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22 | levi brain dump :)

[cowboylevi]

that portrait scene in Titanic but it’s you and Levi, and as he watches you disrobe, he thinks he’s never seen anything as beautiful as you. you lay still, holding an intense gaze with levi’s working eyes as they trace the outline of your curves. the intimacy of it all has you trying to lighten the mood but his stern demeanor never falters.

years later when they find the portrait, your hair grayed with age, you can’t help but mourn the fact that no one will ever know just how much more beautiful the person behind the canvas was. the most intimate moment forever between you and him.

[png-02]

i know the most likely situation is that levi genuinely has no idea when his birthday is but sometimes i like imagine that he does remember the exact day but has always opted to keep it to himself cause it reminds him too much of his mother and how she would try her best to make it the most special day for him.

she would take him as close to the exit from the underground to hopefully catch a bit of sunlight falling through the cracks and would surprise him with a treat/tea blend that she spent months saving for etc etc .and he doesn’t want to ‘taint’ those memories by sharing it with anyone else, his birthday was something for him and his mother only and all those special days died alongside her.

[cowboylevi]

levi has such kind eyes. if you look at him in passing, you could mistake it for indifference. a cold, emotionless grey carried by a man who has seen it all. but if you take the time to look at him, really look, you’ll find a softness to them. an understanding, empathetic grey overshadowed by the permanent worry lines and soldier fatigue forced upon him all those years.

[littlerequiem]

I think Postwar Levi doesn't take the privilege of growing old lightly.

Because the wrinkles and freckles on his face mean he’s spent years under the sun.

Because his graying hair is a testament to the passage of time he never thought he would have.

Because his glasses are proof that he can now tend to his own needs.

Because a fuller frame means he finally lives in a world where there’s enough to eat.

Because, at the end of the day, Levi growing old is a beautiful thing—a privilege most of his loved ones never got to experience.

[cowboylevi]

levi growing up speaking french and only french up until he attended primary school and so he has a bit of an accent when speaking english >v< and he would speak french whenever he’s feeling very strong emotions. whether it be during small arguments, overwhelming public spaces, heated sex, or grand gestures of love, no language is enough to describe what he feels, or truly encapsulates his emotions like his native tongue does. it’s a little endearing because sometimes he forgets words and has to rely on you to carry a conversation, especially when it’s with friends and family.

[png-02]

levi who can’t admit to admit to anyone, not even himself, just how far the extent of his feelings for you go because he’s too embarrassed about the tenderness of it. embarrassed by just how impossible it all feels to him.

he’d be circling around you for months, years even, and would be content with just observing you from a distance. just taking in all those times you’ve been kinder to him than he thinks he deserves, chance glances exchanged during strategy meetings, how you always seem to make space for him to simply just exist near you.

he would think about you all the time but the rare times he really allows himself to wallow in his feelings would be when it’s dead of night. when there’s nothing but half-finished paperwork and nearly burnt out candles keeping him company, he’d let his thoughts drift to you. he’d start imagining how nice it must be to have your hands cradle his, handling him with a kind of care that he hasn’t experienced enough of. how in dreams he tells no one about, he lays his head on your lap and you accept all of him. how you see him for all his unpolished edges, his rough demeanour, all the pain he carries, and you still would want him.

and then as if his thoughts somehow summoned you, he happens to look out his window and there you are, on a midnight stroll in the fields. and maybe he might think it would be a good idea to abandon his work and go give you some company.

[cowboylevi]

levi at the gym. his back muscles flexing as he works out. his compression shirt showing off his biceps. him doing a bench press and all you can think about is how easily he can carry you. helping him put on his wrist wraps so he doesn’t get injured but you also do it cause you love how rough and strong his hands feel. him treating you so good and racking all your weights, holding your stuff, filling your water, and wearing matching sets with you. and of course sending you shirtless post-workout pics of himself whenever you’re not there.

[cowboylevi]

levi smells sooooo good it’s actually sickening. that sweet, soft, musky smell that makes you think of home. you purposefully steal his clothes after he’s worn it because you can’t get enough of him and his scent. and it’s not even the cologne he wears. he just has such a distinct smell that you can sometimes tell when he’s near you without looking. the worst part is when he’s away and the bed smells like him and you just have to close your eyes and pretend that he’s there, his warm body embracing you.

[cowboylevi]

imagine trying to explain brain rot lingo to levi and he just thinks you’re the most ridiculous human being but it’s so endearing to watch you get excited about something so stupid that he actually sits through it just to see you laugh

[cowboylevi]

“if he wanted to, he would”

levi ackerman would, always

[cowboylevi]

thinking about levi living with ptsd and how it’s hard for him to deal with and he’ll be too embarrassed to reach out for help because all his life he’s had to be the perfect soldier and you’ll maybe suggest therapy because it might help to talk to someone but he’s afraid of doing it alone and so you join him and sit as he talks about everything he’s seen and he’ll have sleepless nights and rough days where everything feels heavy and you wish you could take his pain but you know he has to do the work and you’ll just have to be the best partner and try as hard as you can to be there for him whenever he needs you :(((

[cowboylevi]

levi bought an engagement ring after your first date btw. or rather, he’s had a crush on you for a while but was too afraid to talk to you and when he finally asked you out, he knew it had to be perfect. he knew once he asked, that would be it. there would be no one else. and so when he got back from your first date, he set out to find the perfect ring because when you know, you know.

[grapejuice32]

I don’t think I’ve yearned for anyone the way I yearn for Levi Ackerman

[cowboylevi]

levi is the type of beautiful that leaves people a little mesmerized. the type of beautiful that artists wish to paint on a canvas or capture photos of. he often gets shy looks and glances his way, people trying to catch a glimpse of the man across the room, quiet and reserved. and he just assumes it’s because of his stone cold demeanor but you know better. sometimes you wonder how someone can be so smart yet so oblivious at times. he gets hit on often, which should make you jealous but you know he only has eyes for you. you often smile and stare at him, tracing every one of his features, because wow, he really is beautiful. and he’ll get annoyed (shy) and tell you to stop but secretly he loves it, because he does the same to you whenever you’re not looking.

[cowboylevi]

i have a theory that levi loves to laugh. and when he’s with you he can do so freely. he’s stoic and apprehensive because of what he’s been through, but whenever he’s with you he doesn’t feel the need to mask. sometimes you can hear him chuckle under his breath and it makes you smile. he’s a little bit cheeky too and makes subtle sex jokes. and he’s soooo sarcastic and sassy, it’s infuriating at times. i think he loves to crack jokes even if he’s the only one that finds it funny because he’ll smile and go on about his day. he smiles and laughs because you make him, and because you’re the only one he wants to do that with for the rest of his life.

[cowboylevi]

levi is sooo “girl dad” coded, but can you imagine a mini him??? a little boy with that same pout and his dad’s eyes. so cuteeee

[cowboylevi]

thinking about every day life with levi, where he has your legs on his lap as you’re reading your book on the couch, and he’s journaling. where he gets up early just to get the morning coffee brewing for you. where he makes dinner as you set the table. where he leaves little post it notes on the fridge reminding you how much he loves you. where he makes sure to kiss you goodnight and never goes to bed without resolving any argument. where you both fall into a routine that being without the other person feels incomplete. while it may seem like a simple life, to levi it’s more than what he could ask for <3