fuck you anyways.

when i wake up i'm afraid somebody else might take my place. TW: SUICIDE, SELF-HARM, BRUISES, BLOOD, DRUGS

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i can't believe it i really really like dawit.

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dont say its ok because i know its not

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i love you 

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the totally human and normal boyfriend,

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dave said to give him some time but i;m just so scared i hate it  i cant breathe 

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i'm emotionally beat and i blame that all on me for hoping on it. like hey god can i have a fucking decent relationship where none of them die please just i'm sorry for whatever i've done to honestly deserve this? i'm so tired seeing people i love die and i';m so sorry i DON'T WANT TO SEE IT AGAIN BECAUSE LAST NIGHT YOU KISSED ME AND I THOUGHT THINGS WERE GOING TO BE OKAY BUT YOU COULD BE DEAD AND I WOULDN'T KNOW AND I HATE THIS IT'S TEARING ME INSIDE OUT EVEN IF YOU ARE ALIVE I CAN'T RECOVER FROM SOMETHING LIKE THIS PLEAE S PLEASE PLAS PLEASE JUST L IVE

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i can't bretahe oh ogm

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you lkonw things were going great and then this shit happened fucking christ can i be emotinally stable for a week 

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im not going to cry but iended up crying anyways oh my god 

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PANIC PANIC PANIC PANIC 

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this is the first time i'm like actually shy and not anxious like this is shyness oh my godd i'm not anxious i'm actaully being really shy about this ah.

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nobody says ill get a sapphire bracelet because it matches your eyes and then pretend nothing happened oh my god im so flustrede. 

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a date. 

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sometimes i wonder if it'll work again. 

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falling back again. 

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ive missed you too 

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in that way i mean! i know it's not going to work and that makes me sad.