Hey dear!! How are you doing? Are you feeling any pain? I had all my wisdom teeth removed last year and the first day wasnât good, but after that it was okay, but my jaw was swollen for a while tho. I wish you a smooth recovery!! You asked for requests, so I was thinking about this: reader travels with geralt and jaskier. Mutual pining between she and geralt, but they still havenât confessed their feelings. They go to a ball and Yen is there (1/2)
AN/// Sorry this is so late; I have a post explaining everything and how it wasnât as smooth as both of us hoped. This is a great prompt, and thank you so much for the kind words. I was excited to write this! Itâs a little longer, but I hope that makes up for the wait.
  Lights blurred together and she didnât try to blink them into focus, her mind too busy in stealing itself. Y/n was well aware Yen could read her mind at any moment, and she could let herself wander into emotional territory. Instead, she focused on how loud the room was, and how it made her head pound. Voices mixed together, none distinguishable at this point. She was sure that if she focused, she could make out the conversation between Yen and Geralt that unfolded right in front of her, but that was risky business. She could never look at the witcher without her heart racing, love grasping every part of her being.
Feet stomped across the dancefloor, drowning out her friendâs playing, though if the small trio they sported wasnât at the other end of the room, she might be able to hear it better. The room was hot, despite the cool night. She struggled to keep the empty glass clinched between her fingers as she started to sweat. It had been years since she had worn a dress, the extra fabric not helping. Y/n tried not to sway as the heels of her shoes started to make her feet hurt. Jaskier had helped her create the outfit, and she started to regret not insisting the flat shoes she had mentioned at the beginning of the process.
People moved around them, their figures blurring along with the lights. Their forms making the room even louder, warmer. Her knees were locked, but she could only focus on keeping her mind shut. Yen was a powerful woman, and it is intimidating- youâd be a fool to think otherwise. It was hard for the woman not to compare herself to the sorceress in the moment, especially since sheâd been doing it since they first met years ago.
âY/n?â Her eyes snapped into focus as her name was called. She looked between the two sets of eyes staring at her. Violet ones, filled with amusement, and molten gold, filled with what she could only hope was concern. She cleared her throat, looking down to her glass.
âIâm⊠going to get fresh air.â The woman gave a curt nod, mainly for herself in agreement, and walked away, still feeling both gazes on her back. Everything continued to blend together until she finally made it onto the balcony. Y/n started to gasp, a hand going to the tightened bodice. The other grasped the railing and her eyes had to blink away tears.
There was so much hope built for the night. After Jaskier was asked to play at the party, the two spent the whole day preparing. Jaskier for his show, and Y/n had prepared to simply ride along until the bard insisted tonight was the night. He had been along for the ride for half a decade in the adventure that was her infatuation with the witcher. Everything from her hair to the dress was tailored special, all with the help of the bard. While at first she had been against it, not wanting to risk years of friendship, she had caved. Though, it had all been thrown away once golden eyes found violet. Geralt had been what she could only call giddy, and heâd been posted by the sorceressâs side since. And it hurt.
Y/n was the one who was always there, defending him, representing him and loving him. Of course, he had never asked for any of that, but she had given it. It was only three nights ago where they had sat in comfortable silence under the same stars she looked to now. It was a normalcy for them, as she always stayed up when he woke from nightmares. It had been a busy day then, filled with brewing potions and decoctions, as Geralt trusted her with certain recipes to help out. The woman could remember the first time he taught them to her, and the small, timid smile he gave. He mentioned how his teacher would be furious if he found out Geralt gave away âwitcher secretsâ, but he knew the knowledge would be safe with her. It was small moments like that that made her fall for him, and had her convinced he felt the same.
But it always comes down to Yen. Y/n always convinces herself once more that he feels the same until the sorceress glides back into their lives. Y/n never spoke of Yen and her assumptions or questions, though she knew Jaskier caught on to her envy. Anytime the bard would try and sooth her worries, she would change the subject, the would-be truth too hard to face. However, tonight was the night. It was all or nothing. The trio had travelled close enough to her hometown, so if he had rejected her, she would be able to slip away easily. She felt somewhat guilty about planning to leave. She hadnât told Jaskier about her plan upon rejection, and she knew Roach would be raw about it too. The witcher once had said how frustrating it was, knowing Roach loved her more. The mare would always take her side when fights happened, never letting her usual rider on, no matter how frustrating it was for him. Geralt was particular, however, and she wouldnât dare overuse her stay among the party if he didnât feel the same.
