you better watch your mouth, sunshine

"if you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave this world knowing the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt with"

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12-10-2023, 4 PM

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[crystaaaaalvisions]

January 2nd, 1983 → Michael Jackson’s iconic song, ’Billie Jean’, is released as the second single off of the ground-breaking and best-selling album in history, ’Thriller’. The single went on to be recognized with numerous awards, including two Grammy’s and one American Music Award. The single itself has sold around 5.6 million copies to date.

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New blog. Ive been there since June. Go follow.

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Why doesn't ur link work?

http://crystaalvisions.tumblr.com

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follow me over here now guizzzeee

[jasminejanaehoppel]

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i did make a new blog

working on trying to follow the majority of you guys.

not posting the url.

you'll have to message me.

i won't be deleting this blog, but working on making the posts private

so like...yeah

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synninviemaa replied to your post: synninviemaa replied to your post: idk i feel...

Im right with you on the making all posts private option thing. Well if you do decide to delete it, Id like to say that I enjoy/ed it either way and your HIM blog is and will always be brilliant to me.

aww :o) thank you! <3 if anything, i'll still probably always maintain that when i can. see where it leads me...big wigs are following the blog's feed on twitter and i think it would be cool MAYBE to be like "yo, you followed this for awhile, let me do a really stupid interview"

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synninviemaa replied to your post: idk i feel like deleting this thing

Your blog? I share that feeling but Ill probably just abandon it. I dont see any benefits from having it anymore.

yep. i just wish there was a...option or something that made all posts private.

i mean, i literally queue everything now, and i'm not even on here for 20 minutes, so what's the point?

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idk i feel like deleting this thing

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[teachingliteracy]

[larvitarr]

[shalrath]

what doesnt kill you gives you exp points

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[crystaaaaalvisions]

I wish I could talk to my grandma again. I miss her. With all my heart. Who she is now is a whole other person. I feel terrible for leaving her, but at the same time, I'm glad I'm away from her, if that makes sense. My last visit with her did not end well at all. I don't know if she's slipping into dementia, but her just the way she acts around my mother and I is not pleasant.

I also miss home. A whole lot. I don't know how many times I have mentioned this.

I love the convenience and the diversity down here. It's great. But at the same time, I miss the total simplicity back home. I miss my friends. I haven't been out with any one my age since March.

Work is the only thing that's going decent. I like my job, and I'm decent at it. It's slightly completive, which is something I like because I am a fairly competitive person. Plus, I can't beat the pay for the small amount of work that I do. The only downside is that it's boring, which is not good for my crappy self-diagnosed ADD.

I don't know, I just can't wait until July when I'm going to be able to come up for a week to visit with friends and family. I think that's what I need. My last 3 months at home were stressful and I really didn't get to see many people due to the fact that it was the middle of the dead fucking winter and other things.

I just really want to stop being sad and try to look forward to things, but it's hard. It's hard because of the whole situation with my grandma, my step-grandma (who's going to be starting chemo treatments soon), and my mother's health scares (she has to go in for a diagnostic mammogram and ultrasound -- they found abnormalities in both of her breasts), I'm still worried about things 95% of the time. I don't know.

I just want one good year, please.