Curious Cecilia

An archive of thoughts and interests Maja | She/Her | Bisexual 08 🇵🇱

[pollywolly21]

don’t mention a job to me, getting married, having kids, or being an adult to me.

[castielsharp]

[curious-writer08]

this is what I come home to, no cause i had like four fics ready for me

[curious-writer08]

Am I unlucky with relationship stuff or am I not looking in the right places ?

[curious-writer08]

Little winter break in Poland cause I had to get my wisdom teeth removed 😪🤚

[pageafterpaige]

I want to be pretty the way celebrities are in gifs

@curious-writer08 @abtruseamber

[curious-writer08]

The need to be remembered

(of course the honorable mention of Drag Path 🗣️🗣️ as I find this song to really link to this topic)

The idea that we are willing to leave a mark of our existence on the surface we call our home is something I find so intimate about the human race. The bits we leave behind has the potential to have an impact, even if it's between two people or the rest of the world.

We are desperate to document something or show how the world affects us. We create, learn, educate, discover and then pass it on. I find it incredible that an individual can create something so significant to our society that everyone knows its under your name, because even decades after you have passed from this realm people instantly know who you were, and why you are known.

We have succumbed to this pattern of recognizing that we are ought to act upon a certain calling. Branding your identity with something that your soul is drawn to. A prophecy you are yet to discover as you unravel in front of the pathways we call a lifetime.

Everything you come across, whether by accident or not, it was meant to happen and some way or another that thing will find you. And that thing will drive your inner passions and be the guide to your own personal discovery.

As a creative individual, someone who lives for the arts, is influenced by it on a daily basis and depends on it in order to keep my ideas flowing. The idea that humans yearn to be remembered is so important to me. I believe that it is our purpose to explore and eventually leave something behind - an artefact. As artists we create in various ways: we place, paint, sketch, compose, embed and capture the essences of our existence purely because of how much it captivates our small souls. The human experience is so expansive that our minds need to quickly document it before we move onto the next.

'Cueve de las Manos'

the multitudes of famous artists in which humans cry when experiencing their works just because of how much it moves our souls, one word that reminds me of this feeling is on is an audiophile (hear me out) "an enthusiast dedicated to high-fidelity (hi-fi) sound reproduction, seeking the most accurate, realistic, and detailed audio experience". The reason why I think this is important to know is clear, we all have preferences to music and the reason for it is because we all resonate with something specific, to whatever our soul desires.

that one summer memory when you find a tree and etch an initial of a friendship or a potential lover

the signatures we create so that people know its yours

our handwritings

the stacks of photo albums that lay on your shelves

millions of documents uploaded onto the internet

books we leave as discographies, biographies and the stories we dream about

We as well, whether we are conscious of doing it, we are slowly but surely leaving crumbs of our beings on this earth. You visit a local cafe for the last time before you move houses or we speak about our passions that leave people speechless and up on their feet with standing ovations.

We all leave an impact in some way or another and that fuels our ambitions to do even more.

(truly hope this was a good blog post for people to read- it was more of an overview of this topic as this is something that could literally be written into a book or pdf itself.) Until next time, stay blessed and stay freaky !! 😽💞

[curious-writer08]

I’d love to read some of your poetry. I noticed you haven’t posted any of your own yet.

I have some but they are free verse, I feel like my personal writing isn't considered poetry but just free writing in attempt to creating something that shows more meaning then just stating the obvious. I will try and upload one of them this week !!

[unreliablenarreader]

Puppeteer

My sweet girl, my primrose path;

Beauty and desire, burned together into one.

Perfect angel descended from stars.

Couldn’t be captured or contained,

Moaned and groaned when I molded her wings.

She glowed with smoldering heat,

Power crescendoed from a heavenly body,

“The devil lived inside her;”

Because I placed him there,

And she was beckoned far from Eden.

I longed for performance,

“Dance for me pretty girl, do my bidding.”

She lived for connection,

“Let me take you by the hand,

I want to show you my world.”

Her free-will paired with mine,

But she created everything.

Love was her magnum opus;

All the world and those within it,

Her canvas, her blank page, tabula rasa.

She picked up the pen while it was still aflame,

And rewrote me into a new existence.

When a Goddess ascends into your world,

“Be observant and experience;”

Be innocent as doves, and wise as serpents;

For she has want for nothing more from you.

She was so much more than pixels on a page,

The realest Spirit I ever divined.

And she colored my life,

With a wonderful paradox, a holy confusion,

“A staticky screen;”

Until the lights cut out.

