I need to be skinny :(

Hw: 135 lbs. Cw: 129.8 lbs  Gw1: 121 lbs. Gw2: 107 5'6.  ONLY PRO FOR MYSELF 

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Oh no I’ve binged, I hate myself (i ate breakfast)

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When you know your getting bad again

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Missing old ana tumblr, it was so much more motivational

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The weirdest thing ever happened to me…. My mum made me weigh myself and I was 9st 7lbs. I was really upset about it but I weighed myself this morning and I was 9st 3lbs…… I’m so relieved tho cause I didn’t want anyone finding out I’m trying to loose weight.

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MY MUM SAID I LOOKED LIKE I HAD LOST WEIGHT IN MY LEGS!!!! I’m so happy and excited, my legs are such a huge insecurity of mine and I’m so happy!!!! I’ve not even been doing that much, just working out and limiting my portion sizes!!!

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OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD!!! I’ve just seen a photo of my friend and I haven’t seen them all summer and now they have gained so much weight and I’m not gonna see them for another month and a half so now I’m gonna be so skinny compared to them!!!!!!!!!!

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I need someone close to me to get ana so I can constantly be triggered by them and obsess over how skinny they are and if I can beat them at loosing weight, when a close family member had it I could see her and here when we were together I could eat less than her and I knew her weight and bmi and stuff. It was the best. But now she’s recovered. My competitiveness and perfectionism makes me want to be better than everyone I see.

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I hate this, I can’t loose weight, I have so much motivation but I’m such a perfectionist that if I don’t see change or the number on the scale go down after 3 days I give up. I hate it so much. 💔🌹🍓🍒

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IVE JUST WEIGHED MYSELF AND IM 129.5 LBS!!! AND 58.6 KG SO NOW IVE LOST 6 LBS AND IM SO HAPPY!!!

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I NUST WEIGHED MYSELF AND IM UNDER 60KG!!! IM 59.2 BUT IM SO HAPPY

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I want the thighs to be the size of my calves and my calves to be the size of my wrists.

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Two years ago i was disgusted if i weighed over 100 lbs and now im at 132 lbs….. younger me would have been so sick to hear that….

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What i ate yesterday:

Breakfast: Nothing

Lunch: Nothing

Dinner: Salad, vegan meatballs, flatbread, Mayo, roasted sweet potato (513 cal)

Drinks: Iced coffee x3 (120 cal)

Total: 633 cal

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HELP

I’m going on holiday soon and I’ve been on school break so I haven’t been able to skip meals as much, I have to wear a bikini on holiday and I’m stressing out now. Any tips?

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I hate everyone

Out of 5 friends I was 2nd skinniest, then one got an Ed so I was 3rd skinniest. Now another has an Ed and I’m 4th skinniest and the other one left so now I’m the fattest in the friend group. I hate it and I’m sick of being a fat pig. I use to get compliments about how I was so skinny but no one says anything now. It’s the worst feeling in the world.

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I’m backkkk

Hey everyone, I’ve been inactive for so long but I’m back. I was feeling recovered but I’m now starting to relapse again… I’ve lost 3 & 1/4 in a day and I’m so proud of myself. I’m doing so much dance and I’m sick of the teachers asking if I need a bigger costume so I’m deciding to so something about it. I gained 15 lbs in recovery but I’m sick of it. 

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Ffs

i was doing better, I felt ok, I was ok. But going back to school has been awful. My dance teacher made me wear tight clothes and I wanted to cry. i was talking with my mum about mental health and she said ‘I’m so glad you don’t have any of those problems, like I can’t see you having a mental illness’ and then there’s me that starves myself, fidgets wugh the same necklace when I get nervous, picks my cuticles to the point where they are dripping blood, has frequent panic attacks, wants to kill themselves, but cause I don’t show it Im fine.