during my darkest times i always find myself back on here. it's the only place i've ever felt comfortable being transparent without it coming off as if i'm attention seeking.
i feel myself going back into my shell and i think its for the best. i've been lashing out on everyone that i talk to and rightfully so. i'm tried of people feeling like they can speak to me anyway that they like. i'm tired of people talking to me about their problems when i know that what i'm dealing with is life or death. stop wasting my time with your bullshit. stop using me for your own gain. i'm tired of being the constant energy source for people who feed off of light and love. create your own peace.
i'm so selfish with my time right now because all i've got to lose is time. time is currency and we take it for granted every day. i'm so grateful to be living back at home i feel like it was fate. as much as i was fighting it it's almost like the universe pushed me here and right in the nick of time.
i'm dedicating the rest of my life to my family and taking care of everyone for as long as i'm here. i'm devoting myself to being a reliable person not only for my son and my family but for myself.
all of this outside noise is just clutter. it doesn't matter. all of our paths are different and as much as it's nice to connect sometimes it's even nicer to disconnect and just live in the reality of your situation. escapism isn't going to make it go away.
you keep running and running until you run right back into yourself.