Y/n was lost in thought, even as someone approached, which was uncommon for her. She was on autopilot when she responded to the thrown-out phrase,
âDoth my eyes deceive me?â
âProbably, Iâm blind.â Her tone was quiet compared to the excited baritone who initiated, though excitement flooded through her as realization dawned. She turned around quickly, a smile gracing her for the first time since arriving at the party. Before her was her childhood friend, who stayed by her side until she left with the witcher and bard. âFelix!â He gave a smile in return, giving a sarcastic bow before opening his arms. The embrace was warm and a great change of pace. They parted, though he kept an olive toned hand on her shoulder.
âY/n, itâs great to see you. Itâs been, what, half a decade? At some point I started to wonder if you were simply an imaginary friend.â She laughed, and his smile grew.
âWell, you are crazy enough for that to be in the realm of possibility.â
âExactly, thatâs why I was worried.â Again, they both laughed, making their way to the balcony. His hand dropped, though his arm rubbed against hers as they stared out into the night sky. âIâm surprised youâre back. And at a party, no less.â The woman shrugged, trusting him, though not wanting to give too much away.
âThe entertainment tonight is a good friend. We travel together, and I came to support him.â It wasnât necessarily a lie, but too much time has passed to tell the whole truth. While Felix had been supportive of her leaving, she remembers how warry he was of the witcher.
âWell, Iâm glad. Itâs great to see you.â There was no response, though there was something she wanted to say. She wanted to apologize for leaving him, knowing he wanted to break out of the town just as much as she had. But he was a nobleâs son, he couldnât come with.
âHowâs the family,â was all she could come up with. Y/n practically flinched at her own inquiry, knowing that everything was muddled with her at the moment. They were close, though she never felt how she did with Geralt. She was never in love. Childhood infatuation, maybe, but she knew she couldnât be with Felix. Everyone in town knew the brunette next to her wanted to ask for her hand, but she left the first moment she could.
âFine. Canât complain, I guess. The estate is good too. I should be taking over in the next year or so.â She nodded, not really knowing how to get out what she wanted to say. Her mind kept reeling back to Geralt and Yen, and what they would be up to, and it ate away at her. âAre you staying or passing through?â
âOh, uhâŠjust passing. Or maybe staying. Iâm not entirely sure yet.â They stood in silence for a moment before Felix knocked against the railing. He turned to face her, giving a small smile.
âWell, could I ask for a dance?â Y/n opened her mouth to decline before he dropped his head, peering at her through thick lashes. âJust as a farewell dance. Or maybe a welcome back dance, if you do decide to stay.â Her mouth shut, and she looked to her hands. The only people sheâd be hurting by saying no where Felix and herself. Geralt seemed pretty preoccupied at the moment anyways. She looked back up with a smile, agreeing.
Arm and arm they moved to the dance floor, Y/n trying to block out years of secret smiles the witcher had given her. The sharing of warmth at night when it was only a little chilly. The brushed knuckles as they walked side by side. Mornings and nights spent attached at the hips in perfect contentment. His broken compliments given to her, and his flustered brooding that followed. Fingers lingering a little too long on skin when tending to injured areas. Personal secrets shared over liters of ale. All of it had to be steeled away.
Hands found hands, shoulders and hips. Her eyes found Jaskierâs confused gaze, but she brushed him off, trying to make Felix the subject of the moment. And after a while, he was. After stepping on his feet, and bumping into other couples, the two lost time, smiling and laughing the whole way. Felix had asked for one dance, but they spent more than three together. All of them were upbeat, and they both were out of breath. It seemed Jaskier finally needed a break, slower strums filling the air. Felix stared down at his old friend; a large smile spread over his visage. He started to lean in, when a low gruff was heard behind her. Y/nâs eyes widened, knowing the huff anywhere, turning in Felixâs arms to find Geralt, standing very uncomfortably in the middle of the floor. If Y/n wasnât so engrossed in the amber eyes in front of her, she would have noted that Jaskierâs lyrics were supposed to come in two measures ago. Th bard seemingly also entranced by the scene before him. Blue eyes found violet, and she gave a smirk, suggesting this was her idea.
âGeralt, what are you doing here?â He cleared his throat, looking away for a moment before looking at her skirt.
