaches for his socks- he cut you right off as he snatched his ankles away. "No."
You gave him a confused look as he returned a glare. "Why??" He shrugged to your question, "You're gonna make it weird."
You're not about to argue about this mans body... Still you're a little insulted he'd insinuate you're that type of person.
Fingers placed right back at the hem of his pants, pulling his off him as his hips lift to assist you.
You throw his pants to the side and greedily grab at his boxers, before he could start you pulled them off to sit back and stare at him in a whole.
You sat down on the floor, his legs dangling off the bed and him sitting up to just glare down at you. It was quite the sight to behold.
You could see almost all his body in whole... Each protruding bone, each vein in his skin, the way his dick laid across his thigh pointing at you, complimenting the way his eyes stared at you.
His body was painted a warm goldish yellow in the light, his calves to his forehead, every inch carved in detail.
You Were pulled out of thought as he kicked you with his foot. "You're boring me."
You grabbed his ankle, kissing it. He definitely cringed at that but you couldn't find it in you to care... "So beautiful. Built exactly like an angel."
You kiss up his calf as if you were worshipping him, up to his thigh and up to his chest.
He sighed at your words, laying back on the bed. You raise his leg up, "Am I boring you now?"
"Yes. Still." His eye glance up at you as you unzip your own pants, making quick work as they fall to the floor in a pile along with your boxers.
"How can I make you feel better?" Your question mightve pissed him off, perhaps it was too stupid of a question for him to reward you with an answer.
He sighs, yet his release of breath was caught in his throat as you start rubbing his own dick with yours.
"Ah..." He tilted back his head, his eyes half lidded, watching both of you rub together.
"Mmhhh..." He smiled up at you, a malicious looking grin. He was clearly getting in to it. His fingers rubbed off what precum both of you had produced, rubbing it against both of your cocks.
His long fingers squeezed you both together as you frotted against him. He whined quietly, whispering your name.
He bit the nail of his index finger, you've seen that smile before... Whenever he's playing at something or planning something.
Before he could act, you grabbed his waist and pulled his hips up in the air as his legs were pushed up and over your shoulders. He let out a small gasp in surprise before glaring at you. "Dearest, would you be so kind to put me Down."
You shake your head at him, "I'm afraid not." Before he could say much, your tip was rubbing in between his ass. It didn't feel like much sure, but the implication was far enough for him to keep his lips closed together.
"Is this good? Hm?..." He looked away at your words, his legs trembled in your arms, "Yeah."
You rubbed his thigh comfortingly before pushing your tip inside him, pushing past any resistence his hole had making his grab your hand as he gasped.
"Fuck- if you stop right now I'll have you killed."
He muttered as his other arm covered his eyes. You listened obediently to his words, pushing deeper as the burn got hotter and hotter.
Your dick was half way in as you found his dick pouring out pre-cum down his stomach while he was finding a way to force his hips down further.
You slapped his thigh, making him bite his lip to stifle a noise that would be beyond obscene.
"You're doing a little too much Fyodor." Grabbing his hips you turn him on his stomach, the precum pressing onto the sheets. Youll need to wash that later.
You shoved yourself back into him fully, grabbing his hair and pulling his head back as he let out a strained moan "Oh- какого хуя-..." He mumbled to himself, grabbing the sheets beneath him.
"Ahhah... Ah..." He panted, arching his ass up as you thrusted inside him repeatedly, his feet kicking on each side of you.
"Mmhh- mmhh! Come now... you're too slow." He complained again, his hips snapping backwards, his teeth biting his thumb.
He looked back at you, drool dribbling down his chin as you feel his foot run up and down his calf. "This all you can do?... I can't believe your my partner-"
He was clearly trying to make you angry, he has that smirk again. Of course you're aware of this fact but it doesnt make you any less annoyed.
You pull him closer, pounding into him as he moans. "You're- truly the worst- Ahha- I hate you-" Before he could speak anymore, you slap his ass while thrusting into him making him smile more.
He continued to mouth off and it pissed you off, more and more no matter how faster or how well you did. For once you got sick of it.
"Keep talking and I'm just gonna smother your dumbass with a pillow." You glare down at him, he clearly was getting off on your words as you felt him tighten around you.
He wrapped his legs around your thighs, "Please now- you're too weak to do such a thing-" He threw his head back once your hand grabbed his leaking dick.
