"I was never good enough for my father and I'm still carrying the scars of that knowledge and the trauma of what he put me through to reshape me to his liking. this has left me convinced that I can never truly be loved the same way other people can be, I'm too different, too abnormal, I only manage to be tolerated by virtue of my efforts to fit in. luckily I have found a coping mechanism: I will form a bizarre codependency with this random criminal freak who nobody else can stand"

















