Dolls n stuff

Whatever catches my fancy, probably gonna see a lot of dolls, cats and other cute animals, attractive people in dapper clothes, some fandom stuff: currently mostly Undertale, Fallout, Dragon Age, JJBA, WTNV. Pro-artist.

[chronic-lovely]

Fibromyalgia is bullshit. I would like to speak to the manager about a return.

[cowpewter]

I often like to say, that I really need an RMA on my body. It has some obvious manufacturers defects.

[legsdemandias]

You know what? It really fucking bothers me that tumblr turned “instrusive thoughts” into “eat that leaf hehe” when in reality, the term was created to explain the violent and seriously disturbing, unwanted thoughts that mentally ill specifically compulsive, people get against their will. Not only did tumblr take the term, but intentionally said “intrusive thoughts are rarely violent”. A straight up lie. 

So i’m here to tell you. Intrusive thoughts are violent, disturbing thoughts that you do not want to be thinking. The actual definition of “intrusive thoughts” is:  unwanted thoughts or images that you find distressing and/or disturbing.

[legsdemandias]

You know what’s not distressing or disturbing? Eating leaves. Touching things. Whatever tumblr tries to sell as “intrusive thoughts”. You know what my intrusive thoughts look like? Big fat heavy content warning: “you know if you jump off the stairs you’ll be heavy enough to just crush your dogs skull and kill her you could do that did you know that you should do that why don’t you just kill your dog”. Violent. Distressing. Disturbing.

The term was created to tell people with compulsory disorders that those thoughts are not you and that having those thoughts doesn’t make you a bad person. It drives me wild that tumblr took something to make mentally ill people feel better about themselves and said “actually violent thoughts aren’t intrusive, it’s things like “eat that leaf.” 

[ncnova-archived-deactivated2019]

“Eat that leaf” is more along the lines of ADHD because it drags you away from the present function you’re supposed to be doing. I have ADHD and this shit happens all the time.

[legsdemandias]

Oh yeah, I definitely have impulsive thoughts. Thoughts that are just batshit wonky. But those aren’t intrusive. They’re certainly derailing and distracting. But not intrusive.

[ncnova-archived-deactivated2019]

Yep that’s the word I was looking for. Impulsive. Thank goodness for friends. And people like to conflate intrusive and impulsive because, the only similarity is that these thoughts are tell you to do something. One is violent and distressing and the other is annoying and at times habitual.

[randomslasher]

Very good point. As someone who has both (trigger warning: destructive thoughts) the “hey go poke that thing” thoughts and the “hey if you pulled on your steering wheel you could drive into that oncoming truck right now right now do it right now why not just see what happens” brand of thoughts, there is a big freaking difference. Good post OP. 

[shitpostenj0yer]

I get both of those. For the longest time I thought my intrusive thoughts meant I was a bad person. It wasn’t until recently that I realized that.

Why?

Because no one taught me that because teaching about mental health could be disturbing to other students.

I’m twenty one. I have had impulsive thoughts for my entire life. That was normal. So when I started getting intrusive thoughts I thought that was just me turning into a dark, evil human being. Because no one told me that intrusive thoughts are not a reflection of who I am.

This needs to change. People need to be taught the difference and that intrusive thoughts are not a reflection of who you are.

[coralcupcakewitch-deactivated20]

What would thinking about the earth and humanity dying in a fiery death caused by some force + panicking over that thought fall under?

[legsdemandias]

It is up to you! If you are disturbed or upset by your thoughts, those typically classify as intrusive because intrusive thoughts are upsetting disturbing thoughts that can often be violent. I mean, they oftentimes go hand in hand, but ultimately it’s up to you to decide friend :)

[hazel2468]

Oh fuck yeah. 

I didn’t learn about this until fucking grad school. I’ve had impulsive thoughts my whole life, and I get intrusive thoughts when I get depressed- or sometimes randomly (isn’t that fun?). The fact that tumblr is trying to tell you that if you have intrusive, violent thoughts you are a bad person is… Fucking batshit. You might as well tell someone that they are a bad person because they had a dream in which they dropped a pig off of a giant spire to save the Ultraverse (I am sure someone on tumblr would say that, actually). 

Your intrusive thoughts don’t make you a fucking bad person. And I am fucking tired of everyone and their uncle on tumblr acting like they all are experts in human behavior and psychology… While fucking telling those of us who are actually experts in human behavior and psychology to shut up. Your intrusive thoughts don’t fucking define you. That’s why they are intrusive thoughts. 