-Garrison

[curious-writer08]

This is so intimate, l love poetry that forces you to wonder the writers perspective with the only clues you are giving, your imagination is played with as you’re given multiple scenes

[charnel-grounds]

Alfred Kubin (1877–1959), “Der Sumpf” (The Swamp), c. 1903-05

source

[curious-writer08]

I never understand why people have lost the time to admire how artists would normally potray women through their feminine bodies because these days its just seen as too vulgar or through lustful eyes..

[yuujies]

[curious-writer08]

I still remember the way this film left me, knowing it was his last works it really moved me

brilliant film 😝🙏

[curious-writer08]

2026?

Starting Tumblr only as I'm about to finish my teenage years feels somewhat performative, but also kind of fun, knowing that maybe some people I know use this platform to explore their interests. In general, I find it annoying how the majority of our generation thinks it's cringe to be involved in fandoms or so-called "nerdy" interests (lets not even talk about how people romanticise that shit cause it's a topic for a different day).

anyways, I'm new to this shit, but I always wanted to have a blog so I guess having this account when I am close to my 18th birthday would atleast be something to archive some of my many thoughts and experiences of being a teen in this generation.

This year, weirdly already feels like this massive impending doom upon us. Maybe its just me 🤷‍♀️

Being in Year 13 (senior year for the fellow Americans) has made me realise that I, in fact, am going to have a lot of responsibilities coming my way the moment I step out of college, of course, there will be my massive summer break (nearly 3 months cause my last exam is like the first week of June) But then Uni is going to start. And like overall, year 13 feels like my mind is going through 2x speed, assignments coming left and right, thinking about a driver's license, going through identity crises every time you feel something off about yourself. 2026 feels like I can actually sort myself out after all the years of puberty, personal life changes, and the constant routine changes (like damm, can I at least have one thing in control?) Its a time in my teenage years that made me realise a lot of things about life like: how everything is ephemeral (not permanent - IF anyone finds this blog I can write something about this)

how family life isn't perfect despite what you see in your friends houses (the idea that we all want to have a perfect life but somtimes life takes its course and we cant all just pretend that everything is fine)

friendships will fade and sometimes you have to let them go and accept its fate

sexuality is fucking confusing and no matter what people tell you its not something you choose

religion is complex and something that should be deemed personal and not something to combine with social media or politics (despite it sometimes having )

life IS tough and social media is really destroying the minds of our generation but trying to sugar coat everything and force perfect influencers onto feeds for children to then believe to think that its real.. (like yeah some of it is real but only because they're hella rich)

ANYWAYS.. I doubt anyone will read this but if you did then HEY thankyou! and if you did somewhat relate to any of this in anyway then maybe give me a follow lol..

ts got me feeling like stan from dog with a blog 😭😭😭

[caramelwhim]

i fear if you automatically think the people mad about the finale are just bylers/milevens that are mad that their ship hasn't "won", you are a tremendous part of the problem.

regardless of the ships, the insane amount of plot holes do in fact make it bad writing.

they have had THREE years to prepare this season. they promised us all of our questions would be answered. so why do i have more questions than before????? why is over 75% of the fandom so unsatisfied??????

why have we all had to convince ourselves that there were over 2 hours of scenes cut for the sake of having a last shred of hope for the finale????

people being mad over the ending goes BEYOND shipping wars. FAR beyond shipping wars. and it goes far beyond simple 'queerbaiting' too. will byers having such an ambiguous ending is blatant homophobia, while el having an ambiguous ending is not only an assassination to her character, but misogyny at its finest.

of all characters, why are the two of the most outcasted ones given the least satisfying endings? especially when these two characters are the reason the show has gotten this far in the first place?

when i say i'm mad about the finale, i don't mean i'm mad about byler not happening. that may well be the LEAST of my worries right now. it's what byler not happening represents. especially at this time period.

it's what robin and vickie breaking up off-screen and not getting their date at enzo's represents. it's what will's NON-CONFIRMED bf having no lines represents. it's what steve being in the room every single time eddie is mentioned in season 5 represents. it's what robin and nancy having little to no interactions represents. it's what el and max's lackluster reunion followed by el's claim that only mike has ever understood her represents. it's what the 'lovebirds' joke about steve and jonathan represents because that's all queer ships are to these men. a joke.

but not only queer ships, because once again, el as a character?? jane hopper? being given THAT ending? when she's been suffering from the start? so they decide the best ending for her is to make her suffer even more and follow it up with the slap in the face that was the potential ending she could've had which we know she didn't because it wouldn't make any sense??

it just irritates me how many people are trying to claim that others are just being childish for having negative opinions and conflicted feelings about the finale. because if you thought that THAT was a satisfying ending for EVERY character, please wake up.

[atticuswastaken]

How it feels telling people I use tumblr in the big 26