TRAIN OF THOUGHTS

I'm not much now, but I'll be so much more later...

[wnq-writers]

Be like the ocean. Breathtaking to look at, strong enough to not be destroyed, and gentle enough so others find comfort in your presence.

cwbrooke (via wnq-writers)

[wnq-writers]

I imagined and wrote of you in those complexity of words yet you took me as the simplest one out of all

432pm (via wnq-writers)

[wnq-writers]

To be deeply known is ecstasy.

Myss Bradley (via wnq-writers)

[crumbledcookies-blog]

This week, I thought I might have lost my mind. A week of trying to fight off a nervous breakdown and anxiety. A week of being constantly on the verge of break down and yet somehow still, I came out of it whole and I'm quite sure that it's because of this.

[wordsnquotes]

A thousand moments that I had just taken for granted ― mostly because I had assumed that there would be a thousand more.

Morgan Matson, Second Chance Summer (via psych-facts)

[crumbledcookies-blog]

Persist. Endure.

You're the worst kind because you leave, but not completely You walk away and yet you leave something to hold on to. You make me feel like a pathetic message in a bottle a promise trapped in the ocean Forever enduring the endless waves Both receding and advancing into the vast unknown Until someone eventually (or hopefully) Breaks or picks me up like an abandoned debris You're the worst kind because you can't find it in you To entirely annihilate the fire you've started You simply let it burn, quietly, excruciatingly...

[crumbledcookies-blog]

Gusto ko ng bumababa sa kapatagan.

[crumbledcookies-blog]

Cheering myself up

Breath. That’s the first step. Don’t think too much and just be aware of your breathing. Today was terrible. You had very little sleep, too much work and it seems like the week’s going to last forever.

Move. Take small steps, don’t stress yourself but make sure that something’s accomplished. Don’t slump in the corner and wallow, that will not get you anywhere.

Eat, remember that nourishment is key to a good day. Feed yourself with good food and a great day will follow (hopefully), well at least a full stomach is one less thing to worry about. Drink your tea, eat your chocolates, get that scrumptious take out, or go get a salad. What’s important is feed yourself.

Rest. I know you have five hundred things that you need to do but before anything else remember to be kind to yourself. A good rest leads to better productivity.

[psych-facts]

There are all these moments you think you won’t survive. And then you survive.

David Levithan (via psych-facts)

Here's for today and the whole month of May.

[crumbledcookies-blog]

Our Banahaw weekend in sum was: 1. All about rocks. Rocks of all kinds. Rocks that lead you to steep falls and rocks that lead you to safety. Rocks hidden in the depths of the earth. Rocks that are stiff and beautiful in the bright sun. Rocks that keep you from resurfacing and rocks that guide you to find the peak of the mountain. So, there are all sorts of rock in our life, if you're careful enough to pick the right one you might just end up finding yourself in a really good place.

[oblivionstreet]

Lonely People, You Are Not The Worst In This World

People are romanticizing loneliness too much, making it sound poetic and beautiful and you would believe it at first until you’ve come to the point when you want to talk to somebody but all what’s in your phonebook are just letters and numbers or wanting to go somewhere with someone but ending up going there alone and sure, you’ll tell people it’s nice, it’s solitary—that it’s an amazing experience but later that night when you’re lying down on the bed good for two in that rented cabin somewhere, you ask yourself if you’re the worst person in this world because of all the seven billion humanbeing in this planrt, no one chose to be with you there but you’ll scratch that thought because you’ll tell yourself that you don’t need anyone to be happy but somewhere in the back of your mind, someone’s whispering that it wouldn’t hurt to have some company.

[crumbledcookies-blog]

[gushingshamelessly-blog]

This is how my Friday night looked like with my favorite set of boys. They are definitely a dandy bunch.

[crumbledcookies-blog]

I loved you like midnight — dark, restless and lonely but full of moonswept light. #maymasabilang #life #vsco #nature #life

[crumbledcookies-blog]

Hanggang kailan kaya ako maghihintay? #busstop

[crumbledcookies-blog]

In my elements

It seems like because there’s less than a month before the semester ends, the days are beginning to feel like years and this makes the countdown to freedom more excruciating. 

May will definitely be the month of long nights and sleepy days. It will be the make it or break it month. Hopefully, this time around, I make it without so much damage. Last year, I survived the semester, however, I lost so much weight, sleep and peace of mind. It almost seemed as if, I needed, at least one week of body rest to recover from the trauma. 

This year, was definitely more challenging. In a single semester, I have three big projects to complete and that is: my thesis, my investigative report and our short film. So far, I’ve been faring well in all aspect. 

If you’re going to ask me, this might be the easiest semester so far, despite of the massive amount of work load. Maybe, it’s because of the fact that I no longer feel isolated from everyone else and to top it of, it seems like I have finally build enough confidence to believe in myself. 

I am better than ever and I can’t wait to face the real world. 

Although, what’s upsetting is the fact that I haven’t been reading much lately.  I haven’t even finished ten books and we’re almost halfway done with the year. But on the good side, at least I have been writing. Not necessarily the kind of writing that I like, since academic writing is more like deadpan, soul-less writing. But it’s still writing nonetheless.

For the first time ever, I can actually proclaim that I AM IN MY ELEMENTS. I don’t feel out of place, I am doing things that I am passionate about and I feel motivated to do things. Hopefully, this goes on until the end of my days.

Obviously, there are a few aspects of my life that I want to nourish, and that includes friendship and romance. However, I believe that my friends are always there, even if we haven’t been seeing each other a lot lately. The romance side on the other hand, well I’m hoping that one day it will find me. 

The romantic side of  my life was never been enriching, it’s either they walk away or I walk away. It’s either I like them or they disappoint me. I pray that as I progress in finding my real identity, while I’m on my way, I would stumble upon the right person. But until then, I shall enjoy my independence

[crumbledcookies-blog]

This is my back hug, my "yes you'll be fine," and my comforting tap on the shoulder in human form. Just when I'm starting to feel abandoned, they snatch you to a night of good beer, good food and great company. And now I don't feel so down. Thank you for making me feel balanced.