[cowpewter]

Yes, I have ADHD and depression and I get both kinds (luckily the intrusive thoughts are much more infrequent now that my depression is under better control).

Impulsive thoughts are things like “eat that leaf” or “buy that toy, it’s on sale, buy it buy it buy it.”

Trigger warning: mention of animal death and suicidal ideation:

Intrusive thoughts are things like “hey you’re driving over a bridge, you should just spin the wheel hard to the right and go flying off” or “your cats will be sad if you kill yourself, you should drown them all first so they don’t wonder where you are for the rest of their lives.” (Both are real intrusive thoughts that I have experienced.)

Let me make this clear: I would NEVER hurt my cats. They are my children, my love and lifeline. Intrusive thoughts are things you DO NOT WANT to do. That is why they are so distressing and disturbing. They are very vivid and hard to shake. Impulsive thoughts are much easier to ignore. Did a thought bring you to the point of ugly crying for an hour afterward? Then it’s probably intrusive. Impulsive thoughts do not break you down into a sobbing wreck.

[nokiabae]

I got the Top 4.47% on this English Vocabulary test

[sleepy-milkbread]

I’m in the last 47.33% 

I shouldn’t have taken that test

[dazzling-galaxy]

Top 40.88%

Guess I’m not that good in English after all

[cloud-berries-blog1]

top 39.58%

wow i’m beTTER THAN I THOUGHT

[smitethestate]

Top 0.01%???? I definitely just got lucky on a couple of those.

[zekedms]

“★★★ Top 4.67%

Your vocabulary size is equal to that of a 30-year-old successful American businessperson!”

Buddy I know a lot of MBAs and they can’t words for shit

[cowpewter]

Top 0.01%! To be fair, I read a lot as a kid. Also multiple choice made it a little easier.

[dollsahoy]

CR's Crafts is your source for Doll and Bear supplies. We have over 6,000 doll and bear supplies in stock and at catalog prices.

Huh–I’ve never blundered across this site before?  Their prices and selection seem comparable–on things I recognize–to Audrey’s, only without the $25 minimum Audrey’s has.

[cowpewter]

I buy all my doll stands there. It’s one of the few places I can find saddle stands for tall bjd without paying out the nose for them.

[meatpower]

cats have their priorities straight its 1. stay warm 2. be fat 3. yeah

[dolljunk]

A before and after of my Multitoys Wicked Witch.

[cowpewter]

She looks so kind now. I love her!

[animegodmother]

People who can kiss my ass:

• Pro-Recasters

• TERFs and radfems

• Pro-lifers

• Racists

• Homophobes

• People who hurt animals

[dollsonmain]

[antoine-roquentin]

I Was A Cable Guy. I Saw The Worst Of America.

A glimpse of the suburban grotesque, featuring Russian mobsters, Fox News rage addicts, a caged man in a sex dungeon, and Dick Cheney.

[cowpewter]

Good read

[think-ab0ut-it]

[despazito]

CBC made a good documentary on adult ADHD and part of it really caught me off guard because i swear they repeated verbatim my life story for the past 3 years

full programme here:

http://www.cbc.ca/natureofthings/episodes/adhd-not-just-for-kids

[fuckingconversations]

My ADHD manifested in excellent in-class work. Excellent understanding in discussions. Excellent participation. 

My ADHD manifested in piles of homework left undone until the last possible minute, while I stared at them, thinking; “I want to get these done. I understand the theory. It would take 10 minutes. I want to start, why can’t I start?” 

My ADHD manifested in fantastic reading comprehension - nigh impenetrable focus on interesting topics the first time I’m reading about them. 

My ADHD manifested in a complete inability to focus on reviews or re-reads, mind skittering sideways and away whenever anything was boring or repetitive. I sat down to study, my books open, my eyes on the text, and my brain clawing its way out the back of my head to focus on something else - anything else. Focus, focus! [No.]

My ADHD manifested in Articulating wings half-finished but still beautiful, in beautiful lineart and half-hearted coloring. In stories written passionately for days until I forgot it existed and never returned. In projects started and forgotten and started and forgotten a thousand times until my bins of project supplies piled up and my bank account shriveled down. No, it will be different this time - I LOVE this new thing. This new thing is my world, my destiny, my Everything. I CREATE and CREATE and CREATE and never FINISH. 

My ADHD manifested in confusion and surprise as time slithered away, hours passing like minutes and minutes seeming endless by contrast. An inability to gauge how much time had passed, was left, a task would take. An inability to hold dates in my head, because time didn’t feel consistent or even real.