âWe came here together.â It took a moment, but Y/n let out a small snort, something she only did with him. Usually she kept up appearances, even with her laugh, though she always herself with him. Even now, she couldnât think of Yen or Felix. Only the witcher she adored.
âI meant on the dance floor.â HE gave a curt nod, closing his eyes, almost as if readying himself.
âTo ask you to dance.â The witcher glared at the ceiling when she took a moment to process what he had just said.
âMe? ToâŠdance? What about Yennefer?â Geraltâs brow raised as his eyes met hers.
âWell⊠werenât you two conversing? You seemed pretty engrossed.â His eyes flew over her shoulder to find said woman smiling. The sorceress had said Y/n would say something like that. It was among the many things she said would be spoken, among things like a confession, to which he had scoffed at. Though Yen was heavy set on Geralt asking her to dance. The two had a relationship once, though it turned to an easy friendship after realizing it wouldnât work out. Mainly because, despite the djinn entangling their futures, Geraltâs heart belonged to Y/n. The wolf shrugged, not knowing how to continue. Though he started to glare once more, and Y/n followed his glare over her shoulder to Felix. Guilt started to eat away, but he spoke up before she could say anything.
âIt was great to see you again, Y/n.â He bowed his head before disappearing into the crowd. He turned back to the witcher, who looked more uncomfortable than when he arrived. His jaw was tight, but he stepped closer, eyes still looking to where Felix disappeared before seemingly scolding himself.
âIâm sorry.â Her heart dropped, thinking he already knew of her affections. That he would reject her before she could even ask. She too cleared her throat, not being able to meet his gaze either.
âHe seemed nice.â Her brow raised before she met amber again.
âFelix was a childhood friend. He holds title at an estate not too far from here. It was nice to see him again, though he surely has other people to rub elbows with here.â They stood in silence as couples floated around them.
âSoâŠdance?â Y/n perked up, stumbling over herself.
âYes! Dance. Love to dance. I mean- I would love to dance. With you.â His hands found her hips and her hands found his shoulders. His eyes couldnât stop roaming over her face, and a flush broke over her cheeks. âI have to admit though, I donât really know how to dance. No matter how slow.â He nodded for a moment before looking into her eyes.
âStand on my feet.â Her brow rose, and again his gaze found the floor. âDancing was apart of training. You need to be able to be as graceful as the creature youâre going against.â Tepidly, she stood on his boots, and he started to flow with the music. She didnât realize it, but her hands had curled into the white locks that rested over the back of his neck. His thumbs pressed into her waist, and they got lost in each otherâs gazes. Jaskier must have been keeping a watchful eye as he played a second slow song. This was it. Now or never.
âGeralt, I⊠Weâve⊠wow, this was way better when I practiced earlier.â
âI remember you saying that you never practice.â
âYes, well,â a small smile broke out on her face. âThis was something that I thought needed it. Itâs very important.â She took a long inhale before looking to the neck that was straight in front of her. Maybe if she isnât looking into those intense eyes, it would make things easier. âGeralt, you are important. To me. You have been for the past five years. But, more than a friend. I know that this jeopardize everything, and Iâll leave if you want me to but-.â
âIâd never ask you to leave. Do you want to leave?â Her eyes found his again, and sadness turned the amber to liquid.
âN-no! I meant that if youâre uncomfortable with my affections towards you, that I would leave. I wouldnât want to make you suffer with someone you donât want to be around.â
âYour affections towards me?â
âYeah. I⊠Geralt, I have come to love you.â Y/n let her eyes close, and her head fall. Geraltâs movements had stopped, except for his hand that cupped the joint of her neck.
âI canât promise to know what love is, but Iâm certain that this is what I think it feels like. I know I canât⊠express things, but I know that I care for you more than Iâve cared for anyone before.â Wide eyes met his own, and he could feel his heart pounding out of his chest. âIf you would have me.â
âYes. Yes, of course I would.â He started to lean down, trying to give her time to back out, despite professing her own love. Geralt was aware how difficult he was at times, but he also knew that she was a rare happiness in his life. His heart seemed to be at a normal human rate whenever sheâs near. Her scent had become something he was addicted to. Waking up without her aroma became foreign, and unwelcome. Her soft, caring gaze was something he saw whenever his eyes closed.
Their lips connected, noses brushing against each other. The witcher seemed timid, Y/n pushing into it further to show she wanted it. Wanted him. To have and to hold, till death do they part.