You squeezed it tight as he groaned in Pain, "Holy shit." you heard his voice turn high pitch before grabbing his hair with your other hand as a handle and his dick with your other hand.
"I'm still surprised when you always act so desperate for this type of stuff..."
You mumbled to him but his own panting and moans drowned you out. "Mm- я ненависть ты" He repeated those words countlessly.
You leaned down, kissing his back as your hips stuttered the faster you went, he laughed beneath you nodding as well as you spammed inside him one last time, filling him up from the inside.
You kissed his head, "I love you too." You answered. You know that isnt what he said, and as much as you'd love to indulge him in his fantasy... You'd rather die than let him think what he says is actually true outside of sex.
Pulling out of him, his legs trembled beneath you still. "Pull me up." He spoke to you, looking rather embarrassed of his former words.
"Yes sirrr.." You jested. Hoisting him to stand up.
Though the moment you helped him up, his legs trembled too much to point where he leaned on you for support.
With a sigh, you helped him walk to the bathroom so you both may talk a shower and head to sleep in eachothers arms.
One quick fic before I go to bed...
Sorry, Russian isnt a language I speak at all... Apologies if I made something gramatically incorrect.
(Just some of my general hcs of him except they are really random, enjoy.)
- When I think about it, this man is surely a dog person. Such innocent and loyal creatures, what more could he want?
- Speaking of that, he must be a huge animal lover too, considering their nature apart from humans' "sinful" ones.
- He also seems like the type to just sleep with multiple pillows, like a lot. And lots of blankets too thanks to his physical condition.
- Heavy sleeper. And you most probably would think he is dead at some point because he sleeps just so still and without a sound. Check if he is still alive just in case...
- And he definitely cuts his own hair. I mean, he had years to perfect it the way he likes, so why even bother with a hair dresser?
- I actually think he does almost everything himself both because he just CAN and he cannot afford being around people, at all.
- Great cook, probably doesnt have much time for it but if he had, he would love to do it. It's such a peaceful activity when I think about it. Maybe with Bach or Beethoven playing in the background.
- Despite that, he forgets to eat so often, let alone cooking for himself. It's very clear by the way he looks, I fear. (Someone feed him, he didn't get to have sweets before he died too...)
And some romantic ones because I'm a young ho (jk jk)
- I believe his love language would be a little bit of everything but mostly quality time, he has been alone for so long that he just craves company at this point. I don't think he would refuse a nice, long, late night conversation along with tea though.
- Speaking of tea, expect lots of it. Tea dates here, tea dates there. He has one for literally every oppotunity. Mornings? Earl grey. Can't sleep? Chamomile. Want to spoil yourself? Have some quince and honey tea. (I reccomend quince and honey btw it's so good.)
- Public affection is probably a no-no for him, he doesn't seem like the type. But that doesn't mean he will hold back from letting someone know who belongs to who in any case of them approaching you. He just has his own ways. (Might or might not be illegal but that's okay)
- He is a very gentle lover, also. In any way; the way he speaks, touch, choice of words, you name it. He doesn't see the point in being too much or overly affectionate.
- Don't let it fool you though, he is still the same ragebaiter he is. I mean, have you ever seen him with others? Especially when he wants the attention on himself, he will most probably do his best to piss you off. Its just hot, he thinks. Seeing you like that.
- And I am afraid he is quite good at it, he knows your weak points too well. What makes you sigh in annoyance or want to choke him time to time... (oops)
- Last but not least, then, I like to think he craves such the domestic life. It just feels so comfortable to him, existing in the same space and doing daily things together. Silence is not so bad when he isn't alone, it's enjoyable. He is a simple man actually, you see...
Anyway first time posting anything here tbh kinda nervous... Let me know what you think and I'd love to write if you want anything. Byebye...
Genuine question - how can u be both a nihilist and a hedonist? Since hedonism is meaning through pleasure and nihilism is nothing provides meaning doesnt that just cancel each other out?
That's a nice point. But my point of view is that there is no meaning in life as in the social construct of today, so living according to that has no meaning which is most of us' whole life. However we are humans and we do want to exist despite that, and I believe it's is because of pleasure, whether we are consciously aware of it or not.
Our existence is such a little thing considering the whole universe yet we still try to enjoy it which I believe is because of the need for pleasure.