 My ADHD manifested in watching someone talk and not understanding a word they said - literally hearing sounds and translating out only nonsense. In thoughts so loud I couldn’t speak coherently. In a conversation across the room shattering an idea I was trying to hold. It’s hard to think when you’re already thinking about everything around you. 

[therobotmonster]

Posting especially for the last response, which sounds so terribly familiar.

[useless-bisaster]

ADHD Moods: A Collection

* Bored.

* move move move move move move move move move

* “What month is it again?”

* SHIT

* “Aren’t you supposed to leave at 3:00?” “Yeah but it’s only like 1:30 I’ve got time” “Dude it’s like 2:57” “FUCK”

* Focus level: non-existent

* Focus level: EXTREME

* “Listen I know you told me to do this thing and explained it three times already but could you maybe explain it again”

* “I forgot”

* MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE

* I had three assignments due today and I forgot about all of them kill me

* The face you make when a NT tells you to “just write it down”

* MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE

* “Can I touch your stim toy?” “NO”

* It’s been 14 hours since I ate bc I forgot

* It’s been 38 hours since I ate bc I forgot

* “iF it wAs imPoRTanT yoU wOuLd’Ve rEmeMbeReD iT”

* “When the hell was the last time I showered?”

* Yes I know I need to calm down but THEYRE TALKING ABOUT MY HYPERFIXATION OVER THERE

* MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE

* I’m hungry but all I want is strawberry jello

* Too Much™

[sunflower-cane]

If you have sensory issues and cant brush your teeth/hair regularly its okay. Dont blame yourself.

If you have chronic fatigue and can brush your teeth/hair regularly, its okay. Dont blame yourself.

If you have depression and cant brush your teeth/hair regularly, its okay, dont blame yourself.

If you have memory issues and cant brush your teeth/hair regularly. Its okay. Dont blame yourself.

Your illness and the consequences arent your fault.

[cowpewter]

This is #truth, but if you can manage just one hygiene thing, brush your teeth first! Teeth are so important and so expensive to fix if they go bad. Plus the bacteria in your mouth can lead to other health problems later.

If you can’t manage anything today, that’s valid. But try to at least get a superficial toothbrushing in when you can. Skip your shower, skip the hair brushing instead. Future you will thank you.

[awesome-possum-posse]

Being excited for ur next d&d game like

Being excited and impatient like

Just downright wishing you could beat time into submission and make it game day

[that-twink-over-there]

@knightrepentant oh look… it’s us

[brimstoneandtreacle-deactivated]

@sols-crew yupppppp

[eliot-rambles]

I know right!

[cowpewter]

My players be like

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

useful reminder that there’s an overlap b/t people who identify as pansexual and bisexual, and both terms have multiple meanings!

some people identify as both and use them interchangeably. that’s cool!

some people identify as both and use them with differing connotations. that’s cool too*!

some people identify with one term and not the other, and have specific understandings of how that translates to their individual identify. also excellent!

some people identify more with one term than the other, and then see that change over time**: that’s cool also! our understandings of ourselves & our identiies are fluid, to insist otherwise would be restrictive and crummy!

point is: human sexuality is wonderful and varied! there are so many flavors and types of people. it’s a lovely wild world, and we’re blessed to share it with all sorts of crazy colorful fellow humans. nobody’s existence invalidates anyone else’s, it just means there’s that much more unique beauty we get the chance to appreciate in the world.

people who identify as pan/bi: would love to hear your voices & thoughts in the notes!

*I do this!

** I do this too!

[cowpewter]

I identify as bi, but I was figuring out my indentity in the 90s, and never even heard of the word pansexual until a few years ago. “Bi” was all I had to describe myself, and I’m comfortable with the label.

Basically, my feelings can be summed up as “hearts, not parts.” I don’t care what’s in your pants. If I love you, I love you. I feel aesthetic appreciation for all kinds of people, cis/trans/whatever. Being demisexual as well, I don’t feel sexual attraction to someone until I love them, but once I do, the exact configuration of their body or gender indentity doesn’t matter to me. Love is love.

[arandomthot]

Everything’s cute until you check the price tag

[cowpewter]

Me: Wah this is a cute blouse!

...

Me: Well it’s not $80 cute. Nevermind.

[the-social-recluse]

THERE IS A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN

finding someone aesthetically pleasing

being sexually attracted to someone

being romantically attracted to someone

#and its ok if you can’t figure out what the fuck you’re actually feeling

[meangirlnurse]

i love cats. like we as a species just really go out of our way to obtain fat little house goblins in the hopes that they will occasionally acknowledge us

[iamnoonewhoareyou]

Reblog if you love your fat little house goblin