active may 2021

TW! ED please stay safe sw: 68 kg // cw: 42.45 kg // lw: 39.85 kg gw: 40 kg 166 cm pro recovery

[battibatt]

nobody talks about how ugly taking care of yourself can be

yes, sometimes it’s taking a warm bath and texting memes to friends and keeping an aesthetically pretty journal.

sometimes it’s crying silently on your couch at 3am, hugging yourself and reminding yourself that you’re a good person.

self care is not always ‘aesthetic’ and cute…and that’s ok. don’t be embarrassed, just do what you need to do.

[lovethinspolove]

Reblog if you feel fat right now.

[helloooskiinny]

Always

[starvingrabbit]

do you ever see the fat on your body and all at once it’s just suddenly way too overwhelming and you’re practically screaming get it off get it off gET IT OFF!!!!

[anxietyproblem]

[billandtedsexcellentgaymarriage]

You guys realize you’re interacting with other human beings on here, right?

[notthinenough]

still can’t really comprehend this

[woodmossbones]

The terrifying thing about my ED is the way it makes me feel like my mental health is actually improving the more weight I lose. I’m starving myself but every pound off feels like freedom. The thinner I get the more I feel comfortable enough to get dressed in the morning, to be able to go out with friends and feel a little less disgusted with myself.

But then I eat more than I had planned and I’m crying, screaming, punching my walls and feeling nothing but hate for myself. Then I remember that I’m still sick.

[myyfatnesspal]

[craving0kcal]

just binged😃

[craving0kcal]

just reached my ugw today and i don’t know what to do next or if i should go lower

[edssuckbro]

honestly i think people who don’t already have/had an ed shouldn’t be able to see ed tumblr like i feel so conflicted with my blog i don’t know if i should keep it or what

[takecare-bewell]

if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say ‘food’ labeling some good, some bad as i assign moral value to this grain of rice i might say ‘numbers’ counting, measuring, tracking calories, sizes, BMIs allthetimecalculating everysinglething if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say ‘beauty’ complete devotion, idolization of the western standard begging for others’ envy i might say ‘attention’ desperately needing someone anyone, to notice me at all to see that i am unwell, to care if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say ‘control’ the sick, sick result of discipline gone sour a curdling obsession i might say ‘guilt’ over being too big too plain too comfortable too needy too me if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say ‘anger’ hating the injustice of living hating everything, everyone including myself i might say ‘pain’ a way to transpose the scars of my soul onto the body aching for congruence if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say ‘minimalism’ my mind whirls like a run-on sentence and i can’t stand being wasteful so no thank you i don’t need anything at all really i might say ‘self-righteousness’ i’m parading the streets, declaring my holier-than-thouness because hey look! i’m better at dying than you if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say ‘expectations’ i’ve been naturally small my entire life and now, but now i lose myself when i grow i might say ‘childhood’ reverting to my prepubescent body no breasts and when sex was just a word muddled with giggles if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say ‘addiction’ a habit that can’t be kicked craving the buzz, the high of manipulating my insides i might say ‘death’ i’m not that happy anyway so why not drive my body to the edge, tempting it to quit? if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say nothing because i do not know it’s not like it matters because you don’t ask because you don’t know either

—i don’t know, you don’t know, no one knows // 01.22.18

[bpdamn]

sucks that i’ve lost my life to mental illness just because some people thought it was okay to treat me like shit

[100reasonstorecover-blog]

Eating Disorder Recovery Websites

1) http://eatingdisorderrecovery.com/index.php/home - Features a free eating disorder recovery workbook that helps you manage eating disorder symptoms. Includes blogs to help inspire eating disorder recovery. Allows visitors to post and discuss problems and questions in a forum that is monitored.

2) http://www.recoveryboat.com/ - A website that offers peer support for eating disorder recovery. This site includes a forum for those struggling. It also provides basic information about eating disorders for those suffering and those supporting a loved one who is suffering. Lastly, it provides some therapy exercises that can help overcome eating disorder behaviours and symptoms.

3)      http://www.something-fishy.org/ - An all exclusive website that provides a treatment finder, forums, eating disorder information, hotlines, and more. This site even includes resources for books and self-help worksheets to help combat eating disorder symptoms and behaviours.

4) http://www.webiteback.com/ - A pro-recovery website that exists to help others overcome their eating disorder and to combat pro-ana websites. This site provides a forum for users to post on to get advice and share struggles of their eating disorder. This site also provides an extensive resource list for those struggling.

5)  http://www.nedic.ca/index.shtml – The National Eating Disorder Information Centre. This website features all you need to know about eating disorders. It has a resource library that includes links on where to get help. NEDIC runs public service announcements and campaigns that you can get involved with in your own community.

6) http://www.eatingdisordersblogs.com/ - This site is a compilation of blogs written by different people to help inspire you to overcome your eating disorder. You can find blogs written by Doris Smeltzer, Karen Koenig, and even Jenni Schaefer. These blogs provide information on eating disorders, skills you can use to recover, and resources you can access.

7) http://www.mirror-mirror.org/ - This is a site dedicated to help promote awareness for eating disorders. It helps to educate about the dangers of eating disorders. It also has links to resources on getting support for your eating disorder. It provides information on relapses and has a relapse prevention plan. It gives a lot of ideas on coping skills to deal with the hard emotions you feel instead of using eating disorder symptoms.

8) http://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/ - This website is dedicated to advocacy for eating disorder recovery. It provides resources to help teach about what eating disorders really look like. This site provides resources for recovery as well. This is the organization that holds the National Eating Disorder Awareness Week, held at the end of February. This site provides stories of hope that encourages others to seek out recovery.

9) http://eatingdisorderscoalition.org/ - Advocacy at its best! This site is your guide to help get legislators and representatives to hear your voice and get legal action for eating disorder help and recovery. You can find facts and information about eating disorders on this site. You can learn how you can advocate and lobby for eating disorder recovery at the federal and state level.

10) http://www.mentorconnect-ed.org/ - A website that pairs mentors and mentees together to help support those in eating disorder recovery. The purpose is to pair those who have been in recovery and those who are struggling with an eating disorder to share experiences, provide guidance and to help each other through the journey of recovery. 

[petite-pastel]

Reblogging this every time I see it.

Please take care of yourself. Recovery always is an option.

[stick-thin-doll-deactivated2018]

Recovery is hard, but it’s beautiful and worth it! I promise you can get your life back

[purrsplace]

I don’t want anybody to look at my blog and think I condone this bullshit lifestyle. It sucks, and here are some ways you can help yourself. Stay safe.

[quotefeeling]

“Be nice to yourself. It’s hard to be happy when someone is being mean to you all the time.”

— Christine Arylo (via perfectquote)

[cockroachmotherfucker10]

Hey, whatever drove you to your eating disorder, I just wanted to say I’m sorry.

Weather it was a fatphobic comment overheard during class, or bullying, or a “health” obsessed parent, or a society saturated in diet culture, or trauma, or anything else; I’m sorry.

You were wronged. You may never hear it from the people or things that influenced it, so hear it from me.

You deserve better.

I’m sorry.

[dedfairyboy]

reblog if you’re constantly torn between wanting to say fuck it and eat whatever you want and wanting to starve yourself till you die

[pensermaigre]

everybody gangsta until the food start having calories