scene isn't dead

ind. trans girl stan/sadie marsh. temp dash/mobile only. follows back from chasingchacs WIP

[crimscnmarsh]

Okay but here me out: spiderman au

[fresh-hot-rp-memes]

Chats With My Bro

Revised version from my oooold blog

“He was like some serial murderer, politician, and used-car salesman hybrid pulled from the womb of the freshest of hells.”

“What was that, a snail?!”

“I’d like to speak to your McManager.”

“I don’t like mirrors because they are said to hold spirits and trapped spirits are angry spirits and I’m not fucking with that.”

“Them are some weird looking cacti.”

“Dude, I saw an abandoned tree house in the woods. Let’s drop out of school, become cryptids, and live there.”

“Hoo, that’s minty fresh!”

“That’s not a friend, that’s a rattle snake.”

“Who the hell calls earth juice water?”

“I don’t know what it is but I think I can get it to run Doom.”

“A group of squids is called a squad.”

“A group of toads is called a congregation.”

“Oh God, it tastes like tuition fees and tears.”

“Don’t worry, I’m here to save the gay!”

“What was that noise you just made?”

“Wait a heck!”

“That is not a friend spider. That is a venom boy.”

“You are not allowed at the table until you wash your nasty self.”

“I’m not high, this is just who I am as a person.”

“Don’t be the kid who puts staples in their paper hornets.”

“I just saw a group of wasps take down their queen. Holy shit.”

“The sun looks really dusty.”

“That... that’s the moon, bro.”

“Oh — oh no, I hecked up. I hecked it up. I’m such a hecker.”

[scarletxspider-deactivated20131]

send me a ✿ and i’ll generate a number.

[rpmemes-galore]

1: aggressive kiss

2: all over kiss

3: back kiss

4: cheek kiss

5: eyelid kiss

6: fingers kiss

7: firm kiss

8: first kiss

9: forehead kiss

10: french kiss

11: gentle kiss

12: scar kiss

13: hand kiss

14: jawline kiss

15: last kiss

16: neck kiss

17: rain kiss

18: stomach kiss

19: underwater kiss

20: upside down kiss

[selfsaving]

A  FUCKED  UP  KISSING  MEME  bc  who  needs  soft  kisses  when  you  can  have  This   !

(   send  me   ‘  💔  ’   to  generate  the  angsty  way  that  our  muses  kiss.  feel  free  to  specify  a  number  or  who  is  kissing  who  if  you’d  like.   )

a  kiss  when  it’s  not  wanted.

a  kiss  when  it’s  not  allowed.

a  violent  kiss.

a  bloody  kiss.

a  lying  kiss.

a  kiss  as  a  warning.

a  kiss  on  an  injury  your  muse  gave  to  mine.

a  kiss  on  an  injury  my  muse  gave  to  yours.

a  kiss  accompanying  your  muse  injuring  mine.

a  kiss  accompanying  my  muse  injuring  yours.

a  drunk  /  drugged  kiss.

a   ‘  goodbye  ’   kiss.

a   ‘  please  ’   kiss.

an   ‘  i’m  sorry  ’   kiss.

an   ‘  i’ll  be  back  ’   kiss.

a  kiss  to  gain  control.

a  kiss  to  give  up  control.

a  kiss  that  draws  blood.

a  kiss  with  tears.

a  kiss  that  won’t  be  remembered.

[envybound-a-deactivated20211104]

@crimscnmarsh

it’s been long. too long. he knew she wouldn’t react well- would probably try and pull away. and he could be patient. to an extent. he’d been waiting- messaging her every day. talking to her as stan whenever she would acknowledge him. but he’s starting to get pretty fucking sick of it. and the first message he gets in a long time is more than enough to push him over the edge.

ʜᴏʟʏ ꜰᴜᴄᴋɪɴɢ ꜱʜɪᴛ, ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ᴀ ʜɪɴᴛ, ᴀꜱꜱʜᴏʟᴇ.

he knows she can’t see him- but he hopes she can somehow feel the curl of his lip. the intensity of his glare. the grip on his phone tightening in frustration- anger. what right did she have to ignore him in the first place? what made her think that she could do this now? after everything. no, he would not fucking stand for this. 

ɴᴏ, ᴜ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ᴀ ꜰᴜᴄᴋɪɴɢ ʜɪɴᴛ, ꜱᴛᴀɴ

ᴜ ʜᴀᴠᴇ 2 ᴏᴘᴛɪᴏɴꜱ!

ᴇɪᴛʜᴇʀ ᴜ ꜱᴛᴀʀᴛ ꜰᴜᴄᴋɪɴɢ ᴛᴀʟᴋɪɴɢ 2 ᴍᴇ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ

ᴏʀ ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ꜰᴜᴄᴋɪɴɢ ᴍᴏɴᴛʜꜱ ᴏꜰ ʟᴏɢɢᴇᴅ ᴄᴏɴᴠᴇʀꜱᴀᴛɪᴏɴꜱ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴄᴀɴ ɢᴇᴛ ᴏᴜᴛ

ᴜ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅɴᴛ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛʜᴀᴛ, ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴜ?

ꜱᴀᴅɪᴇ?

[crimscnmarsh]

months and months of befriending someone, talking to them all day every day -- someone who seemed to actually give a fuck. months of taking shit from cartman while spilling her guts to CAT, of --lies and fucking being the punchline to a slowburning joke. wouldn't react well? well, that was a bit of an UNDERSTATEMENT, don't you think?

sadie was enraged down into her bones, unable to function properly or do more than play at normal. bottle upon bottle filled her evenings, now, instead of the chime of notifications she's grown used to. ( not to day that having a ... PARTNER didnt mean that she didn't still have issues with it, but in the course of one night she's severed herself from her entire support system, floundering and mourning for it the same she would as if it were a limb she's done away with instead. )

talking to cartman in public is something Stan would do, so she keeps up the act --she can't tell any of her friends exactly WHY she was pissed at the fatass, anyway. but he couldn't take that, it wasn't enough for him-- no. instead he had to keep messaging her over and over and over again. phone chimes in a familiar way, drunken groan slipping past the girl's lips from where she laid on her bed. couldn't he just STOP, she's made her point oretty--eyes widen as she takes in the screen, fingers tightening around a empty bottle as she reads the messages over and over again, just to make sure that she got it right. a long second passes, before she's thumbing across the screen with nausea churning her stomach.

fuck.

Oh my god.

You woulfn't rswlly ...

( yes, he would )

What the fuck do u eveb want me to say dude??

[mashpotatoe]

@eq epic emo moment 

[crimscnmarsh]

" mariah carey's song starting with i dont want a lot for christmas and then going on with how all she wants is you is the sickest burn, dude. "

[crimscnmarsh]

honestly just hit me, it can work ✿

Kees kees ;; accepting

32. Forced kiss

blue eyes stare wide and disbelieving at the chubby bastard in front of her. " no fucking way. dude. " he can't actively make her do things like that --except, he one hundred percent could. he has everything he needs to basically get her to dance like a puppet on his string. and even worse, he knows it.

it wasn't like she hasn't kissed him before. a few in public, their first kiss when he lost it and fucking slammed his mouth into hers and let her in on the fact that he knew who she really was. that he was technically her GIRLFRIEND ( and, a panicked thought entered her head -- if this lasts long enough for an anniversary, would he force her to celebrate the day that cat and sadie started dating as opposed to the day the blackmail started ? ) but those kisses were initiated by him. he leaned in, kissed her, said some shit loudly to kyle about him being jealous at not having a boyfriend when it was met with the anticipated disgust. she hadn't actually started any of it yet. it was for show, and wasn't...real.

but he deals with her, and is her BOYFRIEND and real boyfriends deserve real kisses.

a small peck won't do in this setting -- it's eric fucking cartman, of course he wants more than that. he wants to mock her about how much she wants him, wants to take it to far and belittle her like she's the needy one. ( or, a traitorous part of her brain that has been FAR too active lately chimes in, maybe he actually just wants to kiss you. )

there's a moment where sadie's just sat on his bed, squirming under his gaze and feeling small and nauseous ( whether her normal brand of nerves or other, she doesn't bother picking through) before she cracks. slowly moving in, like she's afraid he's going to try something and fuck with her even more, she closes her eyes and presses her lips against his own.

it's actually -- not that bad.

a soft sort of relieved sound fills the room, hand raising and curling in eric's hair as she stays there for maybe a minute or two longer than she intended. she only really manages to stop herself and come back to her senses when she realizes she was gravitating towards him, almost putting herself in his lap and full on MAKING OUT with him instead of just a kiss. that thought should've been like a bucket of cold water, but instead she just pulls away a little with a flaming face and churning stomach.

" there, are you happy ?" sadie cant even look at him anymore, gaze falling to the bedspread she was suddenly Very Interested in. it hadn't meant shit, it was just nice to get physical affection in general when she's been aching for it so long, really ...

maybe she WAS the needy one

[btchnet]

crimscnmarsh‌:

“ dude. that’s easier said than done. ” but she still does her BEST to stop moving around, instead her finger now tapping at her thigh to get rid of the restless energy. “ i doubt i’m going to actually end up goddess level, wends. ”

     “Not with that attitude, you’re not.” Wendy shoots back, near instantly– their canvas still isn’t still enough, so they put a hand along Sadie’s cheek. Y’know. To stabilize. “Believe in me, here, I know what I’m doing.” They say, and lean close. Closer than they need to, probably– but hey; they’re trying to concentrate.

[crimscnmarsh]

well. leaning in that close does have one good effect --sadie goes completely still, now. flush eats its way up from her neck, staining pale skin red as breath hitches a bit. stomach is a churning, now even more queasy than it always is around wendy. she hopes it wasn't exactly obvious, but knowing her it definitely was. " o-okay, " a hard swallow bobs at her throat. " i trust you. "

[startersbygrimsley]

angsty starter pack #1 !!

NOTE; these are NOT from specific shows, books, etc. DO NOT ask references. there are from MY TRAIN OF THOUGHT.

TW; SUICIDE, DRUGS, ALCOHOL

“ you can’t run from me. ” “ it’ll heal, i promise. ” “ don’t love me! hate me! ” “ you know nothing will work…right…? ” “ you’re ruining yourself. ” “ i can stop when i want. ” “ just…please, stay away from me. ” “ don’t get involved with someone like me - i’ll break your heart. ” “ you’re changing. ” “ i hate loving you. ” “ this has gone on long enough. ” “ i can’t stand you anymore!! ” “ you’ve got fresh bruises. ” “ you’ve never given me real sympathy, have you? ” “ you’re lying. i can tell by your face. ” “ please stop; you’re scaring me. ” “ go to hell. ” “ it’s like we’re not even lovers anymore. ” “ it’s your fault. ” / “ it’s my fault. ” “ i’ve got enough to do the job. ” “ you’re damn plastered. ” “ spend one night sober, and i’ll consider loving you again. ” “ it’s over. all of it. ”

[galleryofmemesnplots]

send me a ✿ and i’ll generate a number.

If the generator is being lame, just choose something that works for the muses.

aggressive/angry kiss

all over kiss

back kiss

cheek kiss

firm kiss

shy kiss

first kiss

forehead kiss

french kiss

gentle kiss

scar kiss

hand kiss

jawline kiss

last kiss

neck kiss

rain kiss

friendly kiss

chaste kiss

stomach kiss

underwater kiss

upside down kiss

spin the bottle kiss

an eskimo kiss

butterfly kisses ( eyelash kiss )

a kiss pressed to each fingertip

a kiss on the hairline

a kiss to the temples

a kiss to the corner of the mouth

a kiss to bruised skin

a kiss on the knuckles

Hot, Steamy kiss

Forced Kiss

Nose Kiss

Gentle Peck

Romantic Kiss

Eyelid Kiss

Collarbone Kiss

Chest/Breast Kiss

Kiss Along the Hips

Navel Kiss

Goofy Kiss

Forceful Kiss

Reunion Kiss

Then there’s tongue

Bear Hug

Sleepy hug

Cuddle hug

Unreciprocated hug

“Far too long since we’ve seen each other” hug

From behind hug

“Something scared me” hug

The Lift hug

One armed hug

The Leg hug

Friendly hug

The emotional hug

Failed hug

Run and Jump hug

Romantic hug

Side hug

Comforting hug

Family hug

Hug around waist

Clinging hug

‘’Don’t let go’’ hug

‘’I thought I’d never see you again” hug

Warm hug

Awkward hug

Cold hug

[envybound-a-deactivated20211104]

@crimscnmarsh

eric cartman is well equipped to deal with whatever may comes his way. he’s talented at improvisation and manipulation, to the point where it’s almost impossible to trip him up. but the message that comes in to cat is enough to have him faltering. staring at the message with a swirling stomach, hands stilled on his keyboard, eyes scanning the words over and over again.

ʏᴏᴜ ᴀʀᴇ ᴍʏ Qᴜᴇᴇɴ ᴀɴᴅ ᴍʏ ꜱᴀᴠɪᴏʀ ᴀɴᴅ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ꜰᴏʀᴇᴠᴇʀ

every time. every single time she messages cat something like this, cartman has to take a minute to respond. to get into the persona of cat, to think about the extensive relationship he’d built between this fake persona and the person hiding underneath stan marsh. to flip the switch and drop the weird feelings in favour of finding his sick entertainment in having her trust him so much. trust the fake persona cartman had made just for her.

ᴀᴡ,,, ɪꜰ ɪᴍ ʏᴏᴜʀ Qᴜᴇᴇɴ ᴛʜᴇɴ ɪʟʟ ꜱᴘᴏɪʟ ʏᴏᴜ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴀ ᴘʀᴏᴘᴇʀ ᴘʀɪɴᴄᴇꜱꜱ, ʙᴀʙʏ ɢɪʀʟ

ᴡʜᴀᴛ’ꜱ ɢᴏᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ꜱᴏ ᴍᴜꜱʜʏ ᴅᴀʀʟɪɴɢ?

he’d retch if this wasn’t so entertaining.

[crimscnmarsh]

sadie cant help the wide grin that splits her face at the words that appear on the screen. blue eyes are lit with affection, taking a second to press heated face into a pillow to try and gain some composure before she messages back. a few words on a screen has her stomach swooping and a warm feeling unfurling in her chest --she can't help but wonder if cat knows just how much POWER she holds over sadie. how easy it is for her to cause the girl to melt, to forget about everything else for just a moment.

I've just had a bad day

and it was true. every day lately seemed to be bad -- cartman louder than usual, every thing he did sitting underneath her skin and itching to the point of near madness. if she scratched the itch, a little, the relief would only be momentarily before everything got worse. she was sure of it. sadie honestly wasn't sure what the fuck was his problem lately, but the only thing really getting her through it was ...

It's better now that I'm talking to you, babe. You always help, and I'm grateful, is all. <33

at least there was ONE person she could be herself around.

[btchnet]

@crimscnmarsh

     “Stop fidgeting. You want your eyeliner to look like shit, or do you want to look like a goddess? I’m good, but I can’t make this happen with you shaking like you’re trying to turn into a maraca.”

[crimscnmarsh]

" dude. that's easier said than done. " but she still does her BEST to stop moving around, instead her finger now tapping at her thigh to get rid of the restless energy. " i doubt i'm going to actually end up goddess level, wends